JaY

2011-03-07T01:15:00.002+08:00

hey. =D

it has been more than 4 months since i've lasted posted here.

it has been crazy ever since school started for the semester and seriously, i don't really feel like going everything through. but things is, i definitely learnt a lot this semester and my perspective on a lot of things changed. this semester of school has changed me into a better person. stronger, better and maybe a little bit more sinister, in a good way. =)

i really feel like coming back to blog regularly during this holiday. but i won't make any promises. let's see how it goes. =) because frankly speaking, i wanna stay off using my laptop for a while. i will be on it the whole time once the new semester starts.

i really missed those days where i can upload pictures and share videos here. and i can just go on typing and typing. the feeling is so nice. guess that happens when you grow old. last time i blog, i'm 17. now, my 18th birthday's long gone and i am studying for my driver's license. time does the job. =)

i hope to see you all here again. i'm still alive and kicking, for your information. =D

jayne. =D

2010-10-20T22:08:00.003+08:00

first of all, the tagboard here has been deleted because well, nobody really does tag there. and i hardly reply to them. and i really hate those porno or terrorist ads here, so i just deleted it once and for all. plus, i keep having trouble searching for my username and password to Cbox. =P you can leave a message for me at Twitter or Facebook if you like, the links are by the side. =D

there's quite some photos of my BigBang collection i wanna post. but i will be collecting some items tomorrow. so i guess i will upload them the next time. which will not be so soon, i guess. =P

and i have no idea when will be the next time i will be back. so yeah, take care ya all!. +D

jayne. =D

2010-09-30T01:32:00.005+08:00

sigh. i still have no idea on what to do with this blog here. i mean, i got a few ideas in mind for this blog. but... i still cannot decide on which direction to take... i don't really have the ability to manage the "weekly blog" system anymore due to irregularities of my time management and all... and sometimes, i simply do not have the will to blog. but, i really want to come here and write something once in a while. that's the whole point of it all from the beginning right? i started this blog when i was 11 and this has gone on for 6 years. i did not think of closing down my blog ever, no matter how long i leave it alone for. neither am i this time round. i will still continue blogging, but mo more regularly. maybe just once in a while. hope that will do. =)

there's too much that happened and took place ever since i last blogged. hm. let me try to recall some of the more general events..

all right, the crazy studying for my first ever exams in Ngee Ann Poly, Diploma in Psychology and Community Services. i really did study like mad. it's not that kind of studying you will expect a poly student to do, since the general stereotype of poly students are "slackers". i studied hard, i focused and i think i will do well for the exam. it's not being proud, it has always been being confident. =)

and no worries, i am still a V.I.P. as i always say, Big Bang touched me more than any other artiste had. they had lots of activities going on and the more significant one will be that Taeyang ended his solo activities already and Big Bang is aiming a comeback by the end of the year. how i personally feel about all these are on my Twitter and Facebook. and i really find it a nuisance to repeat it all over again here. but in general, all i can say is that i will wait for Taeyang faithfully. G-Dragon too. i know that the 5 of them cherish their solo time a lot, more than members of other groups. i firmly believe that they will be back, just not so soon.

this is a video done by me. for more information, right click and watch it on YouTube. it's all in the descriptions. this video is also the video featured in my blog here. =D

and this... is my cover of Wedding Dress, English version. AHHH~. i don't know what else to say about this. it's all in the description too. =)

ok then... the next thing i will touch on is the drama that i just finished watching... QUEEN SEONDEOK. yup, i know that i am slow. this drama is 1 year old already and i am only done watching it now. but really, i have no regrets watching this drama. this drama has taught me a lot of things, more than any other. the complex and imperfections of each character are perfectly portrayed by the superb acting skills of every single actor. as usual, i cry like mad during those emotional episodes. i only cry during dramas, seriously. but there are parts in this particular drama where i was so stunned by the cruelty of reality that i was just speechless with no tears coming out from my eyes. just couldn't say anything too.

my favourite character is Bidam by Kim Nam Gil. Bidam is the most complex character i've ever come across. as cliche as it may sound, i really wished to know Kim Nam Gil sooner. he is a very very very talented and great actor. he skillfully brought Bidam to live. he is not featured in those promotional posters and on the cover of those DVD sets, but he is hell of a huge main character. i guess the reason is because he did not appear until episode 20++ and hence, the production team do not want to spoil the audiences. he is more than a main character as the story goes on. trust me. =)

then my next favourite is Alcheon! he is really a supporting role, but i really like this character. i really admire his ability to stand by his principles and do the things that he feel is right without fear from higher authority. it is his courageous and righteousness that attracted me. =D

the final 5 episodes... i really dreaded them. i always dread to watch the last few episodes of long dramas. i always feel loss whenever i finish watching a long drama. just cannot quite believe that it's gone. but anyway, i cried like crazy at the last episode. i just sit on my chair, dazed and i cannot think of anything. it's just so sad. i've watched another great drama by a superb production team and cast. =D

and because of Queen Seondeok, i've become a fan of Kim Nam Gil already. i really love his flair for acting. =D really such a pity that he has to serve National Service at the peak of his career when he has been acting minor and supporting roles for so many years already. i hope his fans in Korea will stand by him for 2 years and i really wish that you will make a comeback with a powerful role, as compared to Bidam. =D he has roles so minor in My Lovely Sam Soon and the dead husband of the Geum Soon in Be Strong, Guem Soon! both dramas that are very popular, but we all failed to notice Kim Nam Gil. Queen Seondeok brought him to fame and now, he is in National Service... AHHHH~. please be back 2 years later!

KIM NAM GIL, you are officially on my list of "favourite actors" with Song Seung Heon, Park Hae Jin, Kim Bum and Jang Hyeok. i hope T.O.P is joining the list soon. =D

next drama will be Slave Hunters. it's not long but i think it's nice!. =D

ok i shall share 1 more video before i leave to watch Valencia vs Manchester United.

latest cover of mine. see the descriptions for more!. =D

thank you for coming here always. yes, you! no one else, you.

i will try my best to blog more often. =D

jayne. =D

2010-09-12T22:17:00.002+08:00

hey all. =D

hm. i've had people asking me why i haven't blog in such a long time. and well, firstly, i'm surprised that so many people actually do read my blog. just that you all don't tag. =P anyway, thanks for coming to this boring blog so often to check me out.

to answer the question. hm, i've been thinking of changing this blog's format to make it more interesting. no longer making it a narrating of daily happenings, which even i myself find boring. and it's really quite difficult for me to recall what happened every single day. so, i will be changing my blogging style. to be make it more interesting? i don't know. i just hope to make it a pleasant and enjoyable visit or read for you and for me. =D

as of now, i am still thinking. i already have a few ideas in mind. i hope they will materialise soon with my efficiency. =D

thank you all for your visits!. =D

jayne. =D

2010-08-27T22:06:00.004+08:00

decided to blog now because my weekend is awfully packed. with exciting and unexciting events. i shall elaborate on them later, if i remember. but from what i see now, i will not have 5 hours of free time during the weekends. i finished my studying for today much more earlier than expected.. so yup, here i am!. =D

Sunday, 22nd August 2010

base on my Tweets, Sunday was kind of a peaceful day for me. i stayed at home to study and it is the day where i finally started on Psychology. well, it really wasn't easy for me to start on the textbook. if you have no idea how a Psychology textbook is like, it's just really big blocks and chunks of words. if you think your Sec 3 or 4 textbook is dull and boring, try my Psych textbook. phew~. my eyes can just close after a page or 2 even though the content is interesting. but the use of words... is... dull. but the usage of words is essential to bring out the essence of that particular theory or example... so, i really can't say too much of my own opinion on this. it will contradict everything by the end of my self-debate.

to better illustrate the difficulty, let me use an example. i can finish 3 chapters of Sociology in a day, at the very least. but for Psychology, sometimes i cannot even finish 1 chapter in a day. that's how detailed Psychology is. phew.

Fulham vs Manchester United at night. well, i think that we played well. but due to some serious defending and attacking errors, we drew the game. as said, Nani shouldn't take the penalty at all. and what was Evans doing at the goal as he watched the ball go past him? at the level he is at now, Evans will never reach the best that a defender can be like Vidic and Ferdinand. John O'Shea is the team's weakest link. he is weak in all aspects of football. defend, attack, pass, head, block and most importantly, footballing sense. i sometimes feel that he look lost on the pitch. sigh. i hope we can get over the errors and do much better tomorrow at Old Trafford as we play against West Ham.

Monday, 23rd August 2010

went to Republic Polytechnic to study with Clarence and Sandy! gosh it has been a month before i see them both! i really like meeting up with old friends after such a long while. it's like we work on our own for whatever we wanna achieve for ourselves, but we still do not forget our friends and the way we value our friendships is what i love the most. =D

and as usual, waking up at a particular time for me during non-schooling days is a huge chore for me. i really am bad in waking up during non-schooling days. the motivation is just different for me to get up more quickly and easily. =P

and i have to say that my current alarm tone is one that really fails to wake me up. because i love the song so much, i always let it ring and i am just plain reluctant to stop it. it's Stay by BigBang. =P

anyway, yup we studied at RP and jason ho joined us a little while later. i find that place really nice to study. not that NP is not good, but it is just too far and out of the way if 3 people who stay in the North go to NP just to study. RP is definitely the better choice. =) while studying, the guys were really kind of sick as they saw girls walking past. their thinking can be really disturbing sometimes. but i don't know why, i don't take these as "unacceptable" and i sometimes even join in the fun. or i just listen. =P i should find their thoughts revolting, but i am not. somebody tell me why. 0...o

the studying was quite productive and i am glad to have spent some time with my precious friends. i admit that i am not a very good friend when it comes to meeting up and spending quality time with each other. sometimes i am forgetful, sometimes i am not. the way i prioritise things in my life is somewhat personal and maybe very unacceptable to you, and so sometimes i really do not have the time or space for my friends. and i can't say that it's because i have "too many friends" because i put priorities over certain groups of friends. i am not Miss Popular who got calls and texts so much so that my phone will keep ringing/vibrating... but it is the individualistic nature of me that i will want to be left alone for most of the time. so i really thank my friends for understanding what i really want. thank you so much!. =D

i don't know why. i feel that i can relate to music and singing so much better than to talk and share my problems with a person, no matter how close that person is to me personally. i think that it is really obvious that i am in love with music and singing so much. but i really do not have the talent for taking up any instruments. i tried really hard before. but... i don't know. maybe i have a disability in learning musical instruments. the furthest i can go besides singing is lyrics-writing. sigh. sometimes, it's really depressing to not being able to be more of a complete and skillful person who likes music and also able to play it. ok fine, nevermind. i get too dramatic whenever i touch on this topic. =P and if you realised, the way i think gets more and more abstract. and the way i phrase it gets weirder and weirder. ...

walked around in Causeway Point and as i stepped into Music Junction, they were playing Where U At! i lingered in the store until the whole of Solar finished playing. i just hid in 1 corner as i quietly mouthed Wedding Dress. =P and please, do not say that i did not warn you. never ever buy BigBang stuffs from Music Junction please! they are all parallel imports and they all look so fake! urgh. =P

reached home and was awfully tired due to 1 whole day of studying. slept for a whole 2 hours because i could simply function no more. the first time i had to take a nap since the break started. sigh~ but i was all full of energy after the nap. =D

as i checked Twitter after i woke up, Wedding Dress English Version's preview was out! although that preview was of really low quality, i know that Taeyang will never ever disappoint me. =D

carried on with my studies and i finished that chapter before watching Man City vs Liverpool. man, i have to be honest and say that the more i study PCS-related stuffs, the more i feel that i will not pursue a career in this field. but i can never say for sure, right? the worst thing of my decision-making is always due to my multi-interest. i am interested in so many things that i can never ever give up certain things. the dream for me right now is really unrealistic and even wishful thinking, to some people. but really, i am skeptical the possibility of it. which means, i sometimes think that it is possible. but sometimes, i just mock myself for being too naive and unrealistic. sigh. i just don't know. we shall see things go.

Man City vs Liverpool was quite a match for a neutral. i am anti both Man City and Liverpool, so i think that equals to a neutral. but because Liverpool was playing so badly, i was cheering for Man City by the 60th minute. sigh~ Liverpool were ripped to pieces. it was a great debut for James Milner. Adam Johnson and Joe Hart were very very impressive. Joe Hart was the star performer once again. they played really well. and i am a Manchester United fan. ... so you can imagine how crap Liverpool were.

Tuesday, 24th August 2010

as usual, it was my holiday-break routine. out of bed at around 2pm, anything before that will be considered early. then be on Jappie (the name of my laptop) until 4pm for BigBang news on Facebook, Twitter and Big Bang Updates and mails that i should reply to and then i proceed on to studying. =)

dinner at Thai Express with dad and John. Tom Yam Crayfiish Glass Noodles. i am really a Tom Yam and spicy-stuff lover. they really do spice up my life and give me a kick whenever i needed it. =) then i bought a storage container to store all my BigBang items. my Solar Deluxe Edition and my incoming Big Show DVD 2010, Solar International Edition and Shine A Light DVD. =D WOOO. and all 3 of them comes with posters!. =D i get all excited whenever i speak of them. sorry. =P

and bombs were waiting for me as i was away! Wedding Dress English Version was officially out by the time i reach home and gosh, my heart melted immediately. it's definitely different from the original version and of course, it received criticism. whatever it is, all i can say that i like this version and i am glad that Taeyang is receiving recognition for whatever he has done. he deserves all the love from fans all over the world for his awesome talent and character. =D

there is lyrics if you watch it on YouTube. it's under Descriptions. when i listen to it a month ago, i can't wait for the English one. now i listen to the English one, i sing along to it in Korean. 0..0 but anyway, i really like it. it's like i can really feel his pain... there are slight changes to the meaning of the lyrics, but the gist is still there. gosh, the English lyrics is making me cry. =( but most of all, thank you so much, TAEYANG!. =D

and YG officially announced that Taeyang's I'll Be There MV (which is the video here) reached 1 million views in just 2 days since its release! it even received praise from the American music industry. GOSH~. i really hope that they will debut in the US and get to the peak that they are so capable of achieving. =D

then news came out that Beautiful Hangover MV will be released the next day!. WHOOOO! V.I.Ps were trying to make Beautiful Hangover trend worldwide in Twitter but i don't think it did. i included Beautiful Hangover in almost all of my tweets. =P

and oh, before i forget, let me introduce you to Jishy, the fish that hangs on my table lamp. he is awesomely cute after i've drawn his nose and mouth with my highlighter and marker! i always flap his fins when i sing to BigBang's songs. he is swimming in front of me right now because i just smacked him. =DD

Jishy says HI!!!. =DD

Wednesday, 25th August 2010

have to get up early because i was meeting Sandy for lunch and study session! i check Twitter before i totally got out of contact with my bed and after seeing that Beautiful Hangover MV is released, i felt so much more motivated to get out of bed. =) and as expected, the MV did not disappoint me at all! the visuals and the angles of all the shots were really novel and it has been quite a while since i liked a MV not because of its plot or that i am totally in love with the song. because of how it is taken. =D

=DDDD ki mi wa my beautiful hangoverrrrrrr~~~. =D

right, so i had a really awesome lunch with Sandy. it has been quite some time since i had lunch because of my holiday-break schedule. lunch time is far over by the time i get up. but anyway, lunch at Breeks was awesome! i really love the spaghetti with mushroom sauce and smoked salmon. =DD

then Clarence joined us and we went to study at Republic Poly. =D

as much as i tried to counter my need and desire for coffee, it was unsuccessful at all. i simply need it to start my day off in order for my day to be productive. i was really dozing off after lunch and i was only at the 2nd page of the textbook. ... so i went to the 7 eleven to look for coffee of some sort. and i saw this!

it's Ah Ka Pae Ra. which is A-Cafe-la, which is the name of this brand, i think.
below it is Ba Nil Ra Ra Ttae, which is Vanilla Latte. =DD

this coffee is really awesome. totally lit me up for work. the aroma is so nice and the sweetness is just right. i am infamous for not adding sugar nor milk to my coffee, fyi. and, it's $2 for 270ml of it. the bottle is so small and cute! it's not those 500ml bottle of coffee. 500ml of coffee at one go is crazy. 270ml is just nice and $2 is definitely worth it for its quality. =D

Sandy came to stay over and while she was coming over, i used Jappie and found out that BIGBANG are coming to Singapore! i knew of this Kpop concert quite long ago, but seriously, i never ever would have expected Big Bang to be one of the 6 bands to be here. they are Big Bang, for crying out loud! they are the biggest shots of Kpop!. i am still coming to terms with the news right now. and because YG still haven't release official announcement on this, i am still really doubting it. but whatever it is, the excitement was really crazy! Sandy was kinda taken aback by my craziness but i was jumping, screaming and shouting in my room. i totally lost my image in front of her. she kept saying that it was not-Jayne to be like that. i absolutely agree. Sandy has the privilege to see the crazy me.

but seriously, they are really coming????!!!!! rumours are that the best tickets are priced at SGD 298 but it's really not yet official. ticketing details will be released soon and i am stalking Proof Label's Facebook and Twitter every second i am online. i am so going if BigBang is really coming. i just cannot miss it, for crying out loud! i am going to order the V.I.P light stick and wear Taeyang's Solar T-Shirt there. =D BIGBANG BIGBANG HWAITING!. =D

yeewei, liting and i were super excited over this ok!! soshified, shawol and vip! all our favourites will be together on that stage! how cool is this?! OMGOMOGMOGMG. i still cannot believe this. =P this is simply too awesome! after all the excitement, i really hope that this whole concert will work out. i don't want my feelings to be cheated. =P

AGAGAAGAGA. okok. so anyway, what we did at night while Sandy was here... was. well, nothing much. i went crazy over BigBang, Sandy was totally shocked. then. i finally calmed down after a very long time and we went back to studying. and we talked well into the morning. we slept at 6am. those long talks you always have with a friend because you don't get to see him/her often are really nice. =D but we got so tired, it's the first time we immediately fell asleep after i announce that we are going to sleep. =P

Thursday, 26th August 2010

we woke up at 2pm when she actually had a appointment. but when you can't even open your eyes properly, forget about going anyway to do anything with purpose. ... rest is essential, not sleep. your eyes can be close and you are sleeping, but you are so troubled and keep on having nightmares and all, then what's the point of sleeping?? resting can just be listening to music and doing stuffs to take your mind off whatever that is bothering you. it makes a whole lot of difference. =D

and and, BigBang's latest single in Japanese, Somebody to Luv. =DDD i am now really into this song. =D

anyway, we woke up, i used Jappie and we had lunch at Kopitiam. i had the same thing again. no prize for guessing right. =P (i think it was at least my 4th time in a week) we went to MacDonalds to study and we were invited to leave as dinner time was approaching. ...

came back up and i received news that stores in Causeway Point were having discounts. and so, we went there really spontaneously. =P it was really last minute without any planning but it was kind of underwhelming. nonetheless, i bought lots of stuffs! =D

4 t-shirts and a pair of shoes for $63!. =D i am really obsessed with t-shirts and shoes. hoodies, jackets, jeans, accessories, bags!. =D i have a soft spot for them all. =P i really look forward to wearing all my new clothes. now i even got a list for them in case i ever forget to wear them. and i am planning when to wear them and on what occasion to wear them because i believe the first time really does needs a good start. =D

i have much more t-shirts than most people do, but i really can and do remember each of them and the occasions that i wear them to. from my Psychology textbook, "we receive so much useless sensory information each day, our memory system has mechanisms for getting rid of unneeded sensory information." i have shortage of such mechanisms.

i really like the feeling of buying clothes and apparels that i like. if it's at a cheap price, i think i can fly to the sky. =D typical girl shopaholic? whatever. =P to me, it's really hard to come by something that i really like. and if i can buy it and own it, it means that the item is really fated to be with me and be mine. you can say that i am thinking too much into it, but that's how i really see it. and to me, it is not about showing off whatever branded stuffs i have. i don't even own anything from those high-end brands like Chanel and Prada. i always look out for sales and only buy when they are below normal retail price. and i am never in a rush to buy anything without considering it's worth. and so yeah, i think i am a smart shopper. =D and to me, it's really not about looking cool and nice. it's more of being presentable and to me, i show whoever i am meeting or whoever that looks at me at that time the respect by dressing appropriately. it's really basic courtesy and respect. =D

and for the rest of the night, i did nothing much but youtubing BigBang videos. on Wednesday night, i screamed and sang so hard that my voice went hoarse and my face turned hot and red. last night, i laughed so hard that my voice went hoarse from all the funny BigBang videos. they were mostly videos when they just debuted, when Taeyang's hair is still in braids (or whatever you call them). =P

Friday, 27th August 2010

woke up really reluctantly, seriously. it has been like this for a few days running already. i always put my alarm at 1pm even though i do not need to get up by then. i just let it ring to remind me of the time, which is damn annoying. and i got up at 2pm. studied, blah~....

was really tired and so i took a few pictures of my room using Jammie (my camera). i must be the only one person in this whole wide world to show off such a messy room. but i always like my room to be messy. because... well, it's just who i am. =D

i hardly make the bed after getting up during holidays-break and when i know i will be in the room for the whole day. to me, making the bed is only for show and display purposes. Jappie is abandoned to the side while i am studying to prevent me from getting distracted. my phone is charging. and so, there are a lot of cables, wires and chargers in my room. i myself have tripped over them for countless times.

from a higher view. look at those messy cables on the right side. and on the right side there is my beloved CD player, which always has a CD inside at all time. =D

my messy-beyond-words desk. the desk is decorated with photos taken with my beloved friends. all my necessities can be found on this desk. from contact lens solution to hole puncher to ticket stubs to snacks to to-do-notes to facial mask.... EVERYTHING. and that is why there is always not enough space on my desk. the sides and compartments are all stuffed with these and that. there is just enough room for my legs under the table because there are boxes of things there too. not even the slightest space is spared. =P

i think i really do need a de-clutter-er. i am bad in organising things. i am only good in organising non-material things like events and parties. =P

ok i am sort of done with my weekly report of happenings in my life. right now, i am playing Connection, I'll Be There (English), I'll Be There and Wedding Dress (English) on repeat. i want my copy to arrive soooooon!. =P

their latest live performance, just earlier in the day today. i love BIGBANG to the max!. =D they really make me so much more happier. more and more friends that met me after i became obsessed with them say so. =P

OH OH!. i forgot to mention that Taeyang's Solar International Edition is appearing in charts of Western countries like US and Canada!. OMG i am so happy for him!. he is finally gaining all the recognition! i really hope that BigBang will debut in US. they will be daebak (big hit) !. =DDD

and i have dedicated 2 hours of my everyday time to BigBang. on YouTube, Facebook, Twitter and BigBang Updates. =D

and with the lyrics of Wedding Dress (English) out, i am so tempted to do a cover of it. i can sing it at once, which kinda surprised me. we shall see how. =D

i am really excited for tomorrow! going to meet YanLin and Gena and the guys. not sure if they are coming, i hope they are!. =P my beloved friends... =DDD

and so, i am sleeping earlier than usual. and because i forcefully forced myself up today, i am so damn tired now. phew.

i will be out for the whole of Saturday. reach home, Manchester United vs West Ham. then a few hours of sleep and i have a trip to Malaysia. phew. my weekend is packed. then meeting with LiTing on Monday. book me as soon as you need me to be at wherever you want me to be, don't say i never warn you. sigh. =X

till then. seeya!

BIGBANG!. =D

jayne. =D

2010-08-22T00:16:00.004+08:00

this week has really passed in a blur. i don't know why... maybe it's because of my unusual sleeping pattern. if you still have no idea how i live during holidays (or supposedly so), your afternoon is my morning, your night is my afternoon, your middle of the night is my night. i only sleep at your dawn. and my average wake-up time is 1pm to 2pm, 12pm will be considered as early. yeah, that's the gist of the whole idea. i don't know why i prefer living like this, i prefer to be active when the world is quiet and vice. just my own unique preference, i guess. =)

as i blog, i am constantly referring back to my Tweets, if not, i will never be able to blog successfully. because as of now, my mind is is currently in a fuzzy state. =P

warning: this post is going to be wordy because i haven't been in much action this week. =P

Sunday- 15th August 2010

it was the day where i really was determined to pen down all the story outlines that i have in mind. my last story ended quite abruptly due to my lack of persistence and capability to come out with a satisfying masterpiece. i'm never much of a writer. i do not have the writing flair that so many budding writers out there possesses, but i think that the thing i have in me is the stories that i have to tell for my characters. i don't know how to use flowery and smooth-sailing language to express the message that i am trying to convey, but i believe in my content... but i know that it will never be enough. but still, just writing it down does no harm right. the ideas are constantly coming in and my inspirations are flowing real smoothly. if i don't pen it down, my head will really explode. i spent the whole of the afternoon writing it... the details and all. i thought the storyline was quite good. we shall see if i publish it online or what. maybe i will. maybe it will be forever in my notebook. who knows, right? =P

and well, the main thing is.... as i was writing so smoothly and i was really engrossed in writing. unknowingly , my eyes were flowing with tears. say i'm not really saddened by anything or whatever, but maybe it's because of how i always relate and put myself into my characters that makes me that emotional. =P

spent the evening watching Real Sound by Taeyang and it's the last episode of it. was really quite surprised that it only has got 4 episodes. really wished that it was longer because this show sort of documents his personal thoughts and the other side of Taeyang that we normally don't see. he is really an individual with lots of values and character in him. i really admire him for his determination and hard work he has put in in order to reach the stage he is in today. he is awesome! he will always be my favourite in Big Bang, no matter how much i gush about G-Dragon. they are both similar, and yet different. it's not fair and right to compare. =D

Taeyang said he like food like spaghetti and pizza! i was having Pizza Hut at that time. hahhha!. =D okok, sorry. crazy fan in action. =P

went on e-bay to look out for Big Bang goods and i am so damn glad that i do not have a credit card and paypal account. if not i will be in deep trouble now. i go all out for whatever that i like and support, some of you might have witnessed the exaggerating extent of "all out". but after all the exploring around, never ever buy from an e-bay seller. they sell so much more expensive than blogshops! i don't mind paying for that item, but my principle is that the money must be well spent and worth the value!. =P

first match of EPL for both Arsenal and Liverpool are against each other. and i have to say that this match has all your dramas. red cards, unlikely equaliser, etc etc. but personally for me, i feel that Arsenal could have done so much more better to win the match. they were 1 man up for quite some time but they did not use their numerical advantage and let it a goal instead. they could have win the game but they didn't. but ok, their opponents are Liverpool, so we shall all sit on that fact.

Monday- 16th August 2010

met YeeWei in school to study together. and the feeling of going back to school after just a week is pleasantly surprising. i actually missed the train ride and all to school. i get to listen to Big Bang in the train, i just look around and observe people... and after i stepped on campus ground, all the familiarity comes back. feels good to be in NP, i must say. it has become my home, for some reason. =D

yeah and we talked a lot about k-pop stuffs. mostly about Big Bang. cause i'm new to being a "fangirl" and so i have lots to learn from LiTing and YeeWei. hahahha i just cannot stop talking to YeeWei because i just feel that i have endless things to say to her. she is sooo cute and her perspective on things are very different from others, that's how i feel. i like being with ahwei. and studying with her is really productive. i can ask her things, we discuss it together, look for answers until we are certain of it and we hardly distract each other unless we're having breaks. =P

speaking of breaks! i reward myself with 1 video view on youtube after each chapter is reviewed and gosh, i must say i love using youtube on my phone! the image and quality is so good! i am constantly looking for reasons to cherish and love my phone. =D

the rain was very strong and heavy while i am on my way home. my obsession with the rain is one that i cannot find the reason for also. maybe it's because i like to wear jackets and long sleeves out. i like jackets, long sleeves, long pants and hoodies. i like to wear them out. but it is simply not possible in Singapore. sometimes, even jeans are killing me. i need a cooler climate. =P

for the record, my obsession with apparels are black (and white) graphic and vintage-designed t-shirts, Manchester United merchandises, caps, sneakers (high tops and low dunks inclusive), hoodies and jackets. oh! accessories like wristbands and rings... AW MAN. i am dead if i have credit cards. urgh. =X

i had 麻辣双鱼粗米粉汤 for dinner, i still remember. it was damn awesome! and it came in a HUGE bowl to justify it's value. it's $6... 0..0 but i was hungry enough to finish it. i didn't have anything for 7 hours before that. =P

then out with John for his supper at midnight. the usual midnight, not the midnight by my definition. it was really cool ya know. having the windows open in the car at 1.30am... i like this kind of rides. makes me look at the world differently sometimes. =P

then we watched Manchester United vs Newcastle. i was really anticipating the match because it has been really long since i watch a competitive match of theirs. please do exclude Community Shield. 0..0 anyway, i am really pleased at how they are performing. older players Giggs and Scholes grabbed all the headlines and at the end of the day, it's always the team effort. =D MANCHESTER UNITED for life!. =D

right. to be honest. i wasn't really paying attention to the match. i was... more of surfing the net most of the time because it was kinda boring at times. i was looking for BigBang goods, comparing prices.

and i was looking for sneakers. my sneaker collection is feeling lonely. =( and i found a Japanese brand called MADFOOT! the spree is over in that particular blogshop and so i tried all my might to look for a physical shop that sells it in Singapore. gosh, the price that they are selling it at is 3 times more than the blogshop. i shall wait for the next spree then. =(

Tuesday- 17th August 2010

there was nothing much to Tuesday except that i was studying. if you minus all my Tweets that gushes about or are BigBang related, my day was quite dull. spent the entire day studying Sociology.

started to Tweet with #happyGday for G-Dragon's birthday on the 18th. you should have seen how it trended! gosh, feel so damn proud of myself. =D

the plan was to meet Denise at 10am in school. so it means i have to get up at 8am, at the latest, if i do not want to be late or anything. but i only went to sleep at 5a.m.++ because my mind was sooo occupied with all those nonsensical hilarious thoughts and scenes. i shall pen them down later, i think. before i forget them. =P

Wednesday- 18th August 2010

i seriously have no idea how i can even get out of bed. but i still did. and... well. went to school and we studied real comfortably in the library. =D

it really nice to see XinXin after so long! cause we didn't really get to talk much during the outing. and... we have so much to say to each other! it's like we are afraid of the other to miss out on any details of what's going on in our lives.

i cannot stop smiling like a total idiot for the entire day because it's G-Dragon's birthday. yes, i know. it's his birthday, why should i be the one who's so happy? i don't know... was tweeting about G-Dragon for the whole day and i just listened to his songs. i am really liking A Boy more and more. the more i put my attention on the lyrics, the more i really admire him as a singer-songwriter. he is a genius, no doubt. his determination, his passion, his pure talent. =D

can't help but keep thinking that this is my first time ever since my primary school days where i was so crazy over Energy and Jay Chou. and hence, the name of my blog. i am not so into them already but i still retained that url. but anyway, XinXin was also surprised at my obsession over Big Bang. "first time that i see you go insane over men...". OMO. =P

we had Chicken Chop for lunch! gosh. it has been way too long since i've had such good and cheap western food. not to forget it's just in campus! everyone should eat it once in their lifetime. it's too awesome to be missed. =P

and so, as usual. playful and nonsensical after lunchtime.

from top to bottom:

ngyi sin sin, deur ni seu (lee xin xin, denise)
ngyang chu ngyi (yang chu yi)
chae ngyin (jayne)
nguae dying deu rae seu (wedding dress)

i know this romanisation sounds weird, there is this pronunciation rule. which i am lazy to elaborate here. as long as you get the point. =P

ha ru ha ru (haru haru)
byig beng (big bang)
te ngyang (taeyang)
so neon ngyi ngyeo ( A Boy)
na man pa ra poa (Only Look At Me)
saranghaeyo, which i made a mistake.. yes i am still a noob. i will improve. =P

and XinXin took a series of pictures of me but i am so not going to put it here nor on Facebook. it's too embarrassing. urgh. =P

we didn't really study that much, but i still completed what i expected of myself. partly due to the after-lunch-dozing-bug that really pulled me off the track for studying. then we ended up talking and all... though we still studied. =P

then i suddenly feel like going to the Multimedia section of our library purely because we haven't been there before. and i was up for experiencing something new. to a certain extent, i was bored of all the same thing in school. i was craving for something new... and so we did go into the Multimedia section.

we were all excited to borrow the films but found out that they were feature films and we have to return them the next day. the ones that were normal loans were documentaries and educational. HOWEVER. the exciting part came.

DENISE found Big Bang Big Show 2009! i was literally dumbfounded there. my mouth was hung open, i was so surprised that i couldn't even manage to scream. Ngee Ann Polytechnic Lien Ying Chow Library has Big Bang DVDs... OMO OMO. and i can borrow it for 2 weeks! that's the greatest thing man! and of course, i grabbed it at first sight and went to borrow it. there were hitches during the borrowing process but when i finally got it done successfully, i was on cloud nine. HAPPY is an understatement, seriously. =D they also have tonnes of BoA and Ayumi. aw man. NP is just... awesome. =D

after leaving that section, i noticed a "Request for accompanying material(s) at Counter" and i thought the materials should be just some headphones or what. but i was curious and just went to ask for it. the librarian took quite some time to get back to me and what she was holding nearly got me screaming there and there.

*flips the PHOTOBOOK nonchalantly*
"it's just a photobook, do you want it?"

i tried all my might to hide my excitement.

"oh yeah. why not? ok."

if you are a fan of anything, you will then understand my excitement. it's too amazing to be true, seriously. and so, i placed the stuffs in my bag cautiously and went home eagerly. =P

thank you so much XINXIN! for discovering the DVD!. =D

went home, unopened the DVDs and i thought that the school must have some precautions to prevent loaners from copying and reproducing the materials. but i just wanted to try my luck. and OMO. it worked. i have been too great on luck. or is it all fated? it's kind of creepy. =P

and of course, i will want to document this whole process. and since i need to return the DVD and photobook by 1st Sept, i took photos of it. as expected, i took so much photos that my battery went dead. and as usual, i have a spare one on standby. =D

the library record that i have. =D it is soooooo cool! i have Big Bang on my loan records!. =D

the loan receipt from borrowing Big Show 2009. =D

the loan receipt for borrowing the photobook. =D

how it looks on the outside. =D

the first DVD which contains the main concert performances. =D

the 2nd DVD which consist of hilarious VCRs and all the makings of the concert. =D

and i shall only upload 5 photos which i have taken of the photobook, in case i get into any trouble of any sort. =P

minus away the anti-climax-ness of the code tag, i like this picture because it puts BIGBANG in the spotlight. =D

all ready for Big Show 2009!. =D

the gentle side of him with his dog. and he is always having fun with kids. =D

he is one leader that i have the most respect for. his talent, his passion and his determination. =D

i never have thought Seungri as the one who will hold a guitar and be so serious in singing. =P

and so, i could not wait any longer to watch the DVD though it was already late and i was tired. but seriously, i cannot just go to sleep without watching it, knowing that i have it on my table. and so i watched Big Show 2009 although i was damn exhausted.

i've watched pretty much of their performances in Big Show 2009 on YouTube but the feeling is different when you are viewing it in a higher quality with better sound system and also with bigger screen. all i can say is that they did not disappoint me at all. they have not disappoint me before, as a fan. they ended my day with a huge smile on my face and every single one of their performances showed the effort they put in and all... it was awesome!. =D

they are so young, yet they are so capable of such great stunts. they rule, really. =D

Thursday- 19th August 2010

Big Bang 4th Anniversary! was spamming Twitter with #bigbang4ever and it was no.1 on trending for a few hours! YES!. =D 4 years, they grown so much and improved so much. the more i check them out, the more i find them worth my time and money. =D

basically i did Sociology past year papers for the whole day. and gosh, it made me very very very depressed. it was really much more difficult and tricky than i expected it to be. i have to spend so much time to answer only 1 question and i am not even sure if i am correct or not. i need to practice more man. thank goodness i have Big Bang with me as i toil over the questions. =)

only used the lappie late at night and G-Dragon has a new hairdo! saw it from the message to V.I.Ps and they are really nice and the responsibility that they have towards V.I.Ps are really what i respect the most about them. =D

he is always surprising people with his hairstyle and his fashion sense. =D
if you are interested enough to know what they are saying, you can leave a tag here or something. once again. although i don't reply to tags, i check my blog everyday, ok? =)

and HA! XinXin suddenly has the idea of dying her hair blond. gosh. that's really tempting. i have been contemplating that idea for quite some time already. all the colours i've tried on my hair are all natural colours like copper, bronze and brown. blue seemed to be a little bit too extreme but i will really want to try it one day when i finally can muster the courage. but right now, blond is really tempting me. there's just too many factors to be considered. it's not like i can turn it back to whatever colour i want to next day if i don't like it. i will think it through properly before doing anything drastic. but my next scheduled highlight session will be just before the next semester starts. october... so i still have some time to think it through. do give me your advices. =P

and yes, to a certain extent, i admit, GD influenced my decision. 0..0

and i started to download all the songs that Big Bang started out with. and gosh. they really surprised me. cause John only listens to their songs after Lies. and so... i really like some of their songs. my favourites are Oh Ma Baby, Make Love and Nice Person. the style is not really the same and the typical Big Bang you know. but i really like the way they play with vocals. =D

and TAEYANG's new song I'll Be There's MV is out! OMO the visuals and the choreography! TAEYANG is so going to reach new heights with the release of this song. even Perez Hilton likes it. =P

this song also has a English version. OMO i cannot wait to get my hands on his International Edition of Solar. it comes with a poster. OMO OMO. =DDDD

and i watched the special features DVD of Big Show 2009. cause. i was shaking and almost falling off the chair from laughing. they are so damn hilarious! the VCR of them in the amusement undercover and Big Bang Virus are just earth-shakingly hilarious!. they really do light up my life. =D

and i think i will never stop looking for the answer as to why i am suddenly so crazy over Big Bang. why why why? the only logical explanation that i can offer myself is that they helped me tide over a very difficult period of time in my life. they are more than an idol group to me, definitely. they are who i admire, look up to and respect. their music and performances brought joy to my life and the way they worked so hard to be where they are today really inspired me... =D

got emo at night because of... i don't know. just some sudden rush of emotions. maybe it's due to the study fatigue. but as usual, i got over it with sleep and i am all good again for the day. =D

Friday- 20th August 2010

the highlight of the day was that i went out with ZUONI (john)!. =D i went to Herbalife to get my stuffs first and we went to Somerset 313 to walk around!. =D and i know it's embarrassing to say this. but it's really the 1st time that i'm there. i was super excited to check out all the shops. the t-shirts, shoes, hoodies, jackets, CDs... OMO OMO.

gosh i really love the Limited Edition Vault there. what i find this store different from the one at Queensway in there this store has sneakers of more classic and vintage designs whereas the one at Queensway has more of funky and loud designs. but they are really awesome! my eyes all lighted up when i see those cooooool sneakers. high tops, low dunks, pointed, leather, canvas, etc etc. they are all awesome!. =D

John did not find the HMV there impressive but i really like it there too! i like their collection of Muse t-shirts and they are really the place to look for k-pop CDs. but please. do not buy from there. the price can induce current within you. source out for blogshops. =) anyway, i am really happy to have seen the singles of Big Bang that i never knew existed. =D

then we had dinner at this Imperial Treasure hongkong fastfood concept restaurant. it looked posh but then the prices of the food are really reasonable for such quality, ambiance and location. =D

i am really surprised at the amount of charsiew i got. it almost covered the whole of the noodles. it's really nice!. =D

i shall not upload John's niu nan mian here. it looks damn unappetizing but it is really nice too. =D

went home after that and i had a really nice pastry from the Imperial Treasure Bakery. i am not sure whether it's cake or bread. but i will take note of the name the next time i buy it. i was so determined to finish it, i forgot to take a quick picture of it. next time, i promise. =P

then i ironed my clothes while listening to Big Bang using dad's marantz system. gosh. my Philips player is nothing compared to marantz. seriously. all i could remember was i lost i am in the world of Big Bang and how loudly and openly i sang to their songs... the quality of the music brings the whole idea to a totally new level. =D

did a bit of Sociology and then i went back to using the lappie. suddenly felt like going back to Wikipedia to check them out. in case i miss out anything i should know. and really. i missed out big time. i like Only Look At Me so much and yet i didn't know that G-Dragon has a Part 2 version of it. quickly downloaded it and i soooo love it too! it is really different from Taeyang's version. but still like it very much!. videos down there. =D and i spent the night just looking at videos. and i am more determined to buy G-Dragon's Shine A Light Concert DVD. =D

Saturday- 21st August 2010

i spent the first half of the day doing Sociology non stop. it came to a point where i am literally dragging through each question. a huge sigh of relieve comes after i'm done with a whole question. it's really tough. it was really with the help of G-Dragon's Only Look At Me then i managed to keep going on. huge load off my chest when i finally managed to finish the entire paper. phew.

oh oh oh! they have a preview of their new song out already! it's called Somebody to Luv and i cannot wait for the whole song to be released! their comeback with a full album is SOOOOOON. =DD

made dinner for myself. was really clueless on what to make but the lazy me bought the same hargao and siewmai again. but i bought something different too. Honey Pork Ribs!. =D

i just cooked to noodles with stock, threw the ribs in, microwaved the hargao and siewmai and the chilli sauce are leftovers from KFCs. =P geehee. and TADA. one meal for jayne. =D

i managed to finish the ribs without dirtying my fingers. give me credit for that ok. =D

searched for videos to watch while eating. and videos are down there!. =D

all right. then it was time for football! gosh how much do i miss sitting in front of the television to watch sports. football and tennis especially. was watching Arsenal vs Blackpool. it was a rout. ... but anyway, still a good game. nicely done, Walcott. please silence all your critics with whatever you have!. =D

ok! videos time! the section that i love most because i really like to share what i like. =D

i really like this piano cover. it's very easy for me to sing along too and i am aiming to do a cover of Wedding Dress. soon, i promise. =D

he sings, he dance and he steals my heart. =D

he has so much more space on stage for his talent. he gives me a totally new and different feeling when he is on stage solo. =D

i was thinking. ain't this Forever With You? hm. but anyway. they are awesome. their greatest asset is their ability to sing live. =D

the promotion video for Taeyang's upcoming concert on 24th September, i think. it's going to be real good! they must have a DVD out for this concert!.

performance with Taeyang during Shine A Light. you see their chemistry and how nicely the song is done by the 2 of them!. =D

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZczmION_J6w&feature=player_embedded

and this video really touched me. the friendship and love between these 2 person from boys to man. i really envy their friendship so much. they have so much love, respect and understanding for each other! =D

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1ZVL05idtDg&feature=player_embedded

live performance of I'll Be There. be prepared to be star-struck!. =D

GD is a caring hyung. not everyone can do it like he does. =D

i feel so sad when i see the boy crying so hard. but i cannot stop laughing because GD can't cry at all!!. cause it's too damn dramatic. =P

they were still newcomers and were really overwhelmed and touched by V.I.Ps and once Seungri starts crying, others too. can't believe that they were once like that. they are getting stronger and stronger. no doubt. =D

my favourite Lies performance. guess who's the conductor? =D

GD as a playful dongsaeng. =D

last but not least. this video is from Big Bang 1 Night 2 Days, which is included in Big Show 2010. it's like the 5 of them went on a trip and they had games and activities that brought them closer together after not spending much time together due to their solo activities. i chose this part to be uploaded here because i cried while watching it.

everyone was saying how a difficult year 2009 was for GD because of the controversies and criticism he faced. he endured and overcame them one by one. and it wasn't easy for him at all. being a leader of the group and of himself, he has such high expectations that he will not allow himself to falter in front of the camera and his members, whom his is suppose to take care of. it was really touching when Taeyang, his 10 years of close friend, wanted to say comforting words but GD just refused to be comforted. though it was all jokingly expressed, i can really see their concern for each other, especially from Seungri too. he is the youngest in the group but he feels so much for his hyung, whom he saw was having a great deal of hard time. T.O.P really surprised me with that exceptionally message to GD. and yes, i teared. =(

and when it was GD's turn.. he, as usual, was his crazy self. but he became serious when he wanted to convey his message.

"i will lead you at the front, i want you to push me at my back..."

is the final straw for me to tear. he is only 23 years old, for crying out loud. i always feel that people are really harsh in judging them just because they are celebrities. they are growing as well! and also, with his message, i look forward to their upcoming album more than ever! it's totally produced by G-Dragon himself and he wrote all the songs too! this boy/man, has all my respect and admiration. =D a few minutes into the video until the part i mention. =)

and G-Dragon, being infamous for always waking up late, woke up earlier than some of them in order not to bring the group down for punishment. even he himself is shocked, not to mention the others. he is.... beyond words to describe. =D

G-DRAGON!. jiyong!. =D

this VCR will be included in Big Show 2010. can't wait for my copy to arrive!. with poster! WOOTS. =DDDD

ahahhaa. ookk. it's 5.23a.m. now.
i am going to wash the dishes. and off to bed. =D
hope you like the videos. =D

jayne. =D

2010-08-14T23:03:00.007+08:00

change of mind to blog today, right now, because i've decided to not on my laptop because i seriously need to concentrate on studying already. my progress of studies is not good at all... and seriously, i am not being hard on myself. it just isn't right... sigh~. studying is the most boring thing that can happen to a student. i love learning and going to school, but studying for a test... is inevitable and detestable. urgh.

first and foremost, let me share a video taken last Friday. me and Amanda were suppose to be studying for Korean, but we end up doing something else, as always. then i just asked her to act emo and i sang 홍두|| originally by SEEYA (Li Bo Ram), a song from one of my favourite K-Drama, East of Eden. i apologise for the impromptu incorrect lyrics! (which i think takes it to a different meaning... =X)

hope you guys liked it!. =P

basically, i can't remember much from this week other than some of the significant events that took place. it's first week of this 3-weeks break and i spent most of the time slacking and resting and not doing anything of high importance. =P

Sunday

FA Community Shield and Manchester United won it!. how nice to be able to see my favourite team win yet another silverware and i think it certainly proved to people how capable our current squad is, to a certain extent. since some people do not see the Community Shield as prestigious. but whatever it is, i see a bright future ahead of this current squad that we have. young, full of energy and passion, always striving for the best that we can achieve. =D

anyone spotted how Fergie has put on weight? OMG. me and John were speechless. but he's still the greatest manager of all, in my opinion. =D

spent an awfully long time to sort out the slides to print out for examination revision. trust me, it's really not that easy. the manual work that i have to do is horrendous. =X

Monday

no memory of how Monday passed. well. must be another day that i slept till afternoon, used the laptop and.... oh ok. i remember spending the whole afternoon printing the slides. because i wanted to print it double-sided, i have to manually turn the pages each after odd-pages are printed.. so it wasn't that easy and fast. never undermine these work. urgh.

i get this feeling that i did something more. and after much digging from my Tweets, YES. i watched Big Bang Beginning on tvN! Gena, thank you so much for texting me about the airing of this show! OMG. i totally enjoyed the 2 episodes. i saw the formation of Big Bang.. and i love them more than ever. this documentary made me... understand more about them. they are really more than just an idol group. i can go on and on about how i feel about them, but you really have to listen to their music and hear the sincerity in their music. they are simply awesome. G-Dragon, i admire his leadership, dance, song-writing and being the main driving force behind the success of Big Bang. he has my respect. =D the talent that they have in them can go on for very long... people are already calling them legends but the oldest member is just only 23! i am proud to be a fan. they made it all possible. =D

and i spent the remaining time watching Iris, i guess. yes. keep telling me i am slow and be amazed at how busy i am to be such a slow k-drama fan. ...

for your information, i've switched to my holiday clock. which means afternoon is my morning, night is my afternoon, midnight is my night. everything is just pushed later. so i am the most active at night. =)

did another cover at night while waiting for my assignments to be submittied. and this is the first time that i really film myself... took me long enough to decide on what i really wanted to show people what i am capable of. and i think the response so far has been fairly good. yup, so here it is:

BoA's comeback album is out! can't wait to hear it. MUAHAHAHA. =D

Tuesday

nothing much on this day. only got these pictures to share from my home-alone dinner. =P

they look damn mouth-watering to me when i take pictures of them so up close. but i am really sick of them already. i am not having these for at least 1 month. =P if you do not know, i've had them for at least for a month already. you will get sick of them, no matter how nice it is. =P

Wednesday

woke up feeling very horrible... i was feeling warm while i slept and so i did not have the quilt on. huge mistake. eeek. but i my mood was instantly lightened by a chocolate pancake from Mr. Bean. it taste so great when it's warm! and it has been so long since i had it. eehee. =P

went to Junction 8 with Dad. we had Manhattan Fish Market for lunch.. the lunch was good, as usual. the fish (grilled salmon, especially) there is good. =) then we went to collect my pouch for my camera. finally. after 1 month... =P here it is:

i like the smooth texture of the pouch and the matching design with my camera. yes, i know a lot of you say it's too girlish for me. but i'm never the one to be restricted by your views ok? i love my camera so much more now. =D

then Dad sent me to East Coast Park for T04 outing. it was raining really heavily on the way. heard parts of Singapore were flooded again. took some pictures of the huge rain:

and Dad said i was lame when i told him what i was capturing. ... fine.

i reached before the group came and so the impatient me went to rent a bike of my own to cycle around first. gosh, how i love the feeling of wind against my face. the most relaxed i've felt in such a long while. =D

rode the double bike with dongsaeng (LiTing) and it wasn't really riding together. she didn't know how to ride a bike, which i totally find unbelievable. and so, it was much more difficult for me. give me some credit. =P

yes, Singapore does have places like this. you have have to look deeper than the surface.

didn't really take many pictures because it was not advisable to have my camera out due to the rain. but my phone went busted after getting soaked in seawater while i was having a great time on the beach. man.... ok more details on that later.

well, all we did was fly kite, have fun at the beach and cycle round. i really had a great time myself. it has been too long since i've been outdoors. and ok fine, i admit that i am a noob at kite-flying. 0..0 oh anyway, a clip taken during the kite-flying. =P

Winston was really determined to have his time with the kite. =D

and amidst the rain and stormy weather, i had the right emo feeling to sing.. and so LiTing agreed to be my guest in this cover... =P

and so me and LiTing went on our own for dinner because we really wanted to try the Korean BBQ despite the price that seemed ridiculous for students like us. $42 per person. ok, don't call me crazy yet! for the service and the quality/quantity of all the food, it was definitely worth it! i will definitely go back there again! the chicken... OMG. i just cannot forget how it tasted like..! the both of us cannot stop gushing how awesome our dinner was, really. it was a great reward for ourselves for all our hard work. =D

cannot stop smiling at how delicious everything is!

take a look at how nice everything is placed, like what you see in dramas. we were welcomed into the restaurant by Korean greetings! =D

my beef rib soup. no words can describe how rich the soup tasted. =D

look how nicely it is barbecued!. =D

left the bottom of the soup untouched because honestly, it tasted awful when it's not hot. =P

the heart-shaped watermelon that melted my heart. =P

the dinner was awesome!. =D remember, it's Ju Shin Jung Korean Charcoal BBQ at East Coast Park ok! just beside Long Beach and Burger King. =D

the way back home was barely bearable because my phone was not working and i did not have my ipod with me. i can never sit still with no music in my ears while on the bus or train or even while walking. i just need them to live! i can't even sleep properly without them... and my phone's screen kept misting whenever i turn it on. quickly took out the battery to prevent it from exploding in my bag. and i really dread the trip to Nokia Care. urgh.

reach home at almost mid-night and watched more Iris. gosh... i cried my heart out at that particular episode, really. it's too damn sad. i did not even cry that hard while watching "East of Eden" or "Cain and Abel". soooo sad. =( i cried until my eyes hurt. =(

Wednesday was the most happening day of my week. =D

Thursday

i pulled myself out of bed early to get my phone repaired. i only slept for less than 5 hours after stretching myself that much. was feeling damn sick because i spent the whole of Wednesday until rain and air-con. glad i took a Panadol Cold Relief before going to sleep. trust me, that pill does really work wonders. for me, at least.

it was raining throughout the entire outing and i really wonder why i turned a few shades darker. ... but it's ok, i love myself tanned. =D

and i cannot stop wondering how G-Dragon will sound like if he sings ballads. people may say that it's not his style.. but doing some dialogues in some songs (Forever With You, Haru Haru, Stay, etc) , i really feel that he will succeed if he sings ballads. the way he put his emotions into raps can be put into ballads too! he expresses himself best with his music. =D

went back to Woodlands home to get my spare phone, which was N81 8GB and it is still as healthy as a horse. it's the most lasting phone i've ever used to date, really. still working like i just bought it. =D

went to Causeway Point to get the phone done and when it was done, i walked around CD shops despite being super exhausted. and i really have the urge to buy GD's live CD. aw man. he sounds super awesome live. =D

went home and slept for 3 hours. the Nokia officer called me during my sleep and told me that my phone was beyond repair. i did not get it initially and still asked how much it would cost to repair it. she repeated that it was beyond repair and then i got the meaning... it was BAD. and of course, my heart sank. the phone was only with my for 6months! it's such a new phone and i chose it over a iPhone which was free! i am still mourning the loss of my phone. =( the best part is breaking the news to Dad. ....

home-alone dinner again and this time round, i made something different. partly because the pasta was finished. if not i will be lazy to buy something else...

i had a hard time trying to decide what to buy for "side dishes" and walked around the supermarket for a few rounds before i finally made up my mind...

decided on frozen siew mai and har gao. i only had to microwave them and i used leftover chilli sauce from KFC! it taste fantastic. =D

it looks nice and it's actually quite awful. the smart ass me thought that it will be correct to sink them in water before cooking. but it's ramen. they all stuck together i have to eat it like dough. thank goodness it isn't much and i cooked another small serving. my estimation is so poor that it isn't even enough for me... but in the end... it isn't that bad. =P

and i ate them while watching Iris. seriously, T.O.P's acting left me speechless. because i really cannot find any sign that it's his first try at acting. he is so natural at the killer role and the way he acts... really gives me goosebumps. i don't think i can ever forget that neck scene. EEWW. but he is... really good. and gorgeous. =P honestly, i paid the least attention to T.O.P amongst the 5 of them... but now... oh man, he proved to me that he is not somebody to neglect. =P i really want to watch his first movie, Into the Fire. it seemed that he has put in a lot of effort for this role and i will want to see it when the DVD or movie is hitting Singapore!. =D

Friday

Dad was pretty calm when i told him about the phone. he quickly told me to get a new one because he need to get rid of all the phone rebates he has. 0..0 and so we went to Causeway Point to buy a new phone for me. it was the first time in my life that i was not looking forward to buying a new phone because i was still feeling bad over my negligence.

lunch was at Ichiban and i had salmon again. =D

the customer service officer at Nokia said, "the seawater not only corroded the motherboard, it totally cleaned it!"... and he showed me pictures of my phone with the motherboard. parts that are suppose to be gold ended up to become silver. and he said it was the "worst case of corrosion i have seen in my life"... i can only smile back at him like it's funny.

and i was totally unprepared to buy and use a new phone. like, normally you will go online and find out and research on whichever is the most reasonable price and whichever model you want. but i have to decide there and then.

i wandered between Blackberry, HTC and LG (because they have Big Bang's picture on it. 0..0 )... and i finally chose Samsung Wave because the customer service officer recommended it to be the most reasonably-priced for a non-contract phone. the Blackberry Storm 2 that i wanted initially cost $1000++ with no contract. 0..0 after much struggle, i finally got a Sumsung Wave. let me pay a tribute to my old phone... =(

Dear N86 8MP,

I am so sorry for ruining you just after 6 months. The most unfortunate thing is that you are beyond repair. No matter how much i am willing to pay for your repair, i won't get you back. You have served me well for the past 6 months. You are especially handy when my camera runs out of battery. Even though you are irritating as you will automatically activate my music player after a conversation, i still love you. Even though you keep failing and scamming me with your battery life, i still love you. Even though you keep lagging like crazy when i put Big Bang's pictures on slideshow as wallpaper, i still love you. I really do love you from the bottom of my heart. i am so sorry. =(

Jayne.

sigh. i am really depressed ok. for a while. that i have to abandon my Nokia-using days. i've used Nokia for the past 6 years since i was a primary 3 kid. and i really like Nokia's user-friendliness. it's my first time using a non-Nokia and touchscreen phone. and the idea of it sent trembles down my spine. =(

this is how Samsung Wave looks like:

Dad kept saying that it's nice and he seemed to like it more than i do. 0..0

brought it home and unpacked it. and i really did like it. ok, fine, i am fickle-minded. 0..0 anyway, the design is sleek and the texture is really nice. the touchscreen is sensitive enough for my clumsy and fat fingers. the instructions in the manual were clear enough for my common sense and the function that amuses me the most is the Fake Call. i think i will use it often. =P

started to look for apps online to install and i decided on mainly instruments and languages apps. Korean is a must, along with Japanese and Spanish. i now keep going to the Piano app whenever i have nothing better to do. =P i spent the whole of the day doing up my phone. and... it was cool. just that. i really hate spending so much time transferring the songs and setting the ringtones and all. it's irritating. urgh.

and the worst part of adapting to this phone is the touchscreen typing of SMS. i can no longer look elsewhere while typing without typing nonsense. aw man. =(

ok so at the end of the day, my phone looks like this:

this is the best that i can take with the lighting in my room. 0..0 i feel elated whenever i see the wallpaper. SO CUTE right?!. =DD i promise to cherish you more than ever, my new Samsung Wave. =D

and so... i really kind of like this new phone of mine. this totally unexpected new phone... i can use it in school as it really has a lot of apps that needs wi-fi... and maybe this phone will not cause be to such an technology idiot after all. =P

Saturday

woke up early to go to HELP FSC for volunteer duties. i really had great difficulty to get out of bed but... BIG BANG motivated me. my alarm tone's Stay. =) but i was late in the end. because of all the unexpected and last minute stuffs. but it's really good enough that i am only late for 5 minutes. =P

it was only a week ago, at most, that i praised my Adidas Superstar for being so durable and lasted me for 4 years and brought me to so many places. and it was today that i looked close enough to see a huge crack and it's really life-threatening. the crack is so huge, it can split the shoe's mouth straight into symmetrical 2. 0..0

anyway, it was fun at HELP today. think i am not suppose to use real names of the kids there so i shall not elaborate on them. but i really learnt a lot through this experience. helping out personally and getting myself involved in the activities allowed me to face up to the challenges firsthand. all in all, the experience was very enriching and i am very glad that some of the kids were willing to talk to me because i myself know that i do not have a friendly appearance. =P but the best thing about kids is that they say what they really feel. and so i am able to work together with their honesty. they're all really great. =D

all right. for those who still do not know what HELP FSC means, it means Help Every Lone Parent Family Service Centre. it's a help centre that caters specifically to single-parent families. the programme that i took part in today was to interact with the kids from single-parent families. kids like myself. i can't be classified as being from a single-parent family, strictly. but anyway, i felt especially... connected. =D

went to Junction 8 with Amanda and we had Dokboki. ok forget it. i give up spelling it the correct way. i also had that fried fish and jumbo chicken sausage because i did not have lunch with the kids. (they had my taboo for lunch, MacDonalds...) and it was really nice! the dok... OMG!. no matter how spicy it can get, i will not get sick of it, even if it means i have to camp in the toilet after eating that. i LOVE it!. =D i really want to visit Korea and go to Dongdaemun soon. really.... =P my motivation to study Korean harder is getting stronger by the day. =D and Amanda, thank you so much!. =D

went to NTUC's Korean section and i bought some snacks.

it's pronounced as ddo dddeu. it's like small cakes with cheese and chocolate inside. it's nice and perfect for sudden cravings for snacks!. =D

it's also Mother's Finger in Korean and despite it's weird name, it's HEAVENLY! omg, even John says that it's nice! it's like sponge cake with cream inside and the freshness of the ingredients makes you wanna fly up to the sky. REALLY. =D

this mint candy, however, is not so much to my liking. it's special in its own way. i will still finish the entire packet to get rid of food smell in my mouth. but i will not buy it again. =P

i am glad to have bought these Korean snacks. it's expensive ok. total $10. but i like them very much!. =D

Amanda told me that Big Bang's on Teenage and i bought a copy of it!

don't be deceived by the cover. the content inside is... what fans all already know. it's only 3 pages of Big Bang with old photos. no poster also. but it's ok. i have the cover. =DD

and today marks the first day of English Premier League 2010/2011 Season. opening match is Spurs vs Man City. exciting match throughout but boring scoreline. i am looking forward to Arsenal vs Liverpool tomorrow. my football-ing days are back!. =D i missed yelling GOAL!!!! for Manchester United! they will be back on Monday. GLORY GLORY MAN UNITED! =DD

everyone is going gaga over Youth Olympic Games. i have totally no interest in taking part in this historic event. i have no idea why. =P

ok now, time for YouTube sharing. =D

thank you so much to Amanda for introducing IU and this song, MIA to me! i am now in love with this song. and IU is such a talented singer. she's only 17, same age! she should really sing more of such ballads, rather than acting cute.

a song that has always been a favourite. i always dream of doing a cover of this song. but right now with my current capability, it is near to impossible for me to cover 3 vocals... but, i will try my best. it's getting better as i progress. =D

best for the last, with G-Dragon! =D

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VLGjUddQT9E&feature=related

you are missing out big time if you do not watch this. he is TALENTED and he is a GENIUS. i worship him. i have ran out of words to describe his talents. =P

ok i have come to the end of my weekly blogging. hope i haven't bore you all. i depend heavily on my Facebook updates, photo uploads and most importantly, Tweets to make my blogging more meaningful. if you guys see repetition, it's kind of inevitable. =P

i have my Big Bang compilation CD playing for the 3rd time already. my CD player and the CD won't go berserk right? =P

I LOVE BIG BANG!
I LOVE MANCHESTER UNITED!
I LOVE SAMSUNG WAVE! (until it starts to give me problems...)
I LOVE ALL THOSE WHO MADE ME SMILE/LAUGH/CRY! ALL! =D

ok. i shall concentrate on studying tomorrow.
i am tired. to the max. my eyes can hardly open.
now, i am no longer shocked by the time whenever i look at the clock.

nite and seeya next week!. =D

jayne. =D

2010-08-08T13:11:00.004+08:00

change of song here, if you noticed. =)
Haru Haru Acoustic by Big Bang. i really like this version more because i find this version relating so much more to the lyrics. the romanisation is really.. confusing. but, click on the video itself if you want translation. this MV is one of my all time favourites. =D and yes, some of you may go "it's already such a old song, why put it up? should be putting "Beautiful Hangover"!"... or something like that. but to me, it's really the song i can relate and connect with at this moment of my life. =D

right, here i am again on a routine Sunday, trying to recall whatever that has happened from Monday onwards.. yeah i guess i can, if i try hard enough. right, let's see. =)

Week 16 of school wasn't much of a schooling week already. it was more of e-learning and revision week to prepare for our upcoming exams. but it's 3 weeks later. which people like me will procrastinate. but i have firmly told myself that i will only slack for this weekend. for the remaining break, i shall study every single day. the content to study for Sociology and Psychology are crazy man! =P

Monday

first day of the week was awfully tired for me. did not rest enough during the weekends, in fact i was more drained due to the weekend and it resulted in the after effects. did not start the week off properly as everyone like. and as expected, eyes began to swell and all. i think it is getting worse with each time. and so i developed this theory that my eyes will swell if i do not have enough sleep. or when my eyes are too over-used (reading, using computer..). let's see if this theory stands. =P

was freaking jumpy throughout the entire day because John and I ordered TAEYANG's SOLAR on E-Bay! it's the Deluxe Limited Edition. only 30,000 copies and all sold out on first day of sales. i was so damn excited over it ok! can barely sit still. =P told YeeWei about it and she quickly googled about it to check if i have been cheated or anything. me and John paid $100+ for it on E-Bay but YeeWei found a $70 for us. and of course, i called John immediately and he grabbed it. seriously. =P thank you so much YeeWei!. =D

had our last lecture of the semester, Sociology. after the lecture, everybody was like saying their last goodbyes because we are not coming together as a course until next semester, which is october. but i seriously do not see the need to be sad, really. we are only Year 1s, for crying out loud. ...

but anyway, Monday was fun despite me being so exhausted. stayed in school with KangLing, Denise and LiTing to complete some work, which inevitably turned into other objectives. =P

2 of my cute friends! KangLing and Denise. =D

LiTing is damn serious about what she is going to do. and me, i love my hair. but it's hell damn irritating, trust me.

this is my recent favourite act-cute pose. MUAHAHAHA. =P

i still cannot figure out why Denise likes to take CLOSE-UPs of her eye. seriously.

we headed off to play pool after that. not that we are addicted to pool, but it really helped us to de-stress, really. and i am really glad that my pooling skills are improving each time. WOOTS. =D

ok while on the way to pool, John called me and said he is going to meet the person for TAEYANG SOLAR. and i misinterpreted it as he was going to pass the seller the money only. and so there wasn't really any reaction from me. but, it turned out that he actually went to collect the CD from her. OMG. i would have take a rocket home if i knew it, seriously. John was surprised that i didn't wanna fly home too. LOL. =P

and ok, the excited me wa so damn jumpy and all, i made sure that i was all ready to unwrap the box. and gosh, me and John took sooo many pictures of it! hahhaa. well, it was more of me. i took so many pictures till the battery went dead totally. i have a spare one, muahah. and so i kept on shooting. we were both awed by the packaging and the concept behind it. =D we Googled and YouTubed all about SOLAR and we found the correct way to take it out and how cool it is when you spin the CD!. =D

it so damn freaking cool! and the T-Shirt is awesome. it is already in my wardrobe and i so look forward to wearing it! wonder when will i wear it. heehee. and yes, i can wear it! =D MUAHAHAHAHA.

ok here are some pictures. of the 100+ i took. =P

how it looks from the front with the plastic wrapping still on. =D

the back. =D

both sides look like this. =D

after the plastic wrapping is off. the box is of really nice matt texture. =D

he is too damn awesome to be true. =D

it is so cool, words fail me. =P

the logo on the awesome T-Shirt!. =D

this is the back of the T-Shirt. =D

the front of the photo book. =D

the back of the photo book shows the serial number for the copy. mine is 2o,207 out of 30,000!. =D

a failed shot of the YG Family Card. =P

my autographed photograph!. =D

i nearly threw it away. but. i can't find it now. shit. =X

and i took pictures of the photo book, almost every page of them. if you are interested to see more, go to my Facebook photo album of TAEYANG's SOLAR!.. =D http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=193519&id=723862658#!/album.php?aid=193519&id=723862658&page=2 well, i hope it works like that. =P

then i uploaded the photos up to Facebook after all the excitement but there wasn't energy left in me to listen to the album before i sleep, so i just left it. i was too tired. by the time i got things done, it was about 2a.m., i still remember. =P i do not want to listen to his album hastily. i want to really sit down, put on my best system and listen to him. give him that credit man. =D

loaded the photos into my phone and because of BIGBANG and TAEYANG (particularly), i erased majority of the photos that took up space to accommodate them. now, they are on my laptop and phone's wallpaper on slideshow. and do you have any idea how lag my phone is. =P but it's ok, i am happy!. =D

Tuesday

all i could remember was that i met Denise and KangLing in school to do work and i think we really did got some work done. =P

Denise was down with flu and she's wearing my windbreaker. she's drinking the hot milo i bought for her, under her hands are her legs, not air. ... and what's with the face, i think even she does not know. =P

as we get closer, all the un-glamourous all surface. this is only one of the endless. =P

please don't be fooled by her angel appearance. =P

i left early and all i can remember was.... John came to fetch me and we went home. and i totally knocked out. slept for 3 hours, i think. it helped a little bit, just to cover up the rest that i really needed.

then after doing some work, i remembered listening to SOLAR before going to sleep. i really listened to every single song with my heart. i Tweeted all my thoughts about each song as i listen to them. and looking at what i Tweeted, i was surprised at how i felt about some songs. it really weird. =P but anyway, i totally fell in love with SOLAR! each and every track, i hear and felt the passion and determination of TAEYANG and those songs., will be playing continuously on my phone or on my iTunes. =D

TAEYANG.......!!!!!!!!!! =D

Wednesday

went to school to look for the 2 of them again and they secretly took pictures using my camera cause i left it with them. and here are some more awesomeness. =P

aw, XINXIN! thank you so much! i love you too!
(in case you still do not know, i call Denise "XinXin" and she calls me "CHUYI". both our "nicknames" are our Chinese names...)

HAHAH! i tried so hard to prevent myself from bursting with laughter! i still tagged them nonetheless. it's sooooo fun!. =D

ok the others are more of repetitive shots. =P can always check out my Facebook photo albums for more un-glam and cuteness. LOL. not me ok, my friends! they are all... so damn awesome!. =D

then, John picked me up and we headed off to Jurong Point to just walk around. it has been too long since i walked around in a mall, seriously. without having to rush off to somewhere, errands to run, phone ringing like mad... and we just walked around shops that we are interested in and look interesting.

bought a English-Korean Dictionary to be more up to date with my ability to speak it. =P and i am very serious about learning Korean now, really. i am quite firm that it will not end up like those numerous half-way stuns of mine. which included, drama class, piano, dance class, photography, script-writing, novel writings, whatnot. i am SERIOUS about it. =P

proof that i really bought it. =P

then Challenger, a interesting shop that sells snacks from Japan directly. like 1 normal bottle of Pokka cost $3.50... but it was really interesting, the snacks look damn awesome. =) Gramophone's collection of Big Bang is pathetic. i really need to go HMV soon. =P

had dinner in a very nice Hong Kong restaurant and the food was surprisingly good. really, i will want to go back soon. but let's see when i will really have the chance to go back. =P

went to SengKang to collect my purchases from a blogshop. i am really happy to be able to collect them finally. and i love the t-shirts! i bought 1 for myself and 1 as jianxiong's birthday present! the one for myself is a Mickey Mouse black t-shirt. it's MICKEY MOUSE!. =D heeheee. shall take a pic of it someday. =D

and John played his K-Pop compilation in the car. and it really caught me off guard that Big Bang and TAEYANG has been in my life since soooo long ago. John can't stop saying how big a 180 degree turn i made. i seriously used to find them noisy and totally turn off in the past. Wedding Dress was in my life.... more than a year ago. i was constantly exposed to them (because John's a big fan too) but.... fate? yeah. guess so. =D

things went utterly crazy at night after i reached home because of all the assignments that are due. seriously. printing of assignments, submitting them online, burning them into CDs... it took me a whole great time off my sleep. i slept very very late. =P my eyes cannot rest at all.

Thursday

met up with Amanda Ducky to study Korean at the Attic and i must say, i love spending time with Ducky man. makes me feel at ease. i don't know why. are you reading this? aw, don't be touched!. HAHAHAHAH. =P The Attic is great, really. it is sooo.... AWESOME. =D ShiYong came later but i did not really study much except to clarify my doubts on the particles. =P

LiTing came and helped me with my Flash! although it did not turn out as expected... but i really appreciate it a lot and i know it is already very un-LiTing to help me to this extent. but not without price ok. i accompanied her to a very far away place and i bought her snacks. =P heeeheeeee. but really, THANK YOU SO MUCH LITING!. =D

and to those who came up to The Attic to pass me the money, thank you so much for it too!. =D

and my new-found love in school, Lemon Juice of Makan Place! WOOOHOOO. it is so sour, you can jump back alive if you are dead. trust me, it's that sour. =P

JianXiong came and i passed him his birthday present, which is 2 months late. aw, can't blame me for it ok. anyway, he look great in that T-Shirt! shall take a picture of it when he wears it to school. but, he is devastated that he is wearing the XL one. really. =P and i am glad i bought the XL one, it was just nice. =P

LiTing and I then went to Pizza Hut at Clementi to eat. and we were both really actually very surprised that after 16 weeks in the same class, the both of us are so close together. really, certain things that we both think, we can only say to each other. she is an awesome friend, and i think, the only one who i am be really straightforward to. partly because she is that damn straightforward too. 0..0 but anyway, i enjoyed the dinner very much. the 5 course dinner took us 2 hours. with all our talks and chats in between. laughed about K-Pop, stupid things that we do and happened in our lives, whatnot.. hahah. thank you LiTing!. my dongseng!. (she calls me hyung, by the way. i permitted her to call me Oppa when she feel feminine. LOL.)

the initial plan was to play pool. but. that place was overflowing with people. and so, we just went home. i was quite thankful for it because i am already reaching my optimum level of tiredness. needless to say, i slept soundly all the way home while on the train. =P believe it or not, i fell asleep while sucking water from the bottle. really. what a stun. 0..0

Friday

again, met Amanda Ducky at The Attic. but we have to evacuate because we were not suppose to be there in the first place. it was closed but people went in anyway. =P we evacuated in the middle of my lunch. 0..0 damn un-glam. ...

went to the bench at Level 5 and we continued studying Korean!. =D

she's so cute right!. =D

my official confession to TAEYANG and BIGBANG!. =D

ShiYong came but we left shortly to Block 56 for the exam. seriously, the exam wasn't difficult at all. it was really ok to me. the oral was cool too. and yes, i am looking forward to Korean 102 next semester already. =D

sort of celebrated the official end of the semester with the 2 of them by feasting at Bukit Timah Hawker Centre. hawker food are ultimately the best. cheap, nice and authentic. =D 2 plates of Fried Kway Teow (both of them didn't know the other went to buy it), 1 plate of Carrot Cake, Chee Cheong Fun, 20 satays. we couldn't find the pasta stall! =( but anyway, the food was nice!. =D and i think the both of them are amused by my phobia of cockles. they are disgusting to the maximum to me. EEEEWWWWW. next in line is century egg. EEEEWWWW.

the honeydew juice i bought was awesome! i am officially a huge lover of honeydew and lemon juice. i am happy on that day because i had both in a day!. =D

we parted ways and i just walked and walked... my initial plan was just to walk 3 bus stops away as a stroll. but i was enjoying the walk so much that i walked more than half of the bus route to Bukit Batok Interchange... it has been too l0ng since i just walked with myself and my music. i have Big Bang and TAEYANG with me while i walked... what more can i ask for? =P

i saw 4 of the bus that i wanna take while i walked. but when i was waiting for it finally when i got tired, it took almost half an hour for the next one to come. right behind it is another one. how typical of 61. urgh. but it's ok, i can listen to them. =D

and for a very long time, i did not fall asleep at all on the train. it's too good a feeling. just kept tweeting and enjoy the music. =D

and i started on IRIS after i got back home. gosh, how cool can TOP be?! my gosh. he is..... COOL. =D heeehee. and i already started crying at episode 3. ... only Korean dramas can make my tears roll down so fast and make my heart ache man, seriously. my friends will all be stunned speechless if they see how i watch Korean dramas. real things do not make me cry and that is the irony. ...

Saturday

couldn't sleep well because of a lot of small small things. i am a light sleeper and the slightest noise or sound can wake me up. like, i won't open my eyes and stare at the ceiling, but i am awaken already.. no matter how much i want to, i can't go back to the deep sleep i was in, if i was ever in deep sleep.

woke up, realised gladly cast was not working and so i painstakingly changed to sgBeat. gosh. it took me half the afternoon to get things right. but now, it's all ok. =D

then i spent the entire afternoon watching Big Bang videos on variety shows and stuffs. the most funny that got me laughing my head off:

SEUNGRI is sooooo funny! OMG. =D he made my day, really. =P

his is sooo good at imitating people man!

shit i cannot stop laughing. =P

and yeah, spent to whole afternoon watching Real Sound by TAEYANG too. it really shows the inside of him. his true self. i really admire his determination and discipline for him to succeed and achieve whatever he wanna achieve. he is really someone i look up to now. Big Bang is not only an idol group to me, they are really something more. they helped me through a difficult episode of my life. they kept my faith strong with their music and inspired me to move on. if not, i guess i will be there for quite some time. they mean a lot to me now, so much more than just a idol group. it is their music and determination and passion on the stage that awes me the most, really. i don't go for dazzling smiles and winks. 0..0

THEY ARE NOT AN IDOL GROUP. URGH

and i checked out some of the latest live performances of them:

what kind of awesome stage is that man. GOSH.

i like how cute he is though. =D

this is crazy from the start man. hanging piano from such height, the vocals, the dance.. TAEYANG! =D

he is sooo tired nowadays. take care TAEYANG!. =(

and i read more of their Star Diaries of each of them and i really felt..... small. as compared to them. really. they are my inspirations and role models, really. =D they have came a long way to be at where they are now. yet, they are still humble and nice to fans. i worship them, seriously. and i really envy and admire the deep, strong and supportive friendship between G-Dragon and TAEYANG. they have had each other as support for 10 years. 10 years.....

and their legacy will continue, i have faith in that. =D

and i did something kind of out of the blue last night? i packed my bag, put on my headphones and went to Causeway Point. i just want to walk around and feel the atmosphere of bustling city life. Causeway Point's the nearest... i was thinking of town.. but it's kind of out of the way and i do not have the patience to travel back and forth. =P walked around and visited stores i adore. Music Junction, Stereophile (in which i saw a lot of headphones that made my heart skipped a beat), Popular... and i developed those photos i have been wanting to, finally. will take pics of them soon!

went home after 1 hour of roaming. but still have the kind of desire to linger around. took the bus which takes a longer route home. but in the end, i stayed in the bus for an hour and it went a huge round. i just love the coolness of the bus and the serenity of it all. it was late in the night, not crowded at all. i was the only passenger for a few stops. there's nothing to be afraid of, really. just look out of the window and i realised and noticed things i have never before. i enjoyed the bus trip really much. it has been too long since i have such time to myself. =D

reached home, watched IRIS. and slept. and tada, here i am. blogging for the entire day. =P
i am a bad student, really. i have to wrap up my last assignment of the semester SOON. like, real soon. =P it is already of low quality, i am just doing it anyhow. urgh. =P

my shoulder ache is bothering me again. ok. i have to go now.
until next week, SEEYA!. =D

jayne. =D

p.s. MANCHESTER UNITED vs CHELSEA tonight!. =D

2010-08-01T19:39:00.003+08:00

a compilation of pictures and clips. =D
thank you guys, for coming.! =D
Henry. Benjamin, Alex, ErYu, KangYiao, Sandy, Clara, MeiLing, JingEn, Jingle!. =D
i love you all!. =D

jayne. =D

2010-08-01T14:35:00.013+08:00

hey all. =D

yup, here i am, as promised, to blog on every sunday to sum up my whole week. let's see how long i can keep this going. =P

and now, i present to you my Week 15:

Monday

all that i can remember was that my group for Psychology project went to a condominium near school and filmed the scenes to be included in our submission of the project. for now, i'll only say this much. will put it up here once the whole video is done properly. it will be in my next post, i think. =)

went back to school to continue on the project and it came to a point where i was so tired, i just stopped. i had to, gosh. looked for Denise and we went to West Coast Recreation Centre to play pool. KangLing joined also and gosh, it was damn fun, funny and epic with the 2 of them. please don't only see KangLing's sweet and gentle appearance. don't be fooled by her ok. i'm one of the victims now. =P

i'm really glad to have friends like them in school and in class. these simple de-stress sessions may be simple and even insignificant when we look back, but it certainly does means a lot to me. the laughter and joy we share are what i cherish and value the most in my life. =D

and the journey back home was memorable because nothing there was nothing to remember. it was the first time i was so knocked-out by exhaustion that i slept from Jurong East to Admiralty all the way without any disturbance. i was that tired, yes. and, there are more to come.

when i went home, i was bored from doing work and guess what. it all started with a YouTube search. remembered John playing Tell Me Goodbye of Big Bang in the car and i was just curious and wanted to listen to that song again. and so, i did. then it all snowballed man. this video lead to that, that lead to the others. and in no time, i am already going crazy about them.

i can never forget that Wedding Dress is the 2nd video i watched and immediately, i was awed by TaeYang dance moves in the MV. then i searched for his live performance. cause to me, the artiste is truly impressive only when the live performance is good. and so, i saw how he can sing and dance those sick moves at the same time. and gosh, now i am in love with TaeYang. =DDDDD heeeheeee.

my favourite member of Big Bang, TaeYang (SOL!). =D

embedding is not allowed for this particular that i love so much, so here you go with the url: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KUC_ZUhF_lk hope you'll like it!

Tuesday

a day i will always remember as i listened to Tell Me Goodbye on repeat on the way to school. which should be like almost 20+ times, near 30. that song... is just too awesome. =D

right so Tuesday was PCS DAY! it's really quite special because not many courses have their own "day". yup, so PCS has one day to themselves! =D ok first activity was to sell merchandises of World Vision, which includes setting up booths and going round to ask people in campus. so i was the one who went around campus and i learnt a lot through this experience. and especially who to target. =P but all in all, i really thank all those who bought the T-Shirts out of goodwill. they warm my heart. =D

and so we got this break before the performance and it was super epic man! JianXiong and Winston did the news anchor clips and i will show it to you guys one day man, i swear. when i am done compiling them, i will put it on YouTube. HAHHAA. but i think one of the clips is gone. i see what i can do with them. gosh. it was damn epic. it got the girls rolling on the floor laughing man!. =P

the WATOTO performance by the kids was great and awesome. guess it inspired a lot of us there watching. we see how positive the children were and it all enhances the point that "we are never the most unfortunate ones out there. and hence there is nothing to be sad over.".

http://www.queanbeyananglican.org.au/images/watoto1.jpg

to reiterate the point, PCS students are all very fortunate to have watched the Watoto performance in NP. it is one performance that i am willing to pay for. =D

went to Games Room to play Taboo with Denise, JingShan and YaXun. well, it was damn epic too, largely due to JingShan. catch the bits and pieces from Denise's blog. her blur-ness and innocence are beyond words, seriously. you will laugh at JingShan not because she is funny or what, but because she is that innocent!. =D

went back home and checked out more on Big Bang. and shit, i turned into a stalker of Big Bang. YouTube, Wikipedia, whatever... i just cannot stop watching their music videos and live performances! they are simply too awesome for words. their live performances are so full of energy and they are so damn professional and... OMG. no words. =P and their music videos all caught me off guard. Haru Haru was. SAD. =(

all in all, their vocals, dance, rap, music and overall performance are soooo wonderful. =D

and so. i pestered John for the songs. WOOTS.

Wednesday

i just can't remember anything from school. there was nothing much. only 1 class and nothing... i guess?

BUT. i remembered listening to G-Dragon's Heartbreak album and i realised how young he was! and his song composing and producing... words fail me. seriously. at such a young age, he is already so successful with what he has to show the world. he raps and dance live and that is a big WOW to me already! no idea how the hell he can come up with such sick raps and rhythms. seriously!

and the more i stalk GD, the cuter i find him. OMG. *blush*. bleah. =P i really admire his talent and his effort to become who he aims to be. despite his small build, he still was able to do so many things to impress people! so never judge by size ok!

leader of Big Bang, G-Dragon:

i still like TaeYang a bit more than G-Dragon. A BIT. =P

Thursday

Community Service tutorial and watched the presentations of other groups. and we also got back our results from the quiz few weeks back. i did quite good i guess, 24/30. yup, i am satisfied with my results. =D

then ITABS where we continued on our assignment... sigh~ that's huge headache but i am still not feeling the effect of it yet. =P

dinner with Denise, JingShan and KangLing at Canteen 2. and yes, Western Food there is still as awesome as ever. CHICKEN CUTLET , CHICKEN CHOP, FISH & CHIPS, SPAGHETTI FTW!. =D

did some work with JingShan and yup, that's my day. =)

and of course, more Big Bang at home... just cannot stop watching them on YouTube, seriously. =D

Friday

it was raining very heavily and as much as i am obsessed with the rain, there is still Tennis lesson. basically, we did nothing but sat on the benches to chatted with Coach. what a way to end this module. 0..0 but anyway. it was nice talking to him. =D but in the end, i just couldn't stand the boredom and took out my camera!. =D

i love the rain, as always. =D

then JumpStart consultation with my JumpStart mates and gosh, it was sad to say that we are all meeting together as a group for the last time. i seriously hope that we will jump bump into each other on campus every now and then. the friendships that were formed were special. =D

then went back and and i SLEPT! for 2 HOURS! can you believe it. it has been ages since i took a nap. and... gosh. i feel soooo damn rejuvenated after the nap. it was like having a new life again. and.... suddenly things seemed to be not as bad. and... i listened to Big Bang on the way to school. and things were suddenly so full of hope and joy for me. everything... seemed to be weirdly optimistic. i don't know why. it's just happened that way.

Korean class was super awesome! after going through the "class" things, it comes Korean Cultural Week! gosh. thank you, Miss HAN JUNG LIM for making this week's class so awesome for each of us!

right, first we watched videos of Hangeul, Hanbok and the traditional bow. then food.. and she let us watched videos of SNSD, SHINEE and TAEYANG (I Need A Girl)...! OMG. then she cooked Tteokbokki for us!. it's "a dried, cylindrical white rice cake, is cooked with eomuk (fish cake), vegetables, and chili pepper paste. Sweet and spicy, it is such a popular snack that you will find it on every busy street corner." from the Korea Tourism website. it was sooo delicious that i had 3 servings. GOSH~. it's the rice cake that you always see in dramas. =D

the class went "HURRRRR........." when Miss Han took out this pot that she was hiding under the table. she tried to hide the smell by covering the pot with a bag... how cute!. =D

she is forever so caring and nice!. she even bought juice for us to go together with the rice cake!. =D

everyone got their eyes fixed on SNSD's Gee.

proof that we really did watch TaeYang's I Need A Girl. =D

my beloved Korean teacher Miss Han Jung Lim and ME!. =D

my Korean class!. =D

thank you Miss Han!. =D

and my conclusion for my sudden obsession with Big Bang is that they really do inspire me and they gave me hope. i can listen to their songs and do my homework happily, which has not happened to me for a long long while. i listen to their songs as i walk on the streets and i feel happy. and i just wanna move along with the rhythm and feel the sadness or happiness of the song. it's just... indescribable. they gave me hope and happiness amidst all these crap. =D

and Big Bang is now my major motivation to study Korean. and because of them, i signed up for Korean 102 immediately. =D

oh anyway, my dear AMANDA DUCKY drew this cat for me! i actually thought it was a frog. HUR. and as promised, it's my MSN pic now. =D

Saturday

woke up late, which is a given for Saturdays. =P

ok anyway. the main highlight was the gathering which i have been so looking forward to. i'm so glad that it all went well and my friends managed to catch up with one another's lives. it's really good to see them all come together and ask each other how they all are doing. =D

MeiLing, Sandy, Clara, ME!. =D

JiaJia (Clara) and ME!

Sandy (XiaoWuGui) and ME!

JingEn, Jingle, MeiLing and KangYiao!. =D

the most value for money cream spaghetti i've ever had. =D

Sandy, Clara, ME! gosh how much i love this picture. =D

=D

the birthday cake i specially ordered for Henry Law!. =D the chocolate and banana were soooooo delicious. =D i had 2 pieces. YAY!. =D

glad you liked the cake! happy 18th birthday!. =D

Sandy, Jingle and Clara!. =D

and last but not least, here are some videos of Big Bang! i will not put music videos here cause it's widely search and common... so i will put some live performances of theirs here. =D

i am so loving this song right now. =D you see how TaeYang can turn from normal to high to falsetto. he is great. =D

nobody can not like this song. =D

one of my current favourites. =D

GD with Heartbreaker and silenced the critics with this performance. =D

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jvZ33JQs31E

embedding is disabled but i really love this performance. in only 1 song, he sings, dances and raps. with so many different styles and notes. he is too good. =D and he is insanely cute. =D

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SAP4X9IBc28

embedding is also disabled. but i love this song so much! it always makes me happy. =DD

yup a lot of you might have seen this video before, but this comes with the front ballad part. his vocals are so damn awesome. =D

the live performance of I Need A Girl, thanks to Clara!. =D and.... he kissed her. AWWWW~.......

TAEYANG!. =D i love his soft side. seriously. =D

i want to buy his Solar!. =D

BIG BANG!. =D

will be back with a awesome video, i promise. real soon. like. SOON. =D

jayne. =D

2010-07-25T15:02:00.005+08:00

week 14 has a quite a good week, i should say. cleared 3 huge obstacles and hey, i'm still alive. =D

Monday

Psych presentation during tutorial and shit, things did not go so well for the entire class, i should say. but heck, it's all over. and we shall move on to do better for the final submission. yeah, i believe we will do better for the final thing. we will. =D

Monday is the starting of the crazy FINAL TERM PAPER draft submission. you see everybody doing it during whatever "free time" they have. seriously, there is no such thing as "free time" in PCS. you will have things to do, trust me.

right, so if i remembered clearly. Monday was not a very good day for me. for the 2nd half of the day. because of something i saw, which i hoped i will never get to see. yeah it kind of affected me quite badly and i reverted back to my old ways to feel better. FOOD. yes. sinful. people were selling Donut Factory donuts outside Convention Centre and i bought 5 or 6. and it went well with a Coffee Each-A-Cup. =P damn fattening, i know. but the after effect was worth it. =P i really do feel better after having sweet things. =P

right, then had dinner at Jack's Place. i think the crew there but think that i have some sort of obsession with their food, or something. they see me so often. just look at the points i've accumulated in my card. =P

went to the Watch shop to get a battery for my "new" watch. i was desperate for a watch because all the watches from Genting were screwed one by one. then i was randomly looking for a watch on the counter and i saw this Longines one and i was captivated by the design and i know it's destined to be mine. =P i guess it has been there for quite long. to the extent that the battery went flat without the concern of anyone. wore it to school for the sake of looking smarter during the presentation and i've grown to love it! the only problem is, it's not working. so, $20 for it to work! and this is how it looks like:

a full body image of my beloved watch. i have a liking for leather strap, roman numbers and analog designs. i like how classic this watch it. =D

the time and date shown clearly, and that is what i love most about this watch. watches should be like that. =D (thank my camera for this clarity!)

Tuesday

went to school early to do stuffs because i went straight to bed without doing anything on Monday night. i already used to being tired. =P the lectures were quite ok for me, Comm Serve lecture was particularly interesting. =D

had a super spicy lunch. i was perspiring, mucus flowing, crying, lips swollen. all 4 levels of spiciness achieved. =P

then rushed to Causeway Point to meet Clarence Pang and we celebrated his birthday! some of the pictures with the dashing xiaotoufu!

took a really long time to decide how to burn a huge hole in Jayne and Sandy's pocket.

my dearest XiaoTouFu and XiaoWuGui!. =D

final pieces of his i-don't-know-what Medium Rare steak.

not looking forward to the birthday song and cake at all....

still made a earnest Birthday wish anyway. (look how awesome the cake is!)

all for this smile. =D

and i know that everything (including the money) are not in vain. =D

so and presenting to you, the video:

HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY, CLARENCE "PING-PONG" PANG! =D

then we headed to the cinema to watch Predators. it's the birthday boy who wanna watch this movie. yet he was the one who fell asleep, not once, but twice during the show. and we were both laughing at the so-called "gore". .... Adrien Brody's nose is cool!. =D

then. i was very fortunate and lucky to meet Mr. Henry Law on the way to my bus berth. and so took the bus home with him and i updated him on all that he missed. it is impossible to update a year worth of stuff in such a short time. so i left out all the minor and unimportant details. but anyway, i'm glad to have chatted with him. it's been too long. =)

Wednesday

Sociology tutorial was especially fun. we were given answers to questions and hence, we were suppose to come out with the questions. the answer for one was "gender" and my group came out with "what is the term that is often confused with sex?"... then Dr. Juliet came over to us and said, "WOW. i can think of something else.." and i was stunned. then i realised. and JianXiong said, "it's a vulgarity!". OMG. =P

then we sat in a circle, like how we did for our very first Soci tutorial. Angels were announced and YaXun, thank you so much for all you have done for me!. =D it's really heartwarming to see how my class has glued together after so many weeks. i love To4! =D and Glenn, thanks for your compliments. =D PLEASE DO NOT BUY ANYTHING EXPENSIVE FOR ME. GAWD. =X

went to the library with KangLing and Denise and we recorded a super cute 4 minute MSN clip to be on Denise's display picture. OMG. i love it so much!. =D start a conversation with her on MSN to see it!. =D

stayed in the library until the closing time to finish up my draft. first time i stayed in the library until the librarian walked up to me. it was quite an experience. like, i really feel like a poly student of NP out of a sudden. it became real to me. =D

Thursday

went to school early to meet the 3 sisters. they are LiTing, KangLing and Denise, in the order of height. =P i really love spending time with them. they're so fun to be with, seriously. you must be with them to really appreciate them. words can't bring out how awesome they are. =D i can always relate to them in a more special kind of way. =D

then LiTing and Denise and I went to Makan Place to rally for the Denim Challenge. and gosh. my thick-skinned potential was at its maximum man. people stare, make snide remarks, whatever. i just don't care and keep shouting and screaming. =P DONATE YOUR JEANS! 27TH JULY! ...... with a pair of jeans clipped to a pole. =P those who saw me and knew me seriously will wish they hadn't known me at all. =P

right then comes the highlight. Kimberly and Denise were planning a surprise for LiTing and Liyana's birthday. and i was suppose to hold on to LiTing until the time is right. i kept dragging LiTing up and down here and there to waste time. and she was there cursing and swearing at me for all the stairs she had to climb and all... HAHAHHA! i was like, "ok fine. i shall let you curse and swear at me without retaliation from me for just one time..... 0..0" but thank goodness, i do not have to climb 6 storeys of stairs. =P

so here it goes:

the girls who were born on the same day, in the same class. =D

she gave us a 10 out of 10! =D

she just can't stop smiling!. =D

Happy Birthday LiTing!. =D

then there goes our Comm Service presentation. the 4 of us worked really hard for maximum marks and we were very glad that Miss Tan liked how we presented and i really felt happy. it was good! i guess it's the sincerity of our presentation and the effort that we showed. thanks girls! =D

here is the video that was included in our presentation. it's not on YouTube because the audio has some copyright issues... 0..0 there's this awful watermark because of the converter i use to convert it from wmv to avi because Blogger cannot accept more than 100MB. but anyway, hope you all will enjoy the video!

then right after the presentation, i felt so lethargic out of a sudden. i was stoning throughout ITABS, seriously. i had my eyes open but nothing went in and out. it was.... weird. =P

then i decided that i need caffeine and snack boost and i did. coffee from Each-A-Cup again. and JianXiong and I were suppose to start on our Introduction for Psych Analysis Paper. but they were all working on their essays. so i started on my part and borrowed books.

i really love Lien Ying Chow Library. it's the best. =D is there a competition going on for Year 1 who borrows the most number of books? =X

Friday

no Tennis but 1 whole day for Idea Jumpstart Challenge. waking up at 5.30am was bad. but i still managed to take the bus to Interchange for shuttle bus. and when i reached there, i knew i was weirdly early. there was no one in queue. which means i'm the first. 0..0

traffic jam was real bad at Dairy Farm and i knew it's going to be too long. switched the playlist to instrumentals and i slept sooo soundly. =D best sleep on public transport while on the way to school. =D

the Challenge was not easy, seriously. we were all so stressed. my right eye was sooo damn swollen i have no choice but to take the contact out. it was horrible. what a time for a swollen eye.

i am very thankful to have such competent group members. thanks guys! we survived despite all the stress and difficulty and disagreements. thank you!. =D everything worked out fine and we did make it. WOOTS. =D

our idea of CafeZzz in NP...

where there's a section for students to catch some quality sleep with the awesome beds. the wall in between separates the guys and girls. =D (if you think the wall sound-proof wall looks like our national flag, then we share exact sentiments. )

while on the other side, students have a stage for them to jam and chill. the tea-cup seats are cute, right? =D

and this awesome group consists of (left to right): Jayne, SongHuan, SiMin, Vina and Timotheus! =D

thank you so much, guys!. things will not be possible if not for all your contributions and effort:

jayne loves you all!.=D

wasn't much time left after the Challenge was really over. headed to Library to meet Amanda and ShiYong. they were doing their homework while i just slept there. i have no idea how much i can push myself man. =P

Korean lesson was fun, as usual. =D and as usual, i was in my semi-sleeping state. keep dozing off but i really did pay attention. was able to answer the questions accurately, still. =D MUAHAHAHA. but, the idea of the upcoming exam is kind of intimidating me. =P but it's ok, i have my Korean friends with me. Amanda, Cheryl and ShiYong!. i'm so glad to have known the 3 of them. =D

then. i had the best sleep in John's car. i invented a new way to sleep in his car. WOOTS.

Friday night, i knocked out totally. =P

Saturday

the books on Persuasion were awesome man. i was totally absorbed by all the content and suddenly felt inspired all over again to study Psychology. =D

did nothing much actually. just trying to catch some rest for my soul. =P need to relax and stuff. =D and i spent half the day that i was awake doing the 2 videos you see above there. =D

oh. made my home-alone Saturday pasta again! this time round, i've decided to just buy a ready-made sausages from NTUC and they were awesome man! i just had to cook the pasta and warm the sauce and TADA!:

damn awesome!. =D

i just love cooking for myself. =D

then midnight movie with Dad. Inception. at first, i was all excited because of Leonardo DiCaprio. but wow. the movie totally awed me. the concept, the acting, the way it got me thinking.... the movie was AWESOME. =D i have not watch such a remarkable film in such a long while. =D

and i am resigned to the fate that i will be buying Eclipse's DVD. sigh~

Sunday

woke up at 14:08 because i reach home at 3am++. and i've spent almost 3 hours blogging and stuff.

well, i seriously do not have the time to blog during weekdays. so i've decided that this is what i'm going to do every Sunday. i will dedicate half the day to blogging in this format. Monday to Sunday. =D i still think blogging is an essential of my life. i will want to keep records of my memories. =D

to those who come back here almost everyday to check on my latest, i thank you so much! say, like, if you want to have more frequent updates of me, Twitter is definitely the best. if not Facebook. thanks guys, for checking if i am alive or not. i definitely am. =D

well, hope you all enjoyed the pictures and videos i shared!

thank you so much for reading up till this line. it's not easy, i know. =P

till then, seeya!. =D

jayne. =D

2010-07-18T01:40:00.003+08:00

the new kit. positive comments and responses so far. it's made from recycled materials and so like it too!. =D ok, stop asking me if i will buy it or not. i always say i will buy their latest kit whenever it's out. and end up dragging it for 1 entire season. and then the next kit will be out. 0..0

thought i will do some writing here before i embark on my task-canceling. gosh. how busy can my life be. my limit is forever being pushed to further boundaries than i ever thought it will be. sort of already resigned to the fate that when something unexpected is being thrown at you, just do it. moaning and complaining does not help at all. just another antic of time wasting. so much so that now, i always expect unexpected things to happen.

hm. i do not have any pictures or videos to share with you guys this week. i totally have no time to do any covers. but do keep your requests coming in ok? i think i can at a small breather after this week. singing is one thing that i will not give in. not yet, i guess. sigh.

i really do need the sleep. and i really do appreciate your concern, whoever you are. i thank all my friends who have been there for me whenever my eyes just closes. thanks guys. if without even one of you, i will not have survive the day. i've long past the stage where i want to sleep. now, it's totally not up to me anymore. my sleep is dictated by external factors already. sigh. how pathetic can this be.

let me try to recap whatever happened since i last blogged. hm.

Sunday

GOSH how can i forget?! ok Spain finally won the World Cup for the first time and they won it at their first attempt at a Final! how more awesome can it be man! the entire match was exciting and totally nerve-wrecking for a Spain supporter. Spain is my No.1 team but Netherlands' just fell short to become my No.1 by a little bit. so my mentality was kind of "may the better team wins". but i was glad that i did not give up on Spain after they missed their opening match against Switzerland. after clinching Europe and World Champions, they are no doubt my favourite for life, like Manchester United. =D

Monday

skipped lesson for the first time in my poly life due to World Cup. people were actually surprised that i turned up for lessons after that. 0..0 people, i am not such a fanatic to miss such an important test. 0..0 but i think i did badly for that test. it's just guessing and hoping to get it correct with my limited knowledge. =( but, as usual, i was just happy to get it done and over with. =D

went to IMM with John after school and i must say that humans must get out of your routine and stress once in a while to unwind. it totally helped me to relax and work harder for the rest of my day. simple stuffs like eating or simply just walking around and taking looks at things you like in malls do help a lot. trust me on that. =)

Tuesday

hm. nothing much on that day actually. it was just a test in the afternoon and everyone was mugging for it. i had fun with my classmates mugging though. because we always end up doing something else. =P

i had a hard time choosing what to give my Mortal at Metro. LOL. you will not believe their variety. it's the last last we're giving things to our Mortals, so i of course, will put in more effort. Glenn, sometimes i feel that you're lucky to have me as your Angel. LOL. =P

Wednesday

Sociology presentation first thing in the morning. i slept very little the night before to do some last minute changes here and there and it's just like another day with less than enough sleep. not to forget i have the constant flu going on. urgh. anyway, the presentation went ok but it wasn't well-received. oh well. i did my best. the rest is beyond my control anyway. so let's just leave it there as it is. =P

we went to HMS Day carnival at evening and it was awesomely fun! though attendance was poor and most of the participants were from PCS Year 1 T04, we all still had loads of fun! all the running and screaming. you can really see how people bond man. it's absolutely crazy! and for the girls, it'll be checking out cute seniors as priority. LOL. but all in all, it was fun. very fun. =D thanks to all the seniors who made this awesome day possible! =D

went home on my own. and now, i no longer cared about my image when i'm sleeping on MRTs and buses. i never slept during those long journeys. but now, it's totally out of my control. my eyes close and that's it. i no longer care if i snored or made wheezing noises. urgh.

Thursday

i slept for a whooping 10 hours but i was still tired. long term fatigue, i guess. met up with the 3 sisters for yet another project and we had fun, i should say. =P

went for The Christieara Programme talk and despite all the negative comments about it from people around me, i still am very interested in it. already signed up for it and i hope that i will be at least given a chance for a interview or something. it looks very promising for me, i should say. =P

dinner with XinXin, Winston and JianXiong at Clubhouse. you will never be short of laughter when with them. there were times where i laughed so hard that i thought i was going to wet myself. 0..0 finally i have friends who can speak Canto with me. YES!. =D

was suppose to paste posters around HDB blocks at West Coast and Bukit Batok and so i was prepared by having a heavy dinner. i was right. it felt as if i've never eaten before we were half done with them. it was really late then and XinXin and i were beyond exhausted. thank goodness she was with me, if not i would have totally lost my way. we talked about a lot of things during the time we spent together going from blocks to blocks. i've shared things that i thought i will not share with anyone. that's the magic of XinXin man. she can make you say things. HAHA! but anyway, thanks XinXin, for listening to me. =D

Winnie and JianXiong came to look for us at around 11pm i guess. then we just talked about things that happened in our lives. it's really quite amazing you know. we never knew each other and then by getting into the same class, there we go. we came together and we just talked like we knew each other since we were toddlers. =D

Friday

awful awful start to the day because i slept too little even by my standards. i only slept for 3 hours, max. and the lack of sleep that's accumulated for days and with my flu that's still going on, i still wonder how i managed to get out of bed. i must be really motivated.

Tennis was awesome, as usual. i wasn't really in the mood and so my serves cannot pass. just kept practicing them and i am deeply apologetic to Coach for smashing his head while practicing. he says "thank you" to me when i told him to take care of his head before we leave. 0..0

the fast-changing weather is taking a great toll on me. it's the huge sun this moment, then we got drenched, then we have to sit under the air-con. urgh.

JumpStart was fun! seriously, that's the reason why i love Fridays so much. i have 2 very entertaining teachers early in the morning to kick-start a long day for me. =D Samuel Tan was exceptionally dramatic and animated. i have no idea what makes him to become somebody like that, seriously. he's funny, entertaining and nice. awesome tutor. =D

and not to forget my Friday friends! Timotheus especially. to talk to me and stuffs. phew. i need to get my mind off a lot of things man. sigh~

then i met my beloved JIAJIA for lunch! hahaa. still can't believe that she haven't eaten Canteen 2 Western Food before. it's too awesome to be missed! =D then we just talked in the Library until she has to go. i miss my jiajia. and i still cannot believe that she thought TCP was just another lame programme. totally unbelievable.

anyway, John ate the Western food. and he agrees that it's awesome. =D

shortly after Clara left, Fauzi came and joined me and i'm glad to have company. if not i will just sleep there for 3 hours. =P he is a super nice guy! hhahaha damn funny and his perspective on a lot of things are really special. =P

then Amanda and Cheryl joined us. and Korean class fast forward. i have no idea what's going on man. Amanda look at gold and called it silver. Cheryl looked at apple and called it orange. 0..0 the 2 of them are super entertaining. thank goodness for them. if not. i will just KO there. seriously.

ok. let me clarify. my Eye Candies are strictly for cheap thrill and stress-relieving purposes only ok? please do not take me seriously for anything i said about them. it's so damn childish, to think of whatever i said. MUHAHHHAA. but it's ok. i'm only 17. that's the best defense i have. =D

Saturday

totally lack of sleep again. and jeans collection is on the agenda. it was a nice experience despite my exhaustion. i know a very nice senior called Janet in Year 3 T04. she is super nice. =D

the experience was nice and enriching. door to door collection is really different. you get to experience first-hand reaction from residents and you have to know what to expect and how to react. but nothing is the worst. =D thanks to everyone who came and made this possible! Winnie and Glenn especially, since they're from my class. =D

had lunch with my awesome classmates! XinXin, LiTing, KangLing, Andre and LukMeng. it was awesome eating with them. and they were all amazed at how me and LiTing ate. Hokkien Mee, Fried Kway Teow, Carrot Cake, Sausage Omelette, and the both of us only spent $6.50. well you have to exclude my Honeydew juice and goreng pisangs. haha. it was awesome! =D no other words to describe them. muahahah.

reached home. did up the slides and totally cannot take it anymore and zonked until 1am. woke up and here i am, doing everything that i shouldn't be doing. Facebook lagged since i came online and so i was on Twitter. LOL.

i will only make exceptions for Sweet Spot pastries now. SWEET SPOT FTW! it's HEAVENLY. =D

and i hope my true self ain't annoying you all, especially LiTing. you should really see the way we interact. you will LAUGH OUT LOUD!. =P i have lots of sides to my personality. it really depends which side i show to you at times. =P

i need time.

till then. seeya!. =D

jayne. =D

2010-07-10T20:29:00.006+08:00

this is my latest cover, Cai Hong by Jay Chou. this is my first time doing a cover of a Chinese song. request from Denise Lee Xin Xin! this song is also dedicated to all my loved ones. 看不见你们的笑，我真得睡不着！thanks for loving me as who i am!. =D

guess i should really do more covers of Chinese songs. the immense fear of losing the ability to speak Mandarin is closing in on me lately due to a lot of my experiences in NP... now when i cannot speak fluently in Mandarin when i switch tongues immediately, i panic. seriously. i need to practice it more. =P

week 12 has been kind of awful, as in the workload part. things are forever piling in. there's no such thing as breaks and rests. there are always things to do and deadlines to meet. phew. seriously, people should alter their mindset towards the "slack" poly. yes, we do face the tremendous crazy pressure like the JC students, but we too have our own difficulties. guess no one can really understand it other than those who have been through poly education before.

however stressed up i am (especially on Monday when a sudden assignment dawned upon us with a very tight deadline which requires a lot of work), i still have my awesome friends and classmates to de-stress. pool, bowling, singing, or simply just talking. it makes whole lot of difference. thank you guys!. =D

Fridays are my favourite. because there Tennis S&W and i really love it to the max. it allows me to take my mind off all the assignments and unhappiness. we did quite a lot of physical stuffs due to the slight rain and we basically just did serve for the whole lesson. JumpStart was awesome, as usual. i love learning things other than what i learn from my course. i love learning out-of-textbook things, to be general. =P

met up with XinXin for lunch and we went to Clubhouse because there's just no seats at Makan Place.. gosh. Clubhouse was no better but we were lucky enough. i seriously cannot understand why people loathe the Grilled Fish Baked Pasta so much. i find it totally awesome. =D

still had some time before Poly Experience and so headed to The Attic to chill.. gosh. the feeling is so damn awesome after i stopped going there. the atmosphere and ambiance there is second to none, seriously. haha, and XinXin always thought that The Attic was above OurSpace. =P

we both were very excited for our first ever duty as HMS Ambassadors. it was damn cool, seriously. did not really meet and people and made new friends, but i at least know how's it like to be involved in such events. not that i do not have any previous experience, but there are always things to learn and skills to pick up after every single event. i learnt a lot, really. =D

seeing those secondary 4 students from all the different schools come together to hope to know NP all, i felt quite old myself. i only 17 (and a group of students were actually genuinely surprised at my age. i look that old, thanks. ) but i felt super damn old. they cannot believe that i am only Year 1. hurhur. anyway, just less than a year ago, i am mugging like crazy for the Os. it's a very difficult year for me because i was forever playing catch-up with my work due to my inability. but now, seeing them all so curious about courses that HMS offers and their interest of it, i really feel that i've seen the past me. so eager and curious. it's just amazing. i look forward to my next duty. =D

the changing weather took a great toll on me. i went home, took a nap and woke up with awful flu and sore throat. the 1000th time i fell sick since poly started. totally hate it. urgh. glad it's so much better now. Panadol Cold Relief work wonders, i tell you.

ok so i cooked dinner for myself today. as usual, not too fancy. carbonara pasta, chicken leg and a damn awesome Pork Frankfurter. SUPER NICE!. =D i love cooking for myself. cooking, like sports and all my other hobbies, takes my mind off things that bothers me. =D

yeah i finally have a Twitter account. also, i rephrase. i finally am using Twitter! i actually set up that account late last year after the Os but i just cannot figure out a way to update it through my phone. but XinXin helped me and tada! here i am, Twitter! i love saying twee-twee. =P and it's so damn cool ok!. =P

ok some pictures taken on Thursday, when we were suppose to be studying but as usual, ended up doing things we were not suppose to do. =P

XinXin is so cute right?! hhhhaa. yes i am wearing that Sec 2 class tee. after 2 years in the Cold Palace, i finally can wear it. YES. =D

i am going to do the dishes. and go and 煮汤圆 for my dad when he comes home. =D

jayne. =D

2010-07-08T18:23:00.002+08:00

people, i am finally active on TWITTER!. =D thanks to xinxin! =D

https://twitter.com/jayneXD

WOOTS. =D

this is the latest cover done by me, request of Cherlynn Ng, my secondary school friend. hope you guys will like it despite the imperfections. =P

it's all coming back to me. the sleepless, restless and tiredness. but it's ok. i have my awesome friends with me. =D

jayne. =D

2010-07-04T00:23:00.006+08:00

i wake up, i walk to the bathroom, i looked myself in the mirror. and everything starts over again. i really wonder how long i can take all these... sometimes i really tell myself that i need a break. but when i finally have one when the time comes, things start to pile up again and i never really do get a break. i am forever worrying about something or somebody, forever being annoyed at something or somebody. i need something or somebody to come up to me and tell me the truth. i need a break and i want one, but i am not giving myself one, i am not allowing myself one. it's nobody's fault but mine.

i just cannot stop wondering if this is the kind of life that i will lead for the rest of my life. i need that someone to make that difference... sigh. i thank all my friends who are always there to support me and encourage me, to help me in whatever way they can despite my tyranny and bossiness. thank you guys!

all the stress are accumulating again, well actually there's never been a true halt to it. so well, singing does take things off my chest a bit. did 2 covers. honestly, Mad World by me was rubbish. i was off the note for 3/4 of the song. i hope my 2nd one, Behind These Hazel Eyes was better for you guys. i will keep on improving!

singing is now essential for me to keep myself sane. it is a getaway for me, as for a lot of people. my listeners, thank you. =D i do accept request now. just tell me what songs you will want to hear with my voice, and i will see what i can do. however, i do have to let you guys know that my covers do not come with background instrumental ok. it's just my voice, unplugged. so yeah, suit yourself. =)

i hope to improve with each attempt and as some of you have heard, my cutting skills in Audacity is not near perfect at all, so do pardon the parts where it sound like a spoilt CD.. i am trying my best. =P we'll see how things go, ok.

ok i shall reiterate my point that me posting the videos up on Facebook and YouTube are strictly for sharing and not that i want to get famous and discovered to become the next big thing (well, i am big already.... 0..0 ). i just wanna share my passion. =D

ok so by now you guys should already be listening to this new song that i put up here. i didn't want to change it, but because of some stupid technical error (again), i may as well just change it. how i wish imeem still exist. 0..0 all right, anyway, this song is Forgiven by Within Temptation. they are a gothic symphonic rock band and they also do awesome ballads. their singing style is very different because they are Dutch. they are not so well known in Singapore but i hope that more people can get to know them. they are really awesome. =D

i love this song. listen to it whenever i am down... and then there will be a voice in my head that tells me that there are people out there who are moving on with their lives when they are presented with obstacles so much daunting than what i am facing.. and so i move on, as always. i hope you guys will like this song here. Within Temptation is great. =D

ok so finally, presenting to you, Behind These Hazel Eyes by Jane. Y:

any kinds of constructive comments/feedback/critic are welcome. no worries on hurting my feelings. =D

stay tuned for more.

jayne. =D

2010-07-01T22:03:00.003+08:00

my favourite sport to watch on TV other than football is Tennis. with the World Cup going on, people are forgetting that there's sensational tennis going on in England at Wimbledon. so now, let me finally show you guys some pictures of my favourite players. =D all pictures were taken from Yahoo!

Rafael Nadal from Spain, World No.1. he is my man for the best player of the history of tennis. to me, he shows more potential than Federer at his current age. he is the best retriever in the game.

Roger Federer from Switzerland, World No. 2. he quarter-final exit from Wimbledon suggests his decline? still early to say anything, he still has the capability.

my favourite Novak Djokovic from Serbia, World No.3 for some time. i am hoping for the day where he will be mature and cool enough to climb to the No.1 spot. his hard forehand is what i like the most. still chasing for another Grand Slam after winning Australian Open 3 years ago.

Andy Murray from Scotland. always the one with immense home pressure when playing Wimbledon. he progression at every year's Wimbledon are the British's only hope. notice how he volleys.

Andy Roddick from USA. his super serve is awesome for Wimbledon. take note of how many Aces he can have in one match. it's amazing.

Jo-Wilfred Tsonga from France. he has amazing agility for his mass and height. his guts to cover up the net is what i admire the most.

Caroline Wozniacki from Denmark, the Taylor Swift twin. she is consistent and have strong forehand. impressed me A LOT during last year's US Open where she reached the semi-final after ousting Melanie Oudin and other big seeds.

Elena Dementiva from Russia. she finally got to where she deserved to be after so many years. her serve improved tremendously but she needs to work on her nerves more to win Grand Slams!

Kim Clijsters, the mother from Belgium. one wonder come-back story where a mum won a Grand Slam last year at US Open. more from her will be expected.

Justin Henin from Belgium. i am so disappointed when she announced her retirement! imagine my delight when she came back at US Open last year! she is a favourite for me because of her phenomenal single-hand backhand.

Melanie Oudin from USA. the prodigy who awed the world last year with numerous awesome performance to oust out big seeds to reach the quarterfinal of US Open last year. she will be World No.1 sooner or later. she is only 17!

Ana Ivanovic from Serbia. i have no idea what happened to her after she won French Open 2 year ago. it's like her form dipped immediately after winning that only Grand Slam! what a pity.

tennis is an awesome sport. =D

ok i took some time to think it through. first and foremost, i thank every single one of you for viewing that video posted by me singing Mad World. honestly, it was not a impressive piece of work at all, it was a plain frustration-venting video of mine. i just really wanna express myself through the lyrics and melody. the purpose of me putting it up on youtube and facebook is because i wanna have the mp4 version to put it into my ipod and for my own records.

but... i have been thinking.. should i really do more of these covers? do give me your suggestions and feedback ok. of course, only constructive ones will be appreciated. i don't think that my singing is earth-shaking, but it is definitely pass passable for me to have the guts to put it publicly there. so. yeah, do tell me what you think. =)

thank you!. =D

jayne. =D

2010-06-28T20:13:00.003+08:00

the more hopeful you are, the more disappointed you will get in the end. it is a saying that is often deemed old-fashioned and too frequently used in dramas, but the truth in it is undeniable. sigh.

people ask me why i do not show negative emotions or feelings on the outside. "just show it!", my friends always tell me to do so. and when i show my true feelings, nobody likes it. so all in all, what is the point then? i rather put on a false front and everyone be happy. i will be happy in the end, maybe. who knows, right?

hypocrite, faker, double-faced, selfish, tyranny, bossy, authoritarian, whatever it is. i can't say i have had enough of it. all those remarks only proved one thing, i am a person who has good expectations of myself, that is all and i am proud of it. happy with it or not, that's not my business anymore.

school started. happy because i finally got to see my awesome classmates and friends from other sides (JumpStart, Tennis, Korean), sigh~ cause there comes all the stress again. i am not much of an escapist, but sometimes i will really wanna slack and absolutely relax. sometimes i secretly wish that someone will steal my phone and my laptop so that i can have my life to myself. sigh~

school also meant that it will be a great long time before seeing my old friends. how i will miss them so. sigh~ sms and facebook messages can only bring us together that much. nothing beats hanging out. sigh~

decided that each time i am close to breaking point, i will destress through singing. it has always been the thing for me to do, but this time round, i've decided to bring it to a higher level. i will record it with background and post it on YouTube. i emphasize that i am not yearning to become famous or to become a singer superstar, i just want to share my passion for singing, that is all.

it's kinda pitchy at a few parts. pardon that. =P

jayne. =D

2010-06-21T17:14:00.003+08:00

my 3 awesome friends: Gena, JieXing, YanLin.

the guy who surprised many with his presence，MengYong.

the funny guys who always make people laugh, intentionally or not.

the best of friends i have ever seen.

picture will be complete with KangLing!

the most loving gay couples i have ever seen. HAPPY BIRTHDAY XIONGXIONG!. =D

how nice! BUT they are not together ok. fyi.

i just love my classmates to the max. =)

perfectly nice. =)

the more i look at this picture, the harder my food go against the flow.

我很喜欢这张照片。=D

the first people whom i watched football with other than my brothers and father; the 3 of us shares the passion: FOOTBALL.

do not ever be deceived by his smiling face. he is a pro. period.

at least i know i should hit the white one. 0..0

my awesome current wallpaper. Sandy, Jayne, Clarence. =D

before the break, i had t04 KTV and bowling with JianXiong, Winston, LiTing and Denise. but the pictures were not good, so i shall not post any here. just remember that that day was a blast for me. KTV was awesome with 14 people cramped in a room. =P the dinner at Sumo House was when i truly got to know the 2 guys in our class, JianXiong and Winston. and some of us really showed our true selves through these intimate dinners. bowling was AWESOME. =D thank you people!. though i shall always remember this day where i almost potentially went blind. 0..0

and i love having dinner with my Korean class classmates. they are ShiYong (Random), Amanda (Ducky) and Cheryl (Cheh-rih-il). they are all really awesome people. the common thing that brings us together and how we always recall the way we got together in class and end up being close, it's really amazing.thank you! i shall take some pictures next time. =D

first week of break was filled with mixed emotions and feelings.

one thing that is absolutely taking over my life is WORLD CUP. so many shocks, all the drama. take a step back, watch how sports brings people together. that's why i am so passionate about it too. it brings people from all walks of life together. =) anyway, my body clock is totally screwed. it's 5.41pm now. but to me, i feel like it's 10am, barely awake. when it's midnight, i feel like it's only 8pm. gosh. =P

let me try to recap whatever that i did. ok, i had my long-awaited hair cut on sunday, finally! i absolutely loathe the medium hair length.urgh.

monday was damn tiring but fun for me. first time in my life, i went to Jack's Place twice in a day. afternoon lunch with JieXing, YanLin, Gena, MengYong, YuFeng and Monil. it was an intimate lunch with all close friends coming together to catch up. everyone was thrilled to see JieXing. =D JianXiong's birthday celebration was in the evening and i hope the birthday cake and all was memorable for him! birthdays are meant to be memorable and happy, really. that's what i always believe in. bowling with them again, this time was even awesome, seriously. JianXiong and Winston were going crazy over Denise. LOL!. ok that was a joke ok. =) let me share with you all this video:

it's just a compilation of videos that they took during the outing. it was only 4+minutes, it took me one whole night to upload it. =P but this is the most gay, funny, exciting video ever made by me. =P thought of putting subtitles to it. but the singlish, hokkien, mandarin and english are too alternative. =P

finally managed the time to take a breather and read this book. it was just 100+ pages and i finished it in no time. i was dumbfounded after this book. who will give attention to a 5-minute character? i have long forgotten my "every character always have a story to tell, no matter how small the character is" while writing, but this novella thrown me back into my writing days. Bree Tanner was a girl which most fans do not give much attention to, but right now, i am a huge fan of hers. everybody loves the protagonist, me too. but sometimes, we all have to look at those in the corners or at the background. without them, there will be no protagonists.

then mostly my days are filled by WORLD CUP. England, France, Italy, Portugal, SPAIN all failed to perform to expectation. we shall see. =)

first time i watched football with friends. Sandy and Clarence. too bad Clarence was down with that awful flu+cough thing. =(

i like how we talked about the past. we all have grown to become wiser, no doubt. =D

and Clara, i love you!. =D

to a few more days of absolute freedom. =)

jayne. =D

2010-06-12T21:53:00.003+08:00

one camera specially designed for woman. i am proud to own this. i am a WOMAN. =D
yes, i chose the pink one. =P
i am excited by its features, woots! =D
i will use it for the first time on Monday, out with JieXing! and GENA, YANLIN, MENGYONG and the unconfirmed guys. 0....0
14.1MP. YES. HERE I COME. =D

and YAY!. i am proud to call myself a HMS AMBASSADOR. =D and i say there wasn't really any competition. 0...0 anyway, HMS, i am proud to serve you. =)

WORLD CUP 2010, come take over my life. =D

my self-splitting is reaching a maximum, seriously. phew.

jayne. =D

2010-06-08T13:43:00.002+08:00

ok before i officially disconnect myself from the Internet to start on my ITABS revision, i am so going to do this. from Denise's blog!. =D

Bold those that you have accomplished so far:

01. Bought everyone in the bar a drink

02. Swam with dolphins

03. Climbed a mountain

04. Taken a Ferrari for a test drive

05. Been inside the Great Pyramid

06. Held a tarantula

07. Taken a candlelit bath with someone

08. Said “I love you” and meant it

09. Hugged a tree

10. Bungee jumped

11. Visited Paris

12. Watched a lightning storm at sea

13. Stayed up all night long and saw the sun rise

14. Seen the Northern Lights

15. Gone to a huge sports game

16. Walked the stairs to the top of the leaning Tower of Pisa

17. Grown and eaten your own vegetables

18. Touched an iceberg

19. Slept under the stars

20. Changed a baby’s diaper

21. Taken a trip in a hot air balloon

22. Watched a meteor shower

23. Gotten drunk on champagne

24. Given more than you can afford to charity

25. Looked up at the night sky through a telescope

26. Had an uncontrollable giggling at the worst possible moment

27. Had a food fight

28. Bet on a winning horse

29. Asked out a stranger

30. Had a snowball fight

31. Screamed as loudly as you possibly can

32. Held a lamb

33. Seen a total eclipse

34. Ridden a roller coaster

35. Hit a home run

36. Danced like a fool and didn’t care who was looking

37. Adopted an accent for an entire day

38. Actually felt happy about your life, even for just a moment

39. Had two hard drives for your computer

40. Visited all 50 states

41. Taken care of someone who was drunk

42. Had amazing friends

43. Danced with a stranger in a foreign country

44. Watched whales

45. Stolen a sign

46. Backpacked in Europe

47. Taken a road-trip

48. Gone rock climbing

49. Taken a midnight walk on the beach

50. Gone sky diving

51. Visited Ireland

52. Been heartbroken longer than you were actually in love

53. In a restaurant, sat at a stranger’s table and had a meal with them

54. Visited Japan

55. Milked a cow

56. Alphabetized your CDs

57. Pretended to be a superhero

58. Sung karaoke

59. Lounged around in bed all day

60. Played touch football

61. Gone scuba diving

62. Kissed in the rain

63. Played in the mud

64. Played in the rain

65. Gone to a drive-in theatre

66. Visited the Great Wall of China

67. Started a business

68. Fallen in love and not had your heart broken

69. Toured ancient sites

70. Taken a martial arts class

71. Played D&D for more than 6 hours straight

72. Gotten married

73. Been in a movie

74. Crashed a party

75. Gotten divorced

76. Gone without food for 5 days

77. Made cookies from scratch

78. Won first prize in a costume contest

79. Ridden a gondola in Venice

80. Gotten a tattoo

81. Rafted the Snake River

82. Been on a television news program as an “expert”

83. Gotten flowers for no reason

84. Performed on stage

85. Been to Las Vegas

86. Recorded music

87. Eaten shark

88. Kissed on the first date

89. Gone to Thailand

90. Bought a house

91. Been in a combat zone

92. Buried both of your parents

93. Been on a cruise ship

94. Spoken more than one language fluently

95. Performed in Rocky Horror

96. Raised children

97. Followed your favorite band/singer on tour

98. Passed out cold

99. Taken an exotic bicycle tour in a foreign country

100. Picked up and moved to another city to just start over

101. Walked the Golden Gate Bridge

102. Sang loudly in the car, and didn’t stop when you knew someone was looking with the windows open

103. Had plastic surgery

104. Survived an accident that i shouldn't have survived

105. Wrote articles for a large publication

106. Lost over 100 pounds

107. Held someone while they were having a flashback

108. Piloted an airplane

109. Touched a stingray

110. Broken someone’s heart

111. Helped an animal give birth

112. Won money on a TV game show

113. Broken a bone

114. Gone on an African photo safari

115. Had a facial part pierced other than your ears

116. Fired a rifle, shotgun, or pistol

117. Eaten mushrooms that were gathered in the wild

118. Ridden a horse

119. Had major surgery

120. Had a snake as a pet

121. Hiked to the bottom of the Grand Canyon

122. Slept for 30 hours in a 48 hour period

123. Visited more foreign countries than U.S. States

124. Visited all 7 continents

125. Taken a canoe trip that lasted more than 2 days

126. Eaten kangaroo meat

127. Eaten sushi

128. Had your picture in the newspaper

129. Changed someone’s mind about something you care deeply about

130. Gone back to school

131. Parasailed

132. Touched a cockroach

133. Eaten fried green tomatoes

134. Read The Iliad and The Odyssey

135. Selected one “important” author who you missed in school, and read

136. Killed and prepared an animal for eating

137. Skipped all your school reunions

138. Communicated with someone without sharing a common spoken language

139. Been elected to public office

140. Written your own computer language

141. Thought to yourself that you’re living your dream

142. Had to put someone you love into hospice care

143. Built your own PC from parts

144. Sold your own artwork to someone who didn’t know you

145. Had a booth at a street fair

146. Dyed your hair

147. Been a DJ

148. Shaved your head

149. Caused a car accident

150. Saved someone’s life

heeheee. SO FUN. i knew so much about myself now. =P

jayne. =D

2010-06-05T23:33:00.009+08:00

it feels like ages since i've blogged. there is just too many things that happened. so much so that i cannot blog like how i used to. day by day, i will narrate anything interesting that happened. but ever since i started my new life in NP, my life has just been far too interesting for me to highlight everything. but, the whole purpose of me having a blog and keeping it till now even is so that i hold on tight to memories that i will never want to go let go off.

will pictures do the job? hm. let me try.

(vivian, gena, jayne, yanlin, nicholas, monil)

the 6 of us. without even 1, there will be no us. =)

(vivian, jayne)

see how insanely huge this platter is at Cafe Cartel. it was definitely worth the money. =D

(gena, jayne, yanlin)

i love this picture to the max, awesome. =D

(yanlin, jayne, monil, gena)

this picture reminds me so much of my sec1 and 2 class. =D sorry nic!. =P

(yanlin, jayne)

finally, a picture with me and the birthday girl. =D
pssst. i never knew my highlights were that awesome. =P heehee.

our last tutorial with the loving and caring Mr. Lim Shi An. =(
but i love this picture a lot. =D

(winston, denise, jayne, liting)

happy that the presentation is finally over. =D

(jianxiong)

somebody please pity my bag. sigh. =P

the sensational girl power of t04! but where is kangling?! =X

a class photo where not everyone can be seen clearly. but we all know in our hearts, we are a class. =D

(liting, jayne, denise)

absolutely loves the red-eye effect. i want to look like Jane of the Volturi. =P

in case you can't read it, it says "I *heart* U"... by jianxiong. and glenn? LOl! it was being passed around, which got everyone's hands oily. =P

(denise, jayne)

XINXIN!. i just love to call her name so she will call me back CHUYI~ also!. =P

(jayne, jingshan, denise, kimberly)

hurhur we were trying to do the crooked-eye thing. but i obviously failed. =P

Amanda Yin of my korean class drew this for me! she calls me Hamster and i call her Ducky! she is one awesome korean-mate. i am hopeless without her. =P i love you DUCKY!. =D

OMG. this is super fun!. =D

all right. i think that will be all. do you all have all the thousands of words that i wanted to convey? =P

right, then it will be the videos. check out them yo. =)

my awesome class. =D

Lion King still touches me to this day. =D

Sociology Tutorial on wednesday was really interesting. my childhood memories were all recalled and i was reminded, again, about how deprived my childhood was. glenn had to educate me on Barbie and Krabby Patty. ok. you can go OMG. ...

very briefly, this week was really awesome. was living with the aftermath of high-ness after parting ways with YanLin, Gena, Nicholas, Vivian and Monil. opportunities to get together with them are really hard to come by already. i really should cherish all these times with them even more than ever. =P

class outing was a blast! got endless positive responses from my classmates and i am really happy to see them enjoying themselves! a lot of them are making friends out of their cliques and i am very happy about it. we are a class, never forget that ok?! =D now, let us all look forward to the next one. KBOX!.

then the dinner with my korean classmate was enjoyable! the food and the funny conversations, awesome!> =D

well. i guess i may be only updating here only once a week, like this. posting pictures to sum up my week, if possible. for more constant updates of me, please do check out my facebook page, of which i already got a link on the right side of this blog. but, do still continue to give me tags! =D even though i do not reply to tags, it really does make my day when i see tags. thank you people!. =D

jayne loves you. =D

jayne. =D

2010-05-30T21:44:00.003+08:00

just a short and simple video to honor all my friends who have made a difference in my life. those who have appeared before me for the past 4 years in Ahmad Ibrahim Secondary School, the good the bad and even the ugly. i thank you all, from the bottom of my heart. the people are too plentiful to name, but you definitely know who you are. THANK YOU! and jayne loves you all!. =D

after 6 weeks in poly, i realise that my secondary school friends are still the ones who can make me truly laugh without having to think of anything else. i can absolutely be myself with them. thank you guys!. =D you guys truly made my day and also helped me through a difficult time maybe unknowingly. thank you. =D

vivian's not in the photo. =( i shall post another picture here with him inside to let you guys have a look at my hunks and babes!. =D

things happen in life. as they say: the Good, the Bad and the Ugly. well. i guess i have seen enough of it to last me a few lifetimes. but i am never going to kowtow to shit. that is the kind of faith that i will always have. =D

started recording my own songs with Audacity. i teared. i don't know why. maybe because it was like a dream come true. =D

jayne. =D

2010-05-23T11:57:00.004+08:00

another masterpiece of mine done up for itabs. sijie looked at almost everyone's and said that they are mostly scary. =X

week 5 has been quite awesome because i finally get to see my classmates after 1 week of e-learning. 2 assignments due, at least something off my mind. finally got to finalise our visit to an organisation for our newsletter.

and i had dinner for 2 days in school with Denise, KangLing and LiTing! i so love having dinner with them! they are awesomely funny people.=D i really enjoy those kind of small gatherings with my new friends. super damn enjoyable. =D NP's alumni clubhouse is awesome. it really is. the food OMG. definitely worth the money. =D

week 5 has been eventful for me. i left school late on a few days. latest was Friday, at 9p.m. i love Makan Place at night. so peaceful and spacious. but when the lights are going off, trust me it's scary. =X anyway, maybe i can say that week 5 is a turning point for me in poly life. good, bad. all kinds of ways. i've learnt a lot since school started and week 5 is just..... i don't know. there's good, there's bad. but mainly are good. =D

the good things about week 5:

had dinner with KangLing, Denise and LiTing.
i sort of mixed with different cliques on wednesday
finally went down to HELP FSC to get the interview and field visit done
korean class is forever awesome (even though i am always damn tired by that time) with Amanda and Cheryl!
i love my JumpStart group with Vina, SongHuan and Timotheus. ICE-CREAMS are awesome! let's go with Chicken Rice flavour man!. =D
last but not least, i got JAY CHOU'S album!. it is GOOOOODD!. =D

then i volunteered myself for a programme at HELP FSC. it is an organisation specially for single-parent families. do let me know if you are interested in volunteering yourself. they are looking for people who can commit at least 1 year and 2 hours a week. please do not ask me if it contributes to your CCA points or CIP or whatever. 0...0

i am so glad that i have fridays to unwind. my jumpstart group members are all from BA and i am glad that we got along well. they are really nice people! they are all from prominent courses and i am really happy that they are all awesomely nice people still. =DDD

nowadays i am so tired that i often have to resort to slapping myself so hard that i startle my friends. and i close my eyes while walking. yes i am that damn tired and sleepy. so please, yes do show me your sympathy if you see me walking with my eyes closed. just please don't stand in front of me purposely. =D

i am thankful for all my friends who has been there for me and who pledged to be there for me if i ever needed them. thank you guys! you have no idea how your every single word of encouragement means to me. to all my old and new friends: XIEXIENIMEN!. =DDDDD

and to my Angel: thank you so much for the awesomely sweet letter and the 5 cranes! i've stringed them together and now it's is hanging on my table-lamp. thank you!. =DDD

jayne. =D

i feel good and happy when i am nice to people.
i don't feel bad when i am nasty to people. at all.
but when i think that whatever i have done are not appreciated. then i will turn nasty without feeling bad. at all.

2010-05-14T22:05:00.003+08:00

everybody was suppose to come up with a nice caterpillar using Photoshop during iTabs, and TADA! this is mine! samantha, my lecturer, went "AIYOOOO! what happened to your caterpillar??!!" when she saw mine. that caught the attention of the people around me. and they all burst into uncontrollable laughter. =X

i am taking a break from everything right now. i just need to. Sociology essay, Psychology essay, Community Service essay, iTabs + Sociology PBL, Written Communication + Community Service Newsletter. how long can the list go? sigh. the more it adds on, the more depressed i become. and everything is not going according to plans. it's e-learning week but i'm going back to school everyday, except for wednesday. the only comfort is that i can see my awesome classmates! kimberly, yeewei, andre, denise (xinxin), kangling (ah bell), etc etc. hahaah! i have cute nicknames for some of my classmates. they are all awesome people!. =D

oh you guys should have seen Clara's epic shocked face when Kimberly started to speak Mandarin. should have taken a picture man!. =P

Astons dinner gathering on Wednesday evening and i really enjoyed myself with my "old" friends! Clara, Jingle, Sebastian and Monil. the look in our eyes when we recall our fond secondary school memories were beyond words. we miss those days, really. no matter how the stress sucked back then, we enjoyed those days truly. we laughed like mad when we recall those embarrassing moments (like Monil getting a broken nose from somebody's punch), we get excited when we explore into some teacher's privacy, etc etc. sigh. those were really great days. =)

ok for the benefit for those who are really concerned over my weight (more than i am over myself), i have lost 18kg since January ok. so quit asking me for my ear's sake. yes i admit that i say 20kg sometimes because i rounded it up and it sounds nicer. =)

today is Friday, my favourite and longest day in school for me. first up is S&W. Tennis was awesome today. and i really thank Coach for having so much patience with me. i am infamous for being slow when picking up techniques. but his patience is really WOW man. i sweated out most of my frustrations today during Tennis. i was tired even before the lesson started because i only slept for 5 hours. was feeling absolutely drained but suddenly the perspiration perked me up. haha. exercise is awesome!

ok then we made our way to Blk 56 for JumpStart and i don't think i will ever forget the "rich" conversation i had with Timotheus. it really got me to think a lot about how i carry myself, lol! =P and Mr. Samuel Tan is late, again. and so the whole of us went to Campus Deli and Timotheus' salad really got my stomach and intestines to work. i was very sad when i saw how it ended up on the floor. =( hahaa. oh and the conversation between me and SongHuan at Campus Deli was hilarious! "is that a guy or a girl?!" omg and we still can't figure it out after half an hour. until we got some kind of confirmation from Vina. =P oh, and Timotheus can read faces. beware. =X the tortoises in the pond are cute. =D

discussion during Jumpstart for my group was Teenage Pregnancy. my brain was fried by that time and i just went blank mentally. sorry i could not get the slides and discussion to go on smoothly. hope my crappy presentation was enough. =P my Tennis mates went to have lunch together. did not join them because Clara was already waiting for me. =P oh! i know another fellow Canton today! yay. =D

oh yeah Zesty Tomato for lunch. once in a week is ok. just please don't have it too often. the oil is just too sinful. =P Campus Deli SALAD rocks my world upside down! =D

k then we stayed in the library until 5pm. i was utterly demoralised byt then. because of the rejected calls from the organisations. SIGH. i was mourning my way to Korean class until it started. seriously, Amanda and Cheryl really made my day. thank you girls! i am glad to know the 2 of you in such a fun class!. =DD and please don't be deceived by Amanda's angelic ECH front. you should have seen how she smacked and poked me and how she gushes about a guy whom she thought was cute. 0..0 thanks to AMANDA AND CHERYL. my day was not so bad. i was really depressed. but now. all the energy is BACK. jayne is BACK..=D

and yes. i guess it's pretty obvious on Facebook that this week hasn't exactly been the best week of my life.but i really thank every single person who commented encouraging words to me. i've heard tonnes of comforting words before, but what really touched me was the sincerity from the people who loves me as who i am. thank you to all! i really do appreciate you! thank you for your acceptance and love. =D

tomorrow is a Saturday. i am going to school to study with Clara and Sandy!. =D i love NP library. =D

jayne. =D

2010-05-08T09:42:00.003+08:00

the night of 6th may was arguably the worst and scariest night of my life. i was burning hot all over and i can't even walk properly without holding on to anything. my eyes were so swollen and my head was the at its heaviest i ever felt. as i hastily went to bed, the first half an hour of my "sleep" was frightening.

everything that has happened in my life went past me. everything. the good, the bad and the ugly, everything i've been through for 17 years just went past me. and suddenly, visuals of things that i wanted to accomplish appeared before it. like there was somebody telling me to hang in there for the things to be done. i really thought i was going to die. really.

you have no idea how glad i was when i heard my alarm tone (Need You Now by Lady Antebellum) the following morning. i then checked my eyesight and my hearing. they're fine. phew. though i was sick till this very moment, i am still thankful that nothing drastic has happened to me. i will be more positive and grateful in my lifetime. nothing can really pull me down now. =)

though i thought i was going to faint after 1 hour of tennis. i held on to the very end to JumpStart. phew. and i survived, again. =D

school work is coming in crazy now. 3 essays which holds high percentage and 1 assignment that requires a lot of work. e-learning next week and i got a feeling that i will not be able to tide it through easily. =P

oh to my angel who i think may be reading this: hm, thanks for your notes for the past 2 weeks! i really do appreciate your effort. =D jiayou to you too for all the assignments!. =D

EPL tomorrow will be epic. just shoot yourself if you call yourself a football fan and not watch tomorrow. =D

i'm used to hot and cold. i'm used to being great friends and being ignored at just the blink of eye. i don't understand why, but i don't have to. i will just move forward because my life is mine. =D

jayne. =D

2010-05-06T09:33:00.002+08:00

aw i should really stop coughing like somebody who got TB. you should see how people in the MRT stared at me when i went home yesterday from school from Bukit Batok to Admiralty. not a ride i will want to remember. 0..0 got worse when i reached home. everything from the cough branched out to running and now, a flaming sore throat. i was awakened by the burning sensation in my throat. even hurts when i breathe. when i cough, it's torturous. gosh. but i still can't stop singing to the songs i play. just that i sound horrible. =P so going to get Strepsils from the Co-Op..

and i realised i've made another Freshman-entitled mistake. wanted to get Eclipse mints and i thought no place in school has it. so i went to Cheers to buy it. HUGE mistake. 0..0

is it the weather? moods of the people around me are kinda unusual lately. whatever it is, there will always be me for you people ok!. =D

changed the song here just now. it's The Writer by Ellie Goulding. i think her most famous song to date is Starry Eyed, which was featured in Kick Ass and is now hot on radio. this song really appealed to me because of the lyrics. i couldn't really make out the lyrics at when i first heard it because of her super thick British accent. i googled it and i can't stop listening to this song now. and i am impressed by her singing style. her songs are very easy to sing along, but if you want to sing it A-, you're going to have a very hard time. well, at least for me. =P

school's awesomeness never stops. i love my class, to4! <3s!. =D

times flies when you're busy and tired.

Monday: aw man, start of the week! but yay! got to see my classmates!
Tuesday: omg, 9am to 6pm in school, somebody just shoot me!
Wednesday: yay 3 hours of break today! can play with classmates!
Thursday: 4pm to 6pm in school. 0...0
Friday: OH YES! IS MODULES! =D KOREAN CLASS!
Saturday: busy doing school stuffs the whole day..... football or tennis at night.. 0..0
Sunday: COME ON! it's sunday already?! =(

and this cycle repeats itself. time FLIES. =D

jayne. =D

2010-05-02T15:35:00.002+08:00

my workload appeared to have shrunk due to my unexpected efficiency. i've managed to relax during this weekend after all. =)

having Violin 101 playing at the background right. i have my curtains drawn and the sunlight is pouring into my room. i am in a 23 degrees celcius room. i am enjoying the serenity of a weekend. =D

oh please people, don't hate classical music! you don't have what kind of therapeutic effect they can have sometimes, really. everytime i listen to them, i feel so at peace. when i am doing my homework, listening to them really help me a lot. i don't feel irritated or hasty to get my work done. i just simply do it the best way i can. =) classical music is the very firsts of everything we listen to nowadays. don't condemn them!. =D

finished up 2 videos yesterday for my ITABS assignment. a 1 minute Excel tutorial and a 2 minute Personal Home video. k let me show it to you guys:

the quality was awful because of the free converter i use. the sound was awful because i had the mic too close to my mouth and i was like screaming into it. =P but it took me almost 20 takes to get to this, so i just went ahead with this. =P i'm sometimes not that a perfectionist. =P

this one is more satisfying for me. just a short tour in my room. my room is no stranger to my friends, haha. just don't pay too much attention to the mess. it's part of who i am. =P

right so i am trying to upload my videos from previous years to facebook in case i lose them on my computer. but right now, it has already been loading for 1.5 hours. and it's not even half way through. 0..0

before i took on Psychology, i've always thought things out differently from other people. but i hardly say them out, afraid that my point of view will not be accepted and hence, i myself will not be accepted. but after years and years of growing up and the things that i go through, heck it. i don't need people to accept me. now i find myself voicing out my true thoughts more often then ever, which amazed me. really. i never thought i will be the confident and sometimes out-spoken person before. thanks to those who've helped and supported me through my difficult times all these years. =D

poly life has changed me, even though it's only 2 weeks of it up till now. i find myself more outgoing and ready to take up challenges. everytime i am presented with a task, i think of the obstacles and i take a fearful step back. but once i overcome everything and the results are so much more better than i expected, then i know i am much more capable than i thought i was. used to dislike new things and being alone, but now.. gosh. i look forward to new things and being alone (and hungry =P ) does not bother me at all now. =D guess it's all because of the awesome new people and new things that i know of now. thank you to all!. =D

jayne. =D

2010-05-01T00:11:00.006+08:00

please forgive me if there's any mistake in my typings or if there are points where you can't understand what the heck i am talking about. i am now at my optimum level of endurance of tiredness. phew. i woke up at 5.30a.m. today, now is 12.17am. i estimate i will still be awake for 1 more hour. so you do the math. and i've been in school for more than 12hours. that sums my day at the most general way. =)

right, so reached school early today for Sports and Wellness. i chose Tennis because i really don't just wanna watch my favourite players (Novak Djokovic, Andy Roddick, Melanie Oudin, Justine Henin) play on Star Sports. i just to learn a new sport too, after being fairly competent in badminton and volleyball. and gosh, it was fun! ok, i was very noob in all sorts of ways. but i did enjoy myself! i love learning new sports. =D and the new friends i made were great. we all are learning from one another and so, we all rock!. =D

and the coincidence is crazy once i am in NP. i see lots of primary school classmates. and YOSHI POON. not that i am short, you are the one who grew. 0..0

after which was JumpStart. i really love this module a lot! it's fun, the lecturer is hilarious and i really can just relax for the 2nd time in a week. (first time was at the tennis court!) then i realised 2 of my tennis classmates are in the same JumpStart as me! they're really awesome. Timotheus and SongHuan. then when it's time for groupwork, we teamed up with Vina and Liyana. yay i got to know so many new people today!. =DD

anyway, we really had fun doing our roller coaster! it was absolutely beyond awesomeness. our groups's was the longest-running roller coaster with 13seconds! beat that man! i must really thank my awesome groupmates! if without them, i really wouldn't be part of a team that came out with such a successful and fun-filled roller coaster. =D

yay this is my profile picture at Facebook. our roller coaster is the coolest amongst all, indisputably right. =D

after class the 5 of us went to the library to submit stuffs since we did not have our laptops with us. and there was one embarrassing moment. we were curious about a Bloomberg PC and Tim pulled the entire keyboard out with a loud "thud". and so people all around us turned to look at us fix that keyboard back. 0.o ok. anyway.

we crapped and bullshitted through the whole of our "inspiration" and i really enjoyed the day with them. THEY ARE AWESOME!. gosh, another reason for me to look forward to FRIDAYS. =D

saw SANDY and CLARA queuing at Zesty Tomatoes when coming down the stairs with my friends and i was so amazed by the coincidence. =DD yay!!! and not to mention that clara was hilariously awestruck by the guy beside me. =PPP ok she is going to kill me if she sees this. =P

we 3 ate at the Atrium and we were attacked ferociously by mosquitoes. 0.o

sandy went for her lesson and clara and i went to the library! and right there, this is what happened to my notebook:

drawn by Clara the Cat. =D

and so. i had my Korean class. the dictation was disastrous, no doubt about it. i was trying my best not to even blink my eyes in class. because i know if one blink turns into a closed-eye and it remains close for more than a second, i'm gone.

i was freezing throughout the 2hours and on the bus ride to Bukit Batok Interchange. gosh. i am so glad to reach home. phew.

walked past Sun Plaza Mac and suddenly i pictured my friends and i sitting at one of those tables. those were the times. we were mugging like crazy till the sun goes down and all those crazy times. i was so hardworking, urgh. i really missed them you know. i was listening to Shontelle's "T-Shirt" and it went "nothing feels right when i'm not with you...." at that exact moment. all sorts of emotions rushed to me. i will never ever forget my friends i know before NP. they were the ones who made what i am today. without them, i will not be possible of what i am today. i love them always. =DD

and i am so tired now. but i just can't go to sleep. there's too much for me to do. =P

all in all, FRIDAY'S AWESOME! =D

jayne. =D

2010-04-25T19:20:00.002+08:00

i have always pictured this song as a song that a guy will sing to a girl, apologising for what he did to her after he hurt her. the keyboard and vocals are mad.

Run is what i always thought as the most difficult Leona Lewis song to sing and i've always wanted to sing it like that. Sam Tsui is awesome. =D

this is simply impossible. =D

i never thought that a guy can sing this song so well. the notes were perfectly hit and he did not miss any of it! now i sing this song his style. =D

it will be great if i can find a guy to sing it with me. it was perfect!. =D i still haven't find a guy singing-partner. =(

i've always imagined this song accoustic and they had done a great job with it. =D

i absolutely can't stop listening to this guy now. =P

first week of poly was awesome. it has only been a week and i feel like home. NP is really a awesome place. i love my class 04. =D

next time up here will be Within Temptation. =D

jayne. =D

2010-04-21T16:38:00.003+08:00

poly life has been stunning to me so far. i never fail to notice how much i enjoy myself in school every single day. ok, secondary school was fun too, but there is a very big difference. in AI, i do not enjoy every single lesson because i simply suck in those subjects. the teachers were wonderful and patient but i just do not have the natural-born talent in Sciences and Math. i worked hard to become what i never was. but in NP, i chose a course that i've wanted forever and every single lecture or tutorial was is like a workshop that i signed up for. i pay full attention to it and every single detail captivates me and that was what amazed me. it's awesomeness beyond words. =D

all right, so i am in Psychology and Community Services (PCS) Year 1 of School of Humanities. my class is T04 and i say that they are all very nice and approachable people! really, i really enjoy being with them. they are simply awesome people. we bonded together really quickly, or maybe because it was of our similarity in thinking and interests that sparked off the friendships. it was wonderful in school. =D

first day of poly was really not bad. i heard about all the traffic jams and crowded bus and i was absolutely prepared for it. i got out of home early, but apparently too early cause i reached school at 10a.m. when my my ever lecture starts at 11a.m. i kind of lost my way but my lousy orientation skills were sufficient for me to get to the HMS block. my first friend was Nadhirah. she's a really nice girl. =D ok i shall not say too much of individuals because i know, sooner or later, our blogs will be circulated and everyone will read everyone's blog. so, till then!. =D

ok, my sentiments about poly life so far is that i am really happy to be treated as a young adult. the ownership we take upon ourselves, the discipline that you need in order to get good grades, the interpersonal skills that you need to make new friends (NP is filled with so many people, you keep knowing different people everyday!), etc etc. i think the best part for me was i can dress in a way i like. T-Shirt and jeans. ok my past favourite was 3-quarters but come on, it's not really appropriate for school. so i am dressed very comfortably for school everyday! with my collection of t-shirts, i guess i can go on without having the same t-shirt for 3 weeks. like right now, i am wearing my latest edition to the Man-United category of my wardrobe. i will try not to wear Nike or Man United t-shirts every single day. that will be too hard-core. =P but you can see me in my everlasting Man United windbreaker most of the time!. =D

some of my friends have enjoyed poly life, some have not found someone they really click with. so to the latter, i do hope that you guys will adapt to this new poly life soon enough, if not your miserable days are going to be too much. there's definitely something to be happy about when you go to school, really. there's gotta be somebody or something. maybe you did not try hard enough to accept new things? sometimes the solution to a very difficult question is a simple one. =D

all right. a simple breakdown of my schedule now.

Monday: 9am to 4pm
Tuesday: 9am to 6pm
Wednesday: 9am to 4pm (with a 3 hours break in between)
Thursday: 4pm to 6pm (only 1 lecture, kind of .....)
Friday: 8am to 12pm, 6pm to 8pm for Korean

so i guess you guys will know when to find me and all. i am basically not able to go out or whatever during weekdays, being the very disciplined jayne. so, if you wanna ask me out for anything at all, precious weekends will be it. and, if you have any bad news for me, please do not tell me on tuesday. i will be too tired to digest it. you don't have to ruin a day for me that way. =)

right now, i am waiting for time to past because i am waiting for 6p.m. i'm interested in the CCA called Song Composing Club and i am not sure if they'll take me. by their title, it's song composing, which means you got to know a instrument, right? i know nuts about those and i do not have music background. i can only tell how many notes a symbol is. =P the only thing i can do well enough is to open my mouth and sing... so.. i hope they do take me in. if i want to join a CCA, it is this that i ever wanted. =)

had my Garskin on for the first day today and many people complimented it! yay! hahaa there are lots of beautiful designs to choose from but i chose this ultimately because i think it reflects my personality and thinking the best. will try to take pictures of them as soon as i can to share it with you guys!. =D

i know my entries are getting more and more wordy with no pictures or videos or whatever else to share. i will try something real soon ok!. =D

by the way, do continue to tag ok?! if i feel like replying to you, i will reply you in some other ways, but not here nor in the tagboard. =D

jayne. =D

2010-04-18T19:08:00.002+08:00

sometimes when i really need from people are just to be open-minded and not to judge or stereotype me. ok, i am a boyish girl and i am not a typical girl. and i have my own way of doing things. i don't need people or approve, accept or even like me. sometimes i just hope that the whole world just leaves me alone. urgh.

i am getting more and more frustrated with those "oh.... i didn't you'd like this...", "hm... this does not look like anything you'd do..." or anything like that. like in your eyes, i'm always "suppose" to do what you think i would do. i like Shinedown and Muse (which most girls absolutely hates) and Backstreet Boys and David Archuleta (which most guys will look like they've been electrocuted whenever their names are mentioned). i totally accept and respect the fact that people have their own likings and preferences, but please, just don't assume what you yourself like or dislike to apply to everyone. it's just the arrogance and disgusting self-confidence that absolutely puts me off.

and my choice of music is only a small part of what i am trying to bring up. seriously. sigh.

like i said, i sometimes really hope that i know nobody in the world. i'll just be with myself the whole time and all. that kind of freedom is what i enjoy the most. it's really valuable for me. every single minute that i spend with myself. be it just very simple things like listening to songs with my awesome system, reading a book in my room, watching a movie on my own on my laptop in the dark, etc etc. i just like to do things on my own sometimes, really. i don't have to care about anyone's needs when i pause to go for a break, scream like hell when i reach a high note in a song, laugh like crazy when i reach a funny part while reading, etc etc. it is the eyes of others that really bothers me, really.

of course, whatever i've said does not apply to people who i really appreciate and thankful for because they absolutely understands me and gives me my own space. they understand that i may like to be on a long train trip on my own because i love to have undisturbed music time and they will not bother me. and they're my friends. thanks guys. =DD

some totally ignorant people (those who always discourage me and never ever try to find out who i am really am) consider me a loser because i dare to be a different and better person than they are. they only have pea-sized brains and they cannot think beyond what they believe in, so there's nothing i can do do make them change the way they think by just talking or shouting. i will prove them wrong through my actions. i am doubted whenever i move on to my next phase of life. i've survived through everything with minimal support from the people who supposedly should support me the most. i am an expert in proving people wrong and exceeding expectations and i will do it once again. i will prove that my choice is the best for myself and i know i am fully responsible for everything i am doing. i have the support of my friends and i guess even their most minimal encouragement with surpass your optimum discouragements.

with everything i've achieved thus far, what is there that i will not believe in myself, right?! =D yes i break down, i moan and groan, i take a little longer break than i should once in a while, but i never fail myself. =D

amongst my friends, i am the most realistic being. despite me being the realist, there are just moments in my life where i wished i can just jump into Twilight (or any fictional supernatural books) and assume the role of the protagonist. i will be the most content person in the world if i can just be Bella Swan or Rose Hathaway or Zoey Redbird for one day. heck, give me an hour even and i'll just a the happiest person in the world. it's not just the love with those hot guys that i yearn for, it is always the love from other people. like Bella has her father, the Cullens, the wolves, her daughter; Rose has Lissa, Adrian, her strong mother; Zoey has her always supportive friends and grandmother. it's just the warmth and the love. that hard to understand?

i work so hard to do what i want to do, not for the sake of what people think i should do.

ok i guess i am feeling better now. =D

Freshmen Welcome Reception on Saturday was not bad at all. at least i got hold of more information of NP. though i do know quite a lot already. but getting to know first-hand experiences from some very successful seniors is really good to know. at least i know what to expect from the school and of myself. and there is voice that keeps telling me that,"if you give it your all, you can be the one standing there and addressing these freshmen 2 to 3 years later.." and it is this thought that spurred me on. the high-achieving seniors were very inspirational and i hope to be like them to, really. =D

right, so school starts tomorrow. perhaps the 5 months of holiday really took a toll on me. i simply cannot remember the feeling of having a routine and going to school anymore. it sounds so strange to me whenever i say "oh i'm going to school..". just weird. well, i guess it'll sink in after some time. and being a freshman, i am superbly nervous. i hope i can sleep good enough tonight. gosh.

i know nobody (except for a primary school friend whom i haven't spoken for years and he is not in the same class as me) in the entire HMS. i will try not to appear as a unfriendly and fierce person, which is always the first impression i give others. i will try. =P

jayne. =D

2010-04-16T20:05:00.004+08:00

hey all.

changed the song here to Misguided Ghosts by Paramore. when i first saw the title, i thought it will be just another angry screaming song. but when i listen to it, i was instantly hooked to the guitars. then the vocals, then the most terribly beautiful lyrics i've seen in a long time. hope you guys will like it. =D

so it has been quite a busy day for me. not physically, kind of mentally. k let me break it down to you guys.

first of all, i was awakened by my ever so annoying alarm that i purposely set to have my sleeping times back on track for school, which is starting in 2 days. seriously guys, if you like one particular song, never put it as your alarm tone. you'll find yourself hating that song pretty soon after a few awfully reluctant mornings. it took me a whole 15minutes to really get up. i keep telling myself, "if this was a school day, you should be school by now!" i woke up at 8.45a.m., perfectly no-problem for someone who's still on holiday.

so i did the normal stuffs i'll usually do on the computer. soccernet, facebook, blogs, tetris, etc etc. but i got a few objectives for today.

i need to go through every single thing on NP's e-learning portal for all my modules. whatever to read, print, or simply look through before going for that lecture or tutorial. and being a freshman, the information i got sort of caught me off guard. it was kind of overwhelming for me. there's books, gadgets and stationery to buy. guess i'll have to do some last minute purchase over the weekends. and i absolutely hate that Popular @ Sun Plaza has closed down. no more "just head downstairs for a book or CD!"... ok anyway, after one whole morning of checking out, i still am not sure that i got everything right. the right software to download, what time i really should go to school on Monday and etc etc. phew. it came to a point where i told myself, "all right, stop this. you're going to have to breathe and relax. you're getting too anxious." which i think i really am. things will go all fine, the easiest form of self-assurance.

after school stuffs, then comes the tricky stuffs. i've officially changed laptops and so, i have to copy all my own files from one laptop to another. with the songs and pictures i have, it took several trips because my thumb-drive is only 4GB. then i started on personalising everything. from the bookmarks in Firefox to the background on the desktop. it took me an hour, i guess. and downloading my 2 most important software in my life, MSN and iTunes. i simply cannot live without iTunes. it sorts my music so much more better than Windows Media Player. and i absolutely adores my desktop background now. it's a slideshow of pictures of The Twilight Saga, Vampire Academy and House of Night. how more awesome can it get?! =P

then i move on to the vampires and werewolves. you guys must know that nowadays DVDs mostly come along with an extra disc with special features and all that kind of miscellaneous stuffs right. i can't really remember if i watched Twilight's and so i started it. it was really amazing, ya know. when the crew began to work on this movie, they have no idea how big and sensational this whole Twilight phenomenon is. most of the cast are not really popular actors and actresses, but after their appearance in Twilight (even roles as small as Jessica and Mike), lots of doors opened for them for their acting career. it's a perfect example of instant stardom for all of them. Robert Pattinson would probably be most remembered by his role as Cedric Diggory in Harry Potter if not for Twilight, which is incredibly pathetic compared to what he achieved now as Edward. Kristen Stewart did not star in any super successful movie before Twilight. i only saw her in The Messenger before. and the others, i have no idea who they are at all. phew. it's really inspirational. =)

then i watched New Moon, but it was the special features DVD of the movie that really left an impression of me. all the pre and post production work. how much effort must be put into a movie. a 2-second scene may require 2 days of shooting. the hardship that every single person on set has to endure because of various factors. what must be done manually to satisfy the hunger of the consumers and all.. it's just amazing. the whole process is complicated, time-consuming and every single detail part of the movie has to be done by super-professionals. nothing we see in the theatre will be possible if any one of the people behind the scenes were absent. it's incredible.

and once again, the question pops up to me. why haven't i chose the media industry. sigh. it's like.. i can't have the best of both worlds. i like a lot of things and that is my greatest weakness, i think. i like music, movies, sports, photography, baking, books, writing, singing, nature, sneakers, t-shirts, etc etc. i can never really concentrate on one. and that is why my money-spending is so tremendous. there are endless things in the world for me buy, with my range of interests..

i chose Psychology because i wanted to make a difference in people's lives. people who are in critical need of help, people whom with my help can move on to the next phase of their lives, a more wonder phase. i know i can't do everything but i will do what i can. everytime i watch Idol Gives Back, it really pains me to see how people, children especially, in other countries are suffering because of whatever they lack. i feel the desperate need to help them, but i need to be equipped with the skills to do so. i can't just jump into what i want to do blindly. i have my future to consider also. so all in all, things are just simply complicated. sigh.

no matter what, i respect my own choice. =D

as i am typing this post, i am listening to the soundtrack of New Moon. listening to it right after the movie, i feel much more. like i can relate the songs to the scenes and glimpses of the movie. the songs in this CD are more of alternative, not the usual pop rock things on radio. it makes me really nice. and the greatest musical addition Twilight has given me is Muse. if not for all the melodrama in Twilight, i would not have fallen for the Alternatives genre. =D

and they also showed some footage of Eclipse which i think, couldn't be found on YouTube. it just makes me so much more excited than i already am. =D

oh by the way, my new laptop's screen resolution and sound system is awesome. my fresh previous Dell Mini can't hold a candle to this Acer 4820TG at all! not even a single bit. =P ok, it's also not fair to compare this way, i know. my current one is 3times the price of the previous one. 0.o... and it is suppose to last and not to give me any problems. =)

American Idol Top 7 is next week. i have to say that all 7 of them were pretty good on Elvis night. though non of their performance can be compared to what Adam Lambert done. but that's besides the point. my favourite has always been Siobhan, but what Tim did with "Can't Help Falling In You" really kidnapped my heart. Aaron holds a special place because he is one that i look up to. he is younger than me, for crying out loud, and he is standing on that stage. that's got to be something, right? and please don't ask me why i don't like Crystal as everyone do. she simply just does not appeal to me. i know it's still quite early to say who'll be in the final showdown, i won't say anything about it until the top4. =)

and right now, jayne is completely freaking out over the school, the new school and the new system. phew. Ngee Ann Polytechnic for the next 3 suppose-to-be-life-changing years. phew. i don't know if i am being unnecessarily anxious over this thing, but all i can say is:" i am trying to make things work.".... i have to, right? =P

27th April, Burned of House of Night.
18th May, Spirit Bound of Vampire Academy
5th June, The Second Short Life of Bree Tanner of Twilight
8th June, JieXing's homecoming!. =D
1st July, Eclipse hits the cinemas.

dates to look forward in my life. you have to have things to look forward to, right? =D

jayne. =D

2010-04-15T10:42:00.002+08:00

Hey. =D

so i haven't been posting here for quite some time. guess what i'm busy with? ok some of you may get it right. yeah.. i'm busy reading Twilight all over again. once i start with Twilight, i just have to move on to New Moon, then to Eclipse and then to Breaking Dawn. after 4 books, there will always be a huge smile on my face. like i've really been through the whole journey of every single character in the book. that's the true power of a great author, one of the greatest of our time. until i die, i guess i will read the entire saga for over 100 times, not exaggerating at all. that's what good books do to you. you smile and laugh at it and just can't get enough of it. =D

and i realise that i feel different when i read Twilight at 15 and when i read it now, 17. maybe it's because as my age gets closer to the narrator's, i feel more related. that's my theory. =)

had my Induction Programme at NP HMS (School of Humanities) yesterday and i have to say that i am just a little bit nervous. the way i bombarded sandy with questions about her Induction Programme showed that i am getting a little cold at my feet. who doesn't get nervous when meeting up with new people right? =P with my hair, i have to keep telling myself that "they are not staring at you, they are staring at the one behind you...". ok that's a kinda pathetic self-assurance, i agree. =P but if it helps, who cares. =P i was nervous mainly because i was the only one from my school that got into HMS while my other friends got into other schools in NP. simply put, i have to deal with things on my own. like when i was admitted into Ahmad Ibrahim Secondary School, i was the only one from my primary school class that got into AI. new faces, new people, new school, new everything. but i believe i'll pull through, like i always did. it's not going to be too bad, as always. =D

ok. as usual, i was too early for the Induction Programme. sat around and stuffs and when it was finally time for the programme to start, i chose a seat that's the highest so that i can see everything, and everyone. and ChenLiYi, the ex-933 deejay was in front of me. yes, i held my breath until i came to my senses. =P the introduction to the Course Managers were really funny man! the GLs are all very enthusiastic and high, and i got a good feeling about everything.

all right so nobody approached me to engage in a conversation with me throughout the entire programmes, and i did not do that too. i just prefer to take the time to observe people before jumping to become BFFs. =P but my mouth was closed for the entire morning, so long so that i got bad breath. =P

the lecturers were really friendly and cool. and i hope that there will be enough time for me to get used to poly life. like rushing from class to class and all... i hope i'll survive everything. =P i was already so tired from the Programme alone. i hope i will get use to the routine soon enough.

to digress, i need to complain. the weather is just too hot. simply too hot. i used up 2 packets of tissue for wiping off the perspiration. i have to do it like every 5 minutes, or at even closer intervals. it was HORRIBLE. =P

ok, so last night at American Idol, it was Elvis week and ADAM LAMBERT's the mentor. first ever contestant to be a mentor and he was a runner-up from only the previous season, for crying out loud. from what i see, Adam can really achieve sooooo much more in his glamourous singing career. =D

my favourite performance of the night was no Siobhan's, but Tim Urban's. ok a little history about him. Tim Urban was actually not chosen to make it past Hollywood Week. but a contestant who made it through broke some rules about the Idol policy and they called Tim back to the show. and i am glad that they called him. his performance last night was AWESOME. it melted my heart. those vocals, ooooo... and he's gorgeous. like someone from Vampire Academy. =P so here he is, Tim Urban singing Elvis' Can't Help Falling In Love.

few days ago i was checking out videos on YouTube. and i found this Beyoncé one. she was singing Sweet Dreams, only with piano. my jaw dropped.

then it's my last video to share. i am very in love with this song now. I Never Told You by Colbie Caillat. it's the lyrics that got me mesmerised amongst everything that's so wonderful about this song. i really relate to this song, because i am always keeping mum about things.

hope you guys enjoyed it. =D

jayne. =D

2010-04-10T09:40:00.004+08:00

yup i went checking up pictures on Eclipse yesterday and so of course, i just have to put it up here! simply can't wait for 30th June. aw, it seemed to be so far away. =P Eclipse was my favourite amongst the 4. and i really look forward to see how the production team will portray Renesmee. she seemed really impossible to put on screen because she changes by the hour. i really look forward. =D

and yes, i am reading Twilight again. all the awesomeness is coming back to me again! and i swear i'm not going to read any vampire series anymore. Twilight, Vampire Academy and House of Night are more than enough to fill up my life. =D

is it that i always have that tough tomboy image that somehow it makes it unbelievable for some people to believe that i am a fan of Twilight and all? somehow these people's reaction amuses me a lot. =D

it was Achievement Day at AI yesterday and i only went after everything ended. i just want to avoid those who will shriek my name, i admit. =P anyway, i enjoyed myself with my friends, really. it's really great to see them. and i mean those that i haven't seen in a long time. it's still funny how YiXuan ran up to me just to say hi and all. thanks guys, you all really made my day. =D thanks!. =DD

first time in almost 4 months, i woke up at 8/9 a.m. i really missed the morning air. a deep breath in and i know what i've missed. the routine of my life. and i am having it back soon, real soon. school's starting and i've already checked out my timetable. it didn't seem to be so bad, really. =)

all right, before i go, i'll leave some treats here!. =D

hope you guys liked it!. =D

jayne. =D

2010-04-09T12:55:00.002+08:00

ok the Vampire frenzy is starting all over again. seriously, i just can't get enough of them. =P

just finished reading Blood Promise last night and gosh, i held my breath with each page of this awesome book and sometimes i think i forgot to breathe. seriously! it gets better and better. and i saw on Wikipedia that Spirit Bound's going to be even longer than Blood Promise, 500+ pages i think. and yes! i just love big books! the excitement is always there. =D

i will really like Vampire Academy to have a film like Twilight and all. cause i really have a hard time imagining how all the characters look like. and from what i see in some fan-made videos, loads of them want Taylor Swift as Lissa. HELL NO. =X

felt bored and watched Twilight on DVD last night. just bought New Moon's DVD and guess i'll carry on with it tonight. and yes, the Twilight sensation is catching up with me, again. i will start reading Twilight, again. i have no idea how many times i've read the 4 books and i am definitely not getting tired of reading them. and i think that's what a good book does to me. i buy it, read it, keep it, then take it out and read it again. =D

next up, ECLIPSE!. =D

jayne . =D

2010-04-06T13:04:00.002+08:00

been watching Step Up and Step Up 2 The Streets for the past 2 days on DVD. and i just cannot say how excited i am to watch this movie in the cinema! it's going to be the first ever 3D dance film. =D absolutely worth looking forward to.

i was curious about how the stars from Step Up are doing now and so i checked them out. and so apparently on Channing Tatum is really famous now cause he has appeared in so many movie after his role in Step Up as Tyler. GI Joe, Fighting, Dear John, etc etc. he is now married to his Step Up co-star, yeah Nora. which i was a little bit surprised. hope they'll last. =)

and the couple from Step Up 2, they ain't so lucky. i really hope they can grab another breakout role soon. road to stardom is forever so bumpy. sigh.

ok so i've been busy reading Blood Promise now. i keep telling myself to read slowly because if i read at my normal speed with that much passion, i can easily finish the book in a day, or lesser. and then i have to wait till Spirit Bound is out. so right now, i'm just taking it slow. =)

some drama's going on with my friend and i hope he sorts it out real soon. yeah i know he messed up, but everybody, give him some time ok? everybody's learning from whatever is happening. what we can all do is just take a step back and look things from another angle and you will realise what you've been missing out all the while. i am not siding anybody or any particular type of thinking (but of course i will back my friends). come on, where is all the drama taking us all to? just chill and think, really. think. =)

poly's going to start and i think i am having cold feet now. seriously. gosh.

jayne. =D

2010-04-04T21:24:00.001+08:00

it's a great pity to see how this awesome band is going more and more unnoticed now. Bring Me To Life was such a massive hit when it first came out. it was Dare Devil's theme song but no one gives a hoot about the movie because they're so mesmerised by this song. Bring Me To Life is definitely one of the greatest rock hits of the 90's.

jayne. =D

2010-04-03T13:34:00.004+08:00

this is what i've been talking about for the whole time man! just singing on the stage with a few instruments, everything simple and nice. awesome backing vocals, the live piano and those slight electric guitar, awesome!. =D

i really like this song, it has got great vocals and it's not too country for me. it's great, i love it. =D

jayne. =D

2010-04-03T12:29:00.005+08:00

ok, i guess i should start replying tags because i feel like a ill-mannered person already. =P

YanLin: come on, it's the truth!. =D no jokes!
Monil: aiya. truth is, you are smart. but a little part of an ass. =D
Nicholas: the H*********e just happens to be the last ok. i just haven't met someone who's the best. 0.o OH and where can you find a white indian?!! gosh. =P

ok i seriously did not expect Monil and Nicholas to really come here, despite their eagerness to check out what i've posted here yesterday. it's was really nothing, right? =P

yesterday was awesome! thanks guys! YanLin, Gena, Monil and the unexpected Nicholas! and i cannot imagine how stupid i am to be fooled by Nicholas and YanLin. my reaction was standard "Just for Laughs". and yes you 2 are superb actors and actresses. gosh. i just cannot stop laughing at myself for my easy-to-fool-ness. =X

k guess some pictures here, others all @ facebook. =)

ok "some" is just 2. i am too lazy to put it up here cause i have to do it one by one. if you are interested to see the handsome and pretty faces of Nicholas, Monil, Gena and YanLin, kindly proceed to my facebook photos pages. =D

gosh. i really am happy to see you guys. all the stories that we shared and it really heartens me to see that we all have not gone totally into our separate worlds (yet). there's still lots of common stuffs between us and all. we still relate ourselves back to the awesome 4e3 classroom filled with goofy and absolutely hilarious people. =D

ok one funny conversation i just cannot stop laughing at:

Nicholas:"People should pay me to see me. how often do you see a half japanese in singapore?"
Monil: *very agitated* "eh what about me?! since when do you see a white indian walking around?!".....

and the crowd just burst into uncontrolled laughter. 0.o

thanks guys, for making up my simple day. more of this kinda gatherings and all k?
thank you so much, love you guys!. =D

many couples broke up since the end of Os. not that i am that sick to say that i like to see couples break up, but i think there's always something to learn from everything, and it's a good thing, right? let it go, move on. =D

jayne. =D

2010-04-01T11:23:00.003+08:00

i am tagged by Jingle to do this here. i haven't done this in a long long while!. =D

Yourself:

1. Name: Yang Chu Yi aka Jayne ( Jane Y. )

2. What do you think about yourself: just the human being i am

3. Single or Attached: Single

4. Branded or practical: more of practical, if you shop with me you'll die.

5. Use a word to describe your self: YaY! *clap clap*
Your Family:

1. Numbers of Siblings: 2

2. Daddy or Mummy: Dad. =D

3. Favorite Sibling: AIYO!

4. Best sense of Fashion: myself, best of the worst

5. Most lovable: my 2 bobos and my forever old cute. heh.

6. Favourite cousin: i have tonnes of them and i have no idea. =P

Your Friends:

1. Rich and Naughty: lol, i think i am the most appropriate. =P

2. Gossip Girl: i will never have anyone like them as a friend, seriously.
3. Heart to heart talk: YaLe! JieXing! Sandy! Clara! Fiona! Gena! YanLin! WeiYu! QiuFen!

4. Smart Ass: MONIL!.

5. Cool: Jingle!

6. Creative: for me it'll be Qiu. =D

7. Fun: haha Sandy!. =D

8. Alcoholic: alex! you should have seen him drunk. 0.o
9. Pretty: it'll be YanLin!. =D

10. Handsome:AWWWWW.... Nicholas TOH?! please don't tell him i said that about him. he'll go on and on. 0.o

Your beloved-to-be:

11. Cool or talkative: i'd take cool.

12. Smart or Clever: smart.
13. Fairer or darker: Darker

14. Receiver or giver: Both, definitely both.

15. Taller or shorter: taller! duh. 0.o
16. Fun or Boring: Fun! but not too crazy please. =P

17. Popular or Nobody: Popular but private. =D

18. Alcoholic or Smoker: Neither!

19. Math or Art or Science: i prefer Math, cause i'm super horrible at them. 0.o

20. Is your beloved your bf or gf: ERM.

Tag:anyone who wanna go this ok?!. =D

jayne. =D

2010-03-26T15:04:00.003+08:00

there you go, Siobhan Magnus of American Idol Season 9. she is my favourite for this season. all the hu-ha over her and Crystal Bowersox, i still like Siobhan more. she really reminds people of Adam Lambert. she's 19, very very very talented vocally and brings surprises to her audience with every performance. she is awesome and i hope she wins it this season. =D

American Idol really plays a big part in my playlist. from Kelly Clarkson to Carrie Underwood to Chris Daughtry to Elliot Yamin to Jordin Sparks to David Cook to David Archuleta to Kris Allen to Adam Lambert. gosh. how more successful can this show be? really awesome. =D

changed "baby, don't say goodbye" to "baby, just say goodbye" on the right sidebars. sometimes there is simply no point to clinging on to things that are just not worth our time and effort. just let it go, and everything will become much more easier for everybody. =D

sometimes i watch stage productions, performances and all. i can't help but think,"is this it? my part is just to watch?".... gosh. the constant struggle. sigh.

just went out with Sandy, Fiona and QiuFen yesterday. hope Sandy will upload the pictures soon so i can put it up here. KTV last night was a blast! =D

jayne. =D

2010-03-22T20:25:00.002+08:00

another glorious victory for MANCHESTER UNITED! that is why i am so proud to be a fan of United, they're just so simply awesome! and i feel more for PARK JI SUNG who scored the vital winner. he is an ASIAN! super super proud of him. =D

what more do i have to say? i don't know..

jayne. =D

2010-03-19T15:15:00.001+08:00

i finished watching 野蛮奶奶之大战戈师奶 on DVD yesterday and i felt curious about the actor who plays Mark, who also acts in 富贵门 as Tiger. so i wiki-ed him and found out that he's actually a singer too. his name is 王浩信. and the most interesting thing about him is that when my brother first saw him on 富贵门, he actually went "eh, he's good-looking eh...." and lol! so he caught my attention. the results on yahoo showed lots of his videos on YouTube. and so i viewed one of them. and gosh, he can really sing too! i like this song especially, so i decided to put the video here. enjoy. =D

after watching so many TVB dramas on DVD, i really hope to visit HongKong again. been there twice, once this year. it's a really great place with endless awesome food. however i must master my Cantonese first. it's just too shameful to tell others that i am a Canton but can't speak it fluently. =P

and to those who seriously like this song here, Aftermath by Adam Lambert, feel free to ask me to send it to you when you see me in person. but for now, just keep coming here and listen to the fabulous Lambert. =D

Champions League tonight and i really hope that United will draw a easier opponent. really hope to avoid Barcelona and Arsenal. it's just too early to meet them for now.

holidays are ending for secondary school and jc people, i hope you guys enjoyed your holiday! i know it isn't much of a holiday for jc-ers, i sincerely wish you guys all the best. busy days fly by and all the hardship will be over before you know it, seriously. just like last year, i toiled through every single day with all the math and science practices (and broke down a few times) and thinking back on it now, i just admire myself. =P so you guys can do it, really. =D

jayne. =D

2010-03-18T16:57:00.003+08:00

yay thanks for uploading the pictures to Facebook, yanlin! gosh i miss and love you 3 soooo much!. =((

made my weekly trip to Herbalife today. well, so up till now, i've lost 12.6kg in 11 weeks. not bad, but i think i can still do better. all the best to me ok?!. =D

and so i made my trip back to Admiralty by train. while i was waiting for train at Orchard station, i saw the train towards Jurong East was crowded (most probably due to school holidays) and so i thought, since i'm not in a hurry to get back, why not bounce back? so i took the train towards Marina Bay and almost 20minutes later, i was back at Orchard station, in the cabin, comfortably sitting down, listening to my iPod. once the door opens, the ah-mas came running into the cabin, towards me (cause i was sitting at the twin seat). both of them stood in front of me and the passenger beside me (who's sitting on the Priority seat) gave up his seat after a few moments of hesitation. (i think he must be cursing his luck) the other ah-ma was much younger than the one who already got a seat. she looked perfectly fine and was talking so loudly. BUT she stared at me all the way for one station long towards Newton. other passengers who were grumpily standing were glaring at me. i silently sweared and stood up, smiled at the standing ah-ma and went "lai auntie, gei ni zuo!" super loudly for everyone to hear. and there i go, standing all the way to Admiralty. 2 more stops, both ah-mas alighted. and the other standing passengers snapped up those 2 seats like free gifts. with me standing there. oh ass.

i am not complaining about me having to stand all the way to Admiralty. i just feel that this is not right. the Priority seats are for people who are for people who have difficulty in moving about. that includes a teenager who got a fractured leg, a sickly lady, a pregnant woman, etc etc. but what i saw was 2 perfectly fine and shrewd ah-mas who thought that the Priority seats were specially assigned for them, and so they should have the seats, no matter what the situation is. taking this for granted is just an understatement, in my opinion.

and i just realised that a handicap section was set up. but many ignorant passengers thought it was for them to hold on to the railings when the train gets too crowded. like my reasoning for handicap toilets, if nobody is using it or going to use it, normal users can definitely use it. but when a handicapped person needs to queue for it, or worse still, can't use it, i feel injustice is present. at Somerset station, a Caucasian man pushed a Caucasian lady on a wheelchair into the cabin. he did not know that there was a handicap section for her, so they were stranded by the door. not a metre away were idiotic passengers staring at the wheelchair, not budging to give up the space for the deserved. seriously, what the hell.

ok, i am done with my venting. =D

seriously, i keep wondering what will my life in poly be like. one step at a time, i guess. =)

我现在阅读的书籍的书名是《单身的这样那样》，作家是岸本叶子和横田滨夫，是一本日文原文的书。我觉得题材很有趣，文体更是吸引人。设一位单身的女作家和一位单身的男作家的通信，两人互相交换单身的心得。就这样，我就在台湾高雄的梦时代广场里的诚品书店买下了这本237台币的书，向等于新币的$10.50吧，还算合理。太久没读繁体竖着的书了，读得比以前慢。不过我相信再读多几章就会跟以前一样了。这本书的内容真的很有趣。两位有名的作家从单身的好处，坏处，寂寞，自由，快活，空虚，等全都一一道出，真得让我觉得非常的贴近，与现实生活的真实情况很符合。一样单身和决定保持单身很久的我随着书里的一字一句，被动摇了。heehee. =P

changed the song here to Aftermath by Adam Lambert. i feel that this is very great song from him. his vocal strength's totally displayed in this song. the high, the low, the screaming, the rock and the slow, everything done perfectly. go ADAM LAMBERT!. =DD

and i wonder when i should start watching American Idol.. until top 5? hm...

jayne. =D

2010-03-16T12:32:00.002+08:00

what have you guys been up to recently? i'm hearing lesser and lesser from my friends. it's time for me to realise that we all have to go our seperate ways anyway. but we'll still keep in contact ok?! =D

i have no idea what to blog about nowadays. that's my life, nothingness. maybe i'll have lots of stuffs to blog about once my exciting poly life starts!. i hope it'll be exciting. well, i think it will. =)

just finished Wolf Totem and i was on the verge of crying when it came to the last few chapters. a amazingly breathtaking novel. the struggle between animals and humans. we must really cherish what Mother Nature gives us. once it's gone, there's no turning back. =)

i seriously have lots of movies on my "movies to be watched" list. Up in the Air, Alice in Wonderland, Crazy Heart, Dear John, Green Zone, Cop Out, Kaiji: The Ultimate Gambler and the list goes on forever. =P

where do i really belong? sometimes i really have a strong calling from the stage. it keeps telling me "you belong here, on the stage to show everyone what you're made of!"... but is it realistic, to be having dreams about having a future on the stage? this kind of struggle, my gosh.

有时候我真的不明白，我已经很努力了，但是最后换来的只有埋怨和苛刻的批判。也许这就是所谓的“有十份耕耘，也未必可能有一份收获”吧。i am not a saint, i am only human.

jayne. =D

Wolf Totem

2010-03-02T14:22:00.002+08:00

i am currently reading Wolf Totem by Jiang Rong and this book has been revered as one of the best Chinese Literary. as a Chinese, i am very looking forward to reading this book. i've always been mesmerised by the Mongols and i always wanted to learn more about them. this book is a great platform for me, a Han Chinese, to know more about the Mongols.

got to know about this book in 2008. i only bought this book late last year and only read it a month ago due to my busy schedule. the book has got me into reading it more and more since i started it. the ever ongoing war between humans and animals, the fight for food, land and whatever resources that both parties need. how humans outwit animals, or vice versa, you can find it in this book. how cruel humans are, how humans can learn from wolves, what kind of mistakes we humans make. many times i feel that we humans just cannot compare ourselves with animals. they're far more superior than we are in many ways. 身为人类的我，真的会感到惭愧。

jayne. =D

back?

2010-03-02T14:13:00.003+08:00

taken from http://www.soccernet.com

really congratulations to MANCHESTER　UNITED! rooney is red-hot now, no one can deny this fact. my love forever, the Red Devils. =D

i've decided to bring my blog one step forward by sharing something at every post. be it a picture, an essay, a video, a book, a song, etc etc. something that i find interesting. i want to make my blog something more than a update of my life. i want to share more with people. =D

hm. i don't know if i should say that i'm "back".... when i first started this blog, i was only Primary 5, a 11 year old girl. who only wanted to share what's going on in her life, vent her frustrations on whatever she's unhappy about. over the years, she changed and matured a lot. she's no longer the easily persuaded, bully-prone, whatever you call her. she has changed to become stronger, individualistic, stone-hearted, and i think, most importantly, she knew how to think for herself more. i'm not trying to justify anything i am doing or going to do, i am just trying to let everybody know that i cannot always be the one whom people want to be.

我没有办法永远都扮演着你们所想象的。我也是我自己的。

recently, i find that i am not bothered by misunderstandings anymore. i prefer to let time take over everything. 我选择让时间解释一切。大费唇舌只会突出我自己的愚昧。

i hope poly starts soon. i want a new start, i want a new beginning of a new phase of my life. =)

no worries, i am still me. still the one whom you all love.
if you love me, i will love you back, no matter who you are, what you do.
that's me.

jayne. =D

taking a break?

2010-02-19T20:29:00.001+08:00

it has been long since i last wrote something here right. hm. i just don't have the urge to write here anymore, i don't know why. =P

maybe i should just take a break?

jayne =D

the4ofus!.=D

2010-02-09T13:25:00.003+08:00

the 3 person that will always occupy a space in my heart, i promise. =D
the 4 of us are in different schools now.. NYJC, AJC, SP and NP, but i know our friendship will not change. i love you guys!. =D

went out with YanLin, WeiYu and Gena on Sunday. it was super fun with them. the last time out with them was super loooonnnngggg ago. we really had fun. first, we had lunch at Eatzi @ Yishun Safra. then we went pool! i have no idea how to play it at all. thanks for all the patience, especially YanLin. heehee. and now i think i kinda like the game, heehee. then we went to KARAOKE! finally i get a chance to sing. haha. thanks for the day girls!. =D

and i am starting to miss my friends from Clique. i have not seen them at all since Clique chalet! Sandy, Clara, Fiona, Alex, QiuFen, GuiTing, etc etc. nowadays are just football, DVD, drama, books, going out alone, etc etc for me. it's losing its meaning...

anyway, i am watching 珠光宝气 now. i think this drama is super nice, though with all the scheming and all. cable tv is showing it now, but still not even half of it. i'm finishing it i hope before CNY.

jayne. =D

BORED

2010-02-05T12:25:00.002+08:00

this is what i call singing with all you have. this kinda co-ordination between members in a band is hard to come by, someday i hope i can do something like that. =)

lots of songs to be listened by me. a thing that i always to when i buy a CD is to filter off those songs that i don't like and put those that i like into my =D playlist. but i need time to listen to them. and i have too much on my Recently Added now! Adam Lambert, Kris Allen, Lady GaGa, East of Eden Vol. 1 and 2, Leona Lewis, One Republic, Backstreet Boys, New Moon OST, F.I.R... phew. i have to really spend time to listen to them. and i hate it when i specially take time off to listen to trash. gosh. =P

i just really wonder why. ok, i do admit that i am a very hard to please person. i am temperamental, i have a very bossy personality and i am be domineering at times. but don't people stop and just take a little time to use their brain to think why i am doing so. and i wonder why i need to give a damn about how much people understand me.

i have a reason behind everything i do and people simply just overthrow everything i say or do just because they think i am wrong. narrow thinking, that's what i call it. pea-brain is what i call it if i am badmouthing.

i do what i like to, that's me.
don't think i will give a damn to what you think is wrong.

jayne. =D

Birthday Credits

2010-02-01T16:55:00.013+08:00

my birthday's long gone but i still have to give credit to everybody who wished me HAPPY BIRTHDAY! =D from the bottom of my heart, i sincerely thank you all!. =D

birthday presents:

Dad for the N86 8MP and the red packet. =D
Mum for the awesome meal and the red packet. =D

WuHeng for the awesomely sexy Vampire Academy, Frostbite and Shadow Kiss and the awesome satisfying dinner at ichiban!. =D thank you so much!. =D

John for the awesome East of Eden Soundtracks!. =D the songs are superb, trust me. =D

YaLe for this really cool card! you have a motive while taking the pictures!! =P

3RSJ! for this really big and awesome NIKE bottle!. =D just when i needed one, thank you very much!. =D and i remember you 2 still owe me a meal, no need to keep reminding me. =D

words cannot describe how surprised i am to receive presents and a letter from QIUFEN. i was like WTF???!!!! when qiu said HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! to me and presented me with a bag of stuffs. WOW!. =D thanks for the letter, qiu. i really wish you all the best for your future too! still waiting for your birthday card. =D

AMANDA! for this very nice card! and i like your thumbprint!. =D

GUITING! for this very unique bracelet! i have no idea what it is until you guys enlightened me, lol! thanks!. =D thanks for your card too, i love you!. =D

DOLLY! for this very nice scarf! sorry for this ugly display... i have no idea how to put this thing to look nice with the very sleek plastic bag.. sorry!

thanks for your presents people!. =D i'm still waiting for my 2 pigs' presents.. hm, wonder when they're going to give me.. fiona gave me my birthday present at the end of February last year. 0.o

ok, now for birthday SMSes, not in order ok. =D

YaLe!
Fiona!
Clara!
Dolly!
GuiTing!
YanPing!
YanLin!
LaiYu!
Sandy!
LiXin!
Catherine!
Nicholas Tan! (yes i am surprised too!)
Alex!
MeiLing!
WeiKiat!
ErYu!
Henry! (i am sincerely shocked till i wake up when i received your sms!)

i've saved Fiona's, YaLe's, Clara's, GuiTing's, Sandy's, Alex's birthday message to me cause their's are very special!. =D it warms my heart everytime i read them. =D

ok so now to FACEBOOK people! thank you for writing on my wall!. =D

Darren!
Linus!
Monil!
Azlan!
YiLun!
Eileen!
Cheryl!
MeiQi!
Bryan!
Clara!
Syaakir!
JeremyNg!
WeiYu!
Jingle!
Johnathan!
GuiTing!
YongSheng!
ZongXuan!
Moon!
LiNing!
JiaLe!
Sakthi!
Jowell!
QianHui!
Gena!
YanPing!
Malin!
KangYiao!
Vivian!
Mustaqim!
ChuNing!
Amanda!
LaiYu!
JieXing!
Brian!
YanHong!
MengYong!
Andrew!
Arun!
JunXiong!
Sandy!

i believed i've replied every single one of your wishes personally. thank you all!. =D

AND. thank you so much to CLIQUE for the BIRTHDAY SURPRISE!. it's shocked the hell out of me. guess you guys should have seen it smacked on my face. it was awesome! thank you people!. =D

jayne. =D

the long absence

2010-01-28T21:07:00.002+08:00

taken from http://www.soccernet.com

MANCHESTER UNITED, the love of my life. =D

it has been so long since i wrote here. so long that i need to refer back to my organiser to check what i've been missing out on updating here. ok, so here we go. =)

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22nd Jan 2010

i met up with YaLe! we watched Invictus at GV Plaza and i say the movie totally rock! matt damon and morgan freeman, they're the perfect actors for these 2 characters. absolutely delightful experience in the cinema. =D it's the 1st time that i get to meet YaLe 2 times in a week, it's so worth the mention here. like, WOW!. =D it's our last meet-up before JC starts for her and so we cherish our time together very much. =D thanks yale! you've been a absolutely wonderful and amazing friend for like....6-7 years? hahah. thanks yale!. =D

had dinner with WuHeng and our friend, GuoHuang at ichiban causeway point and i say it was a very very very sinful yet satisfying dinner. i'm now a great fan of ichiban. the food there is indisputably delicious! =D thank you, my small brother, for the huge treat!. =D

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23rd Jan 2010

yup i know it's my birthday and i thank every single one of you for the birthday wishes and presents! i will sort it all out and have the presents photographed and put it here in a post sometime later ok?! THANK YOU PEOPLE!. =D

i did not go out with anybody, well cause apparently no one asked me out. so i chilled for the whole day at home! i'm not complaining or anything, i really need to rest at home. january had been super busy. had a great time reading my books. i'm proud to say that i've finished reading Tempted and i'm SAD! AH! ok shall not spoil those who haven't read it. =)

went out with John at night. as usual, we were looking for some place not too crowded and a place which has parking lots, which is exceptionally difficult on a saturday night. settled for AMK Hub and we always have to park at AMK central. bought lots of things and non of it was mine. =P aha. but anyway, it's nice to walk around like that with my big brother on my birthday. just feels cool. =D

watched lots of matches. Manchester United vs Hull City. gosh my WAYNE ROONEY! i am so having your name on a jersey for next season's kit, i swear! 4 goals, how much wonderful can it be?! just love rooney for his name is rooney. =D

i stayed wide awake throughout the whole of Spurs vs Leeds. and well, my effort paid off! last minute drama and all, just the thing i hope to witness when i stay up so late. =D

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24th Jan 2010

went to Sandy's house to have lunch with Clara, Sandy and Benjamin. met up with people to proceed to Pasir Ris for our most anticipated CLIQUE CHALET!. =D everything went on smoothly.. checked in, chilled, played, bought things for bbq, etc etc. suddenly decided that i need to buy more stuffs for them to chomp on at night. and that's when things start to change....

i was so tired, i was having a super loud migrane and i was so glad that i finally reached the door of the chalet. but, it was locked. i knocked, NOBODY OPENS TO LET ME IN and THEY ALL SCREAMED LIKE A BUNCH OF KINDERGARTEN KIDS..... i was about to **(*@(*$(_@_&$(&$@&$&*@#&* when a person finally opens to door.

i stepped in and immediately they went HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO JAYNE~~~! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!.

and OH MY GOD. i was SOOOOOOOOOOOO SURPRISED and taken off guard! my jaw just hung there for a long time. i wasn't going to cry ( and i don't think crying is the thing for me ) but DAMN! i was SUPER SURPRISED! that's hell of a surprise you guys had for me man! thank you so much! more credits for you all in my Birthday Special. =D

thank you for all the presents! =DD

i did nothing special, really. just played cards, act like a maid/mother to them and i am happy doing so for them!. =D

strolled in the park at night ( or i should say, midnight ) with Qiu. and i love those times. where we can just talk about anything without any background noise or nosy people around us. i love it. thanks qiu!. =D

when i went back. i think almost all of them were pouring wine or alcoholic things into their throats. alex and eryu went exceptionally crazy after getting drunk, you should have seen how they behave.. gosh!

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25th Jan 2010

woke up early and i spent the whole day preparing the BBQ. did nothing much while the others played. thanks to guiting, amanda and jingen for helping!. =D benjamin and kangyiao and bryan, nobody would have anything to eat if not for you two. thank you so much!. =D

i cannot remember much. i just remember that i was the earliest to sleep and i slept on the bed on my own for the whole damn night. gosh i feel so bad. i occupied to whole bed for the entire night!! =X

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26th Jan 2010

cabbed home immediately after we checked out cause i was so damn sleepy even though i slept the most and most comfortably amongst everybody. =P the S17 ride home, i'll remember you as long as i live. =P

thanks to everybody who made this chalet so enjoyable! thank you to all of you, if not this chalet wouldn't be such a wonderful and memorable one for me. i promise there will be clique outings in the future and let us all still stay in contact ok?! =D thanks to: SANDY! CLARA! BENJAMIN! ALEX! ERYU! JINGEN! JINGLE! AMANDA! GUITING! QIUFEN! DOLLY! FIONA! BRYAN! KANGYIAO! MALIN! SHIQI! MEILING! WEIKIAT! guess i didn't miss anyone out right. =) thank you all! =D

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27th Jan 2010

i knew it was the day that SMSes will be sent out to inform us about our posting results. i did not specially wait up, though i did think of doing that. but i instinctively woke up when my phone rang at around 6.30a.m. and i hurriedly pressed the "open" button. the message says: YANG CHU YI, you are posted to NGEE ANN POLY, PSYCHOLOGY & COMMUNITY SERVICES (N77) under 2010 JAE. and i went YYYYYYYYYYEEEEEEEEEEESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and i couldn't get back to sleep. 0.o

i am totally delighted. i have been aiming for this course since sec3 and i am very glad to get into the course that i desire. i thank myself for all the hard work and effort i've put in. =DD

went to NP with Sandy to appeal for her desired course but to no avail. but nvm sandy, we're still in the same poly, though not in the same school. we'll still see each other often enough!. =D

waited for bus to head to Causeway Point. and the crowd waiting for buses there was HORRENDOUS. we gave up and took a cab. will it always be like that for us too? oh man. a $12 taxi ride. =X

thank you sandy! for accompanying me round the whole shopping centre! =D you have super lots of patience, really. =D the dinner was YUM! =P

watched football at night. Aston Villa vs Arsenal was.... ok, i should say. draw is a good enough result for United. =D
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TODAY!

woke up and Dad told me that ROONEY SCORED A WINNER against man city! gosh i didn't know that when i got to sleep cause the live stuffs were not showing anywhere. i was ecstatic! ROONEY YOU ARE MY HERO!. =DD YAY! =D

watched tennis and i was rooting for Li Na. she gave it a real good fight and i think she did her best against the powerful Serena Williams. though Zheng Jie got thrashed by Henin, i still am proud of the 2 of them, for i am a Chinese! =D my bet is that Henin will win this, she is my favourite woman player and she is still very strong. =D

for what is left, i hope it'll be a Murray-Tsonga men's final. i hope Tsonga wins Federer. =P

jayne. =D

your departure

2010-01-20T20:53:00.002+08:00

it is really difficult for me to type all these here. so much more difficult than i expected. i thought i will handle it ok, but all these... just proves that i'm only human. the departure of a close friend, i always thought i can handle it like i'd send a sms. just send it out, leave it in the "Sent" folder and wait for it to disappear from my life once it became the 21st sent message. but i guess this time it has really got to me. this photo is in one of my frames and i guess it'll be there for quite some time, until i have new photos developed. and now, i wonder how i will feel when come one day, i take it down to put it in my sketch book for it to be kept in the dark. for once i am sure that i will recall all the wonderful memories we share together. =D

we were friends for 4 years. close friends for... i don't know... 5 months? or even lesser. if not for the unfortunate event that struck you, we may not even become closer. we may not be BFF kinda close or that attached, but with you, i feel peace and understanding. i know you know what i mean. i am good with words, but this time round, here.... i know you know what i mean without me having to babble on.. i feel the unspoken chemistry between us. i thank you for being my friend. you listened to me a lot when i was down and all.. thank you so much!

please don't ever forget what i wrote to you in your Birthday card. let us go when you have to. forget us if you have to. memories will be ours forever, no one can take it away from us. if you have to let us go to move on, do it happily. we all will be happy for you and for us. =D

all the best, my friend.
my good friend.
my close friend, kher jie xing.
as for me, JIEXINGGGGG~~~~~~~~......
like how i always call you. =D

jayne. =D

2010-01-19T11:51:00.002+08:00

the tree called out to me and i had to take a picture of it. i mean, the tree's so special and attractive right. =D

went to East Coast Park with my 4e3 classmates to cycle. Fiona, Bryan, LaiYu, ZongXuan, ZiYi, YongQi, BingXian, YiXuan, MengYong, ShiHui. =D i had a great time with them. but the cycling part... was not too good for me. i mean it was as per normal for the 1st hour. but as the clock ticks, i began to go tooo slow. i think it's because i haven't eat anything and the weight lose thing is causing my strength to go down, not like before. phew. everything good comes with a price right. =P

and please people, you guys seriously do not have to give in to me when it comes to dining together. i will have something that i can eat, so no worries ok?!

started on Hunted last night and i am liking Zoey Redbird more with every page turned. at first i thought she's a really fickle person, with Erik, Heath, Loren and now Stark... but as i read on, i realised she's just a teenager like us. the amount of pressure on her, how inexperienced she is, she is just a kid.. she's like a real person, in contrast with those perfect fictional characters. that's why i like her so much. =P

i am proud to say that i can speak Mandarin fluently. very proud. each time i come across a obviously-Chinese girl/boy/man/women/gentleman/lady and speaks Mandarin like a foreigner, i feel so sad. i know i must put in effort to not fall into that category. =D

tears can't fall as easily as rain does.
if you only knew.

jayne. =D

same, but a little different

2010-01-13T23:20:00.003+08:00

my beloved N81 8GB, i thank you so much for serving me so loyally and patiently for 2 years. you went through loads with me and you were always there when i needed you. i only took you to the doctor once ( a record for me with a Nokia ) after a year of accompaniment. all the skin peel and scratches, i apologise for abusing you. =P even though you contained 1500++ songs and 500++ images, you never failed me by lagging. you're even faster than the other phones. i thank you very much! you will always be with me, i'm never giving you away. thank you N81 8GB!. =D

i hope N86 8MP will not lose to N81 8GB. gosh i feel so sad to call my N81 8GB my "previous" phone. =( i am trying to get use to my new phone here. hope we can get along, like how i did with my previous phone. =) i have to start from scratch, which means personalising of contacts (i have no idea why the duplicating wasn't done properly), starting up of tonnes of playlists, personalising of tones, etc etc. phew. all the best, jayne. =D

i still feel weird when i see people typing my name as "jayne"... i applaud my friends' effort to adapt to this new addition of "y" between the "ja" and "ne"... but i still feel.... awkward. =X

i am finally starting on those frozen HongKong dramas. started on Forensic Heroes 2 yesterday. =) it's awesome awesome awesome! =D

and now, i am also in the middle of Untamed. phew. it's gonna be hectic. =D

Psychology and Community Services. it is going to be my choice. =D

jayne. =D

A Satisfied Me

2010-01-11T21:18:00.007+08:00

the 2 papers that i'm the most proud of of my entire life, until now. gosh. still can't believe that i managed all A and B. it's just so unbelievable.... though my score was better in Prelim's, i didn't dwell too much about it cause i know the competitors are different. gosh, getting B for both Sciences are just too.... miraculous. i know hard work pays off, but this. is. just. too. amazing!. =D i am a very satisfied and content person now. =D

to those who are not content with your results, all i can say is that you must move on with your dear life and not have your eyes stuck on the rear-view mirror. since there's nothing you can do to change what's done, just accept it and make a decision that's good for yourself with what you have. all the best, people!. =D

going to meet sandy up tomorrow to discuss how where we'll be going to after secondary school. for me, it'll be NP for sure. Psychology and Community Services will be in my head for very long, i guess. i've been aiming for this course since the beginning of Sec3.. now i'm eligible. i hope i'll get into this dream course of mine. =D

just can't believe that i survived today. woke up at 10a.m. today and i was all nervous and jumpy. dad didn't say anything but just rolled his eyes. =P i was shaking like a nervous shit before i collect my results. i was ecstatic when mr.chin was announcing all the top scorers and the good news. =D all the emotions and all, it was wonderful. not to mention i was SO DAMN NERVOUS. =P

thanks to all the teachers who showed their concern for me! madam azlin, madam ilysa, madam latifah, mrs chew, miss rosie, miss dianah, mr.ong, mr.yong, madam kaur, miss loh... thanks to all the teachers! i will go back to school as often as i can. =D

phew. what a day. =D

jayne. =D

where my heart lies.

2010-01-10T18:45:00.003+08:00

NGEE ANN POLY OPEN HOUSE and RED CAMP SPECIAL PROGRAMME was a blast! i absolutely enjoyed every single of yesterday. it was AWESOME!. =D

2 months since Red Camp 6 ended and all the Red Campers and SLs are reunited yesterday. it was super cool to see those familiar faces again. and i totally love it when Matthew asked What Camp??!! then we all shout RED CAMP!!!! thinking back, it's really heartwarming. =D

had no impression of the Mass Dance anymore and i danced like a duck, more than ever. =P all the cheers, HELLO!, EH IT'S HER!, the new old people., etc etc.... everything makes my yesterday so damn awesome. =D

the photo shoot was amazing and i'm so happy that i kept the photo! it's now in one of my many photo frames. though it's a pity that i didn't get to record a song, i know there'll be lots of chances for me in future, somehow i have this confidence right now to say this. =D

i thank every single lecturer and current student who talked to me during the Course Councelling session too! enquired on Chinese Mass Comm, Mass Comm, Chinese Studies, Psychology and Community Services, Arts Bussiness Management, etc etc.. now i have more information and first-hand account of what the course offers. thank you all!. =D

the screening of Transformers 2 under the stars was really memorable. i didn't pay attention to the movie a lot cause i watched it quite a few times already. but the real reason is that the sky was too damn pretty to ignore. the weather was cool and the sky was splattered with stars. amazing night, it is. =D

didn't really say goodbye here and there cause i know, i will have a chance to see them again. maybe not sometime soon, but definitely will again. =D

right now, i am kind of sad that my NP shirt's gone cause my goodie bag was mixed up. =(
but nevermind, like what Sandy said, i'll have a lot of nice NP shirts when i'm a student of NP. =D

i am very impressed with the way i cope with temptations. all the free doughnuts, popcorns, drinks, ice-creams, sweets....! and, i didn't even have a bite of those. i am SO PROUD OF MYSELF. =D so far i've been following the routine quite well and i hope and i persevere until the day comes.. all the best, JAYNE!. =D

hell tired right now. slept at 4a.m., woke up at 8.30a.m. to collect my Bursary Award. phew. $350 was worth my sleep, i guess. =P i still haven't got a wink until now. so i've impressed myself by staying awake too. ok, to be honest. i just want to tire myself. so that i can sleep properly tonight for the sake of tomorrow. if not i'll just have a nervous breakdown in the hall before tearing the envelope up. =P

all the best, my loves!
i am so f-king ******* now. =P

jayne.=D